went to the mall with three of my cousins. if i remember correctly, this was the first time that all four of us went out. never realized that, that is, if im not mistaken

ive made a lot of wrong turns in my life. and i keep making them. probably, im going to keep making them til i die. it seems i just have the knack for making the wrong decisions. and even if i realized where i made the wrong turn, i just keep on going. trying not to regret each one and not even attempting to undo it.

Just woke up and i have no idea where my mother and my brother is. well, i could guess where they could possibly be. anyway, point is, its usual that i wake up and find myself home alone and have no idea where my family went. sometimes they wake me up and tell me while im half asleep. and thats not really effective since i might not be listening. or they really dont tell me at all because it doesnt really matter that much to me.

i like being left home alone, especially in the morning since im not a morning person. i can be in the foulest mood and no one would mind. the only thing i dont like when home alone and not having an idea where they went is that when someone calls, i have no idea what to say where they went

life is depressing. i think i need to read 10 million books this summer.

im not in the mood to talk to anyone. why blog about it? i dont know. just wanted to say i dont feel like talking to anyone in any form of communication. and it has nothing to do with my recent tooth extraction due to an impaction. sure, its still a little sore and i still cant eat properly, but even if i was feeling ok, im still not in the mood to talk to anyone for any reason.

this entry should have been posted a few weeks ago. i wrote this in the pocket pc and forgot to send and post it

Talk about weird. Yesterday, it seemed like i have this uncanny (yes, i used the word uncanny) ability to make the gadgets around me to not work properly. First, it was my cellphone (again). I just bought P20 worth of credits thru autoload. And when i sent my message, it told me the network was busy. Ive been trying the entire day, and it kept saying the same thing, cant send the text message because the network was busy, so i better try again later. But when i used my brother's sim card, it worked fine even on my phone. So it wasnt my phone that was defective. Anyway, after midnight, the phone's back to normal.

Second was the pocket pc. I needed to reformat the memory card simply because the windows media player cant update its library. Something as simple as synchronizing which i do daily isnt working the way it should be. So a lot of time was wasted just because of those minor irregularities in the normal functioning of them gadgets. I didnt even attempt to back-up my phone because with the way things were going yesterday, i might end up in ali mall again, to have my phone repaired.

no summer OLA for me. im a bit disappointed actually. but i shouldnt be because when i saw the list that i was one of those who were conditionally accepted, i knew then and there that the chances of meeting the condition that would make me qualified to enroll for the summer program was small. maybe i just ignored what i thought and gave in to what i wanted. so i became hopeful. and now im disappointed. well, not that disappointed but it did bother me because it would have been really nice if i met the condition so i could register and enroll. it would really ease up my academic load this coming school year (if i get to stay in the university as a law student). it just sucked and no one's to blame but me. i mean, if i was just tough enough a few semester ago, i wouldnt have dropped the subject that led to a chain of events that brought me to where i am now.

finally, ive reformatted the PC. it works much better now. started around 330PM and its already 11 and im almost finished re-installing the software i need to restore.

thanks to the pocket pc, i can take my meds on time. well, almost. sometimes i dont recognize its the pocket pc's reminder alarm that im hearing. i thought it was my brother's cellphone's low battery alarm. when i checked what time it was, only then did i realize it was the pocket pc reminding me to take my meds for my minor dental surgery. why am i writing this? no reason. just had my last exam a while ago. people were saying that the junior year is over. yeah, but it doesnt follow were already seniors. well, for them but not for me. lawschool is still a big uncertainty for me.

i could be having dinner with my blockmates and eating some free food but im at home doing some civ pro digests. my hand hurts already.

i think ive found a good place to study. lately, ive been going to the mall and always, my time is just wasted because i just take my lunch there and dont even spend at least an hour of studying. im better off having lunch in UP because not only do i get to study in the library, i also save money since the food is much cheaper. my problem with studying in the library is that i feel too restrained and its a bit incovenient to go to the restroom because i always study in the third floor. and i also have this problem of being in the mood to study in a particular place. if i get tired of studying in a certain place, i need to move in another spot because my brain wont absorb anything once im not in the mood to be in the place. how picky! so i need to learn quickly how to determine which place im in the mood to study in so i could maximize my time

Taking a break from writing digests...

