happy valentines!

yeah right. i hate my life. not that im single (never been a problem before, and most likely never will). just took the civ pro exam a few hours ago. it was a 6-9 exam, very tiring and draining. wasnt able to answer all the items. crap. of course, that's not the only thing that made life suck. actually, it didnt make life suck, it just made it difficult. what made life suck today was the fact that, its valentine's day and looking at my life, well, not really looking at my life, but being reminded of what kind of life i have, shit, i ask myself, "when will it be my turn?" turn for what? turn to die of course! ive been having these chest pains lately, most likely, the civ pro subject is stressing me out. just yesterday, i cant read the codal provision because i keep feeling dizzy and found it really hard to concentrate because it felt like the surroundings are moving. anyway, while walking down the stairs in the library, i asked the question i ask myself from time to time, "will i drop dead now?". because like i said, ive been feeling those chest pains, particularly on the heart area. how long do i have to keep waking up in the morning? really getting tired of forcing myself to get out of bed.