..and doing some moblogging :)

Maybe i should be some kind of guidance counselor/tech support guy. People always ask my opinion regarding their relationships (family, friends, even romantic relationships) and also ask me if i can fix techie (even mechanical) related stuff.

As for my opinions regarding relationships, i always try to think of unconventional advice, if there's any. Why? Because if they want to hear what most people would say, i wont bother to help the person because they could ask for it from other people. I try to give the kind of help that only a few would (not could) give. Like brutally honest answers. Sometimes i just say things what i think people should hear (ala matrix oracle).

As for techie stuff, i dont know how that is acquired. Not that im an expert (im not) but i would say i know enough to fix and handle most techie related concerns. They say its a guy thing. Well, not really but it seems more guys have the tendency to be better with techie related things. Anyway, i just happen to learn and understand techie related things quickly. I like to tinker with gadgets and other mechanical/electronic things. But not to the point of opening and disassembling it. Well, I know how to assemble a PC. Thats a no brainer for experts or even above average techie guys. For me, i just know enough. Enough to handle each forward step of technology.

Domestic life

I have to remind myself not to go home if possible. I think im better off anywhere than being at home. Well, when it comes to peace of mind at least. And i still call it home and not a mere house where my family resides because, it still is a very nice home. It just so happens that i dont fit in it. Whenever im at home, i get burdened with stuff and never really given that amount of time i need to really relax (and when i say relax, i mean peace and comfort without being disturbed in any way. Thats why i like to be home alone). Someone's always knocking on my door or asking me to do stuff. And the reason they ask me and not somebody else (and there are lots of somebody else) is because they reason out that im the only one capable. Yeah right. Its either they really are clueless of the skills of other people (who are better than me with regard to some stuff and usually its the stuff they are asking me to do) or they just like to pick on me because i easily give in. That sucks. I just hate my current domestic life. And my social life isnt any better because of my loner tendencies (i just have to stay away from people from time to time) and my demanding academic life.

got called for specpro this morning. and it was the last class for the sem. well, last spec pro class. the last class for agency and partnership was last thursday and the last tax law class will be this coming thursday. that would leave me with three subjects per week.

back to spec pro, i was the first one to be called. and i didnt do well. crap. the only time i got called and i blew it. i studied. but well, as usual, that wasnt enough. and it was so early in the morning. like a blockmate once said, "i havent even rubbed two brain cells together". or something like that. but then again, i dont have much brain cells to rub. many got killed in the regular alcohol intake of 2004.

i havent blogged for quite some time. why? i dont know. i just didnt realize that time flew that fast. not that i was busier than the usual but i have been occupied with stuff. tech stuff to be more specific. a few weeks ago, my sister bought a laptop. and just yesterday, i bought a wireless broadband router. and a day before that, my cousin lent me her pocket pc. a few weeks ago and maybe a week after my sister bought her laptop, i bought a 2gig flash disk and USB connector. and there's been a lot of "free cuts" from time to time with regard to my classes this month. and i got called for my tax class for the first time this semester and it wasnt that bad. sounds like a good month? not really. i would say it was a bad month for me when it comes to gadgets (aside from other minor unfortunate things but not unfortunate enough to be really strangely unlucky). this is a little bit exaggerated but still very descriptive of what i had gone through lately.

the day we bought the laptop, we found out that it flooded in our house when we got home. why? i forgot to switch off the faucet. and then, when i installed the operating system on the laptop, i found out that my copy isnt good enough to be compatible with the needed software my sister would use for the laptop. so i had to buy a more updated operating system. and then there's my phone. it malfunctioned again! and on valentine's day! nice timing as always (the first time it went "haywire" was christmas eve or two hours before 12 midnight of the 25th). so i didnt have a fully functional phone for a couple of days. then there's the router. it took me hours setting it up. i thought theres something wrong with the configuration but i found out the following day there was none. how did i find out? i just stopped thinking too closely on the project. maybe im getting too "emotional" that i cant think properly and as rationally as before. i was too eager and excited with the router that i had the tendency to overlook the obvious. and before that realization, i was fucking convinced that theres something wrong because it wasnt working like it should. in the end, it just so happened that i was thinking too much. anyway, its really hard to explain, and im just happy its working now. and then theres the software for the pocket pc. i cant find any online thats available for downloading. that sucks. what if the owner lost the installation CD? but then again, most likely, ive overlooked this one again and im not searching well enough.

as for valentines day, i spent a few hours of it with my law blockmates. it was sort of an accident. i went to sm north right after my partnership law class to have some lunch and at the same time window shop because my brother's birthday is coming up. while walking in the mall, a blockmate saw me and informed me that theres a block lunch at a nearby mall. so i went there after roaming a little, and after receiving a text message from another blockmate telling me that they're already there. then went to a blockmate's condo unit and watched Juno. then went to cubao to have dinner with my family (which is sort of an annual thing, family dinner every valentines day and i missed last year's because i had an exam for civpro).

and i also figured out how to remove the malware that infected my PC weeks earlier.

im infected with a malware! nice. just makes life more difficult

still no civpro. i think. finally no more midterm exams! done with agency, civpro, specpro and locgov exam. not sure if i did well. and now its february. like things are going to be easier. and theres something wrong with the PC. cant open any hard disk drives! well, they cant be opened by clicking on it. you have to resort to some keyboard action.

no medjur. just had agency. and just found out that there wont be civpro class this week. wow, more time to study for my locgov midterms. the life of a law student is a wretched life.

no civ pro today. and im really not feeling well. damn cold. and i have another midterm exam by the end of the week. nice.

i think i have a cold. crap. i hate sleeping with a clogged nose. i think its because of the back to back midterm examinations i just had. must have really drained a lot of energy from my brain cells. it drained a lot of energy that i made another "movie" mistake last saturday. i watched D-war, without researching on it first. it wasnt as bad as Pathfinder. almost. great special effects. thats it. thats the only good thing about the movie. its like watching a video game with great special effects.

procedure week: midterm exam for civpro on friday, and midterm exam for specpro on saturday

cant believe i fell asleep last night! well, i fell asleep earlier than midnight. and its a saturday night. crap. at least i woke up early today

not doing well in school. crap. better pull myself together. i should pull harder

no locgov for today. sixth straight day for having 2 whopper juniors, one large coke and large fries for lunch

i should write a new year's resolution and commit to it. thats one way of keeping myself focused and hopefully occupied enough to counter the bothersome feeling

4th day on 2 whopper juniors, large fries and large coke. watched I am Legend. not that good and not that bad. its like 1% resident evil, 1% castaway and 98% pursuit of happyness. a very "self-centered" movie

things arent going well for me right now. emotionally and mentally. another "turbulent period" ahead.

i guess i could it say everything's going as expected. like these past 2 years, something fucked up comes up that messes things up. problem is, its a very hazy something. right now, im having a hard time pulling myself together. i didnt attend three classes this week! im disturbed/bothered again by something i dont know that's really bringing me down. in 2006 it came late january. in 2007 it came around mid-february. this year is a little early since its only the first week. but its still within the expected period since im expecting it to come around the first three months at the beginning of the year. another problem is, i havent really figured out how to fight it. this semester is the last time i can bounce back. if theres a perfect time for it, now is the time. one last chance. so, i better figure out how to counter this thing thats holding me down or well, everything will be lost. well, everything i know now. crap.

this is the third consecutive day that i had 2 whopper juniors, one large fries (with mayonnaise as dip) and a large coke. will i go for five straight days? maybe six even?

the internet connection's ok tonight. finally! hope this isnt temporary.

anyway, wasnt able to attend my first class. experienced extreme drowsiness. maybe too much coffee and taking multivitamins sort of messed up my system. fortunately, classes were suspended from 1pm onwards. in effect, i only had one class (agency).

really brilliant. its past midnight and i havent studied for my tuesday classes (spec pro, agency and medjur). the first one starts at 8am. for some reason, the extreme drowsiness pestered me all day long.

its monday again tomorrow! the only nice thing i can look forward to every monday is that i get to listen to the Brewrats.

i now have 12055 wallpapers, 9081 of which are sexy celebs and 1669 are movie wallpapers

i think im developing the habit of winking. better control it before i end up getting slapped by a female stranger.

just had locgov (from 730am to 1030am). then paid for the stuff i photocopied. P595! thats crazy! well, not really. should be more mindful of my spending. its only a few days since the year started. then had lunch with my blockmates (beach house)

what the craps wrong with my yahoomail! is there something wrong with my internet connection or what?

just had agency. didnt have tax law class. then loitered in the mall

classes start tomorrow. wait, in a few hours since its past midnight

in a few hours, were off to montalban and spend new year's eve and new years day there

finally! my phone's fixed. actually, it wasnt my phone that was defective, it was the memory card. ok. for a person who always had memory card problems with his previous phone, that should have been one of the first things that should have entered my mind. well, it didnt. i assumed it was the phone's software that was malfunctioning. so, when i went to the counter, after removing the memory card, i was surprised the phone's working well. that was embarassing. at least the nokia care personnel said they might as well check the phone to be sure and reformat the memory card. nice. and good thing i decided to look for another nokia care center. because the first one told me it would take 2-3 weeks for my phone to be fixed. i cant last that long! without a phone i mean. so good thing it wasnt the same in other branches. the one in ali mall only took three hours. but it was still very stupid of me not to have thought that it might be the memory card that was defective. i wasted christmas eve and christmas day just because of my negligence. maybe i was too overwhelmed with the unexpected and sudden loss of my phone.

feeling a bit better now. just had the worst christmas ever. and its all because my phone crashed 2 hours before christmas. my phone still isnt fixed and i hope it can be repaired tomorrow.

my phone just crashed. i think fate is trying to prevent me from contacting someone

less than 24 hours after coming home from baguio, i went to sonya's garden in tagaytay for my uncle and aunt's wedding anniversary. this time i drove the van and it was a good thing i didnt volunteer to bring the van to baguio. it almost overheated thrice, and finally overheated when we reached our house. if i brought it to baguio, i would have caused a lot of delays.

just got home from baguio. we were already in quezon ave around quarter to 10 but we got stuck in traffic for more than an hour.

anyway, it was fun. fortunately, i didnt experience any headaches like the last time i went up to there

going to baguio tomorrow. moment of truth? which of the 3 doctors is correct? going to find that out tomorrow

had civpro wednesday last week. had agency and tax last thursday. didnt have civpro last friday. had locgov, went to trinoma, went back to UP for the madness practice, attended malcolm madness, then went to what was supposed to be a college block dinner. slept last sunday. had civpro last monday. had spec pro and agency for tuesday. went to UP early for the lantern parade practice but unfortunately, we werent able to do it because it was still a bit early (we needed the darkness)

learned about rumors circulating about me saying something bad about malcolm madness (and the origin came from the one and only usual suspect). well, thats the problem with rumors, they tend to get muddled along the way. just omit a few words or change some of it, you get an entirely knew story that just sounds like the original but has a very different meaning.

didnt have specpro (i think. i left 30mins early. didnt wait for the bell). had agency and got called. i think i had an ok recit. had medjur and as promised, there was a quiz. again, i think i did ok

had civpro, went to public ad to do some research for locgov and then walked home. one full week of walking home. just got home and im tired

its december 9 already! holy crap. time really flies even if ur not having fun

had locgov class. read a little more for agency, almost finished medjur. attended madness practice.

didnt have civpro again. read a little for the tuesday class agency. worked on the agency problem set2 til 5pm.

didnt have civpro today. but i spent the rest of the day researching for agency. it was really draining. and this is my third day of not riding any form of transport (aside from my own 2 legs) to go home. ok, maybe thats not true in its entirety. but i am trying to make it a habit to walk more.

almost done with specpro. im one case away from reviewing everything i just read. this is one of those moments where i wonder why didnt study earlier. i could have read this last week but well, i didnt. this sucks

i havent blogged for a full week! it seems i just got lazy. so lets do a recap of the week

monday: all i remember is that i had civpro that day
tuesday: no specpro but had agency
wednesday: just had civpro and then went to the mall
thursday: no agency, but had tax class
friday: no classes because its bonifacio day
saturday: no locgov. then had lunch with 3 blockmates then went to the mall and bought stuff
sunday: read specpro and im still not done. tried to do the civpro digest and just finished one (out of three)

thats pretty much it. another uneventful week. and ive been called a couple of times in civpro and im yet to give a good recit

just bought a brand new phone (a nokia 3110). so far, i think its a good choice. i still feel bad of losing my other phone (its been days! it stopped functioning last tuesday night). what made it worse was that all my calendar entries, notes, text messages and most importantly, my contacts were in that phone. and now, those information are forever lost. oh well. actually, i dont feel like saying "oh well". because even if i have a new phone, it would still take some time for me to really forget the loss of my previous phone.

its official. my cellhpone's gone! it died last night (november 20, 2007) around 6:15pm.

had a very uneventful week. had my real first day of classes last friday, november 16. watched beowulf last november 15. no tax class last thursday, no civpro last wednesday and no locgov last saturday. spent half of saturday studying for specpro. did an agency digest today.

the only nice thing that happened last week was the cold and rainy weather last thursday. i think im the only one who enjoyed that day. people were mostly complaining of the cold atmosphere.

what the crap happened today? nothing much. well, nothing really. just attended two classes, specpro and agency. had lunch. studied in the lib. went home. did some digests. and now, im writing this. very exciting and fun-filled day

should be sleeping because i have an 8am class. but i cant sleep. so i decided to update my multiply site. what's there to update? i dont know.

life really sucks right now. of course it sucks everyday but right now, it sucks a little more. and my middle finger is itchy

i dont know how many times i have to say it. its either people dont listen to me or they just dont care. i dont want to be reminded of things i want to forget and if i say i mean something, i really mean it. how do i have to say these things for people to do what i say?

All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
Its hard, but its harder to ignore it.
If they were right, Id agree, but its them you know not me.
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

second day of classes yesterday. only had locgov, no medjur. noted not to go to trinoma unless craving for krispy kreme, taco bell or sm north not an option.

drop dead fred - conceived last nigt

just had an uneventful first day of classes. sometimes, thats really a good thing. just had one class today, civil procedure. and tomorrow, saturday, i have an 8am class. that sucks. it means you cant stay up late on fridays and you have to wake up early on saturdays. i think this is something old people have to deal with.

just enrolled yesterday. was done in less than 2 hours. nice. was worried hours earlier that i might not make it. even if i studied harder than the previous semesters, last semester's grades were the most uncertain. also watched 30 days of Night after enrolling. it wasnt good. more of "just rent it" material. at least its not as bad as Pathfinder. i really hated that movie.

and today is the last day of the semestral break. tomorrow is my first class, civil procedure. again! im seven units behind. better work my ass off harder than last semester because apparently, the effort wasnt enough.

cant sleep. its 4am. almost. there's someone or something wailing outside. cant really figure out the source of the sound. not sure if its a dog or a cat or a woman in extreme pain. could be a baby elephant. point is, i cant sleep with it wailing all night long. its not loud enough to wake everybody up but loud enough to keep a person awake.

just got back from montalban this morning. then slept the entire day. woke up around 630pm or 7pm. tomorrow, i clean up my room and off to the cemetery the following day

attended don's wedding. it was nice. realized that ive attended a number of weddings already and that its hard to really have that perfect wedding where everything goes well. its like someone's bound to screw up, even a little. of course this doesnt ruin the wedding but these tolerable mistakes are not inevitable and very much avoidable. anyway, tomorrow, going to UST for my brother's college entrance exam and then off to montalban. ill be back by monday to vote for the local baranggay elections.

im a proxy in a wedding in a few hours and im staying up late. nice.

sembreak. not much to do. all i do is watch movies ive rented.

its wednesday morning, the week after i last wrote a blog entry. the previous week was anything but slow. tuesday last week was supposed to be the day i was going to study for my tax law final exam. i did study but not quite the way i wanted. i started studying in the library but i was just so sleepy and tired and the next thing i know, im heading to Trinoma to have some lunch. i ate at taco bell and after having three rounds of re-fillable iced tea, i wasnt feeling very well. so i went to sm north to walk the feeling of excessive fullness off. then went back to UP to try to study again. hours were wasted but fortunately, the tax lectures of erwin and kate were good and very helpful that when i took the exam, im not really going to battle without any ammunition. thats one thing you hope in every exam in case for some stupid reason you werent able to fully prepare yourself, have something sensible to write. anyway, right after the tax exam, its time to worry about succession. but i rented a movie first before officially starting to review for succession. so i used the remaining hours of wednesday, the entire thursday and friday morning studying for succession. and the time to take the exam came and when i finished it, my mind went blank. i just dont want to think about it. sure i was able to answer everything but everything was uncertain. crap. thats not good. anyway, by that time, i was pestering people about the PIL schedule for the ala moot court exam. i would rather think of PIL than succession. anyway, the second part of the PIL exam wasnt confirmed until monday morning, the same day of the exam. the exam was scheduled for 2 days, and fortunately or unfortunately, i was scheduled on the 2nd day. so most or some if not most, were surprised and confused of the sudden confirmation and schedule of the exam. and now, its the day after that exam. so the week was just about taking an exam or studying for an exam.

just got home. the exam ended 9:45pm. not sure if i did ok. for sure i didnt do well. i just hope my exam turns out to be not so bad. right after it, i was just speechless. not really because of its difficulty, i was expecting that but because im so tired. and im only halfway done. 2 down and 2 more exams to go. holy shit. and they're scheduled with one day intervals. no time to rest, and not enough time to study. and now im thinking of whether to go to sleep or to study for my tax law exam on wednesday.

just woke up. finally some sleep. but im not feeling well. crap. i hope its nothing. or its nothing serious. ive got three more exams. at least three

i barely slept last night and until now, i cant sleep. what the? i need sleep badly! and i just bought a coffee maker last night

im sleepy. just had my transpo exam a few hours ago. not sure if i did well. you can never really tell. these exams are just filled with uncertainty. anyway, right after the exam, i went to the mall to buy a coffee maker. finally, i bought one after weeks of window shopping and comparing prices. weird part is, ive been planning to buy a new set of earphones and a dvd player for months, and the idea to buy a coffee maker was just a few weeks ago and the one i bought first was the coffee maker. im just addicted to coffee. anyway, i hope i did well in my transpo exam.

i hope it rains tomorrow. i really like it when it rains

what have i been up to? well, just watched resident evil 3 (resident evil: extinction) a while ago, and it wasnt that bad. but it wasnt as good as i hoped it would be. i think its more worth watching on video than in cinemas. anyway, last friday, we watched a film for evidence. its "the return of martin guerre", which is based on a true story. i liked it so i watched it again the following day (two screening dates because because not all classes are available in one screening date). what else did i do last friday? i cant seem to remember. but for saturday, i spent most of my day in the library researching for my memorial. i was supposed to start on it last friday but it seems i wasnt able to do that. like i said, i cant remember what i did last friday aside from watch the film for evidence. wait, i remember now. we had another one of them tax lectures before the evidence film. and before that, i was reading my PIL readings to find stuff i can cite for my memorial. so i was able to work on my memorial as early as friday. then on sunday, i continued doing my research for PIL. so research in the library for saturday and online research for sunday. then monday, had succession, went to the mall to eat and read some more PIL stuff to cite and by monday night, started doing the memorial which i thought i could finish quickly. i was wrong of course because come 11am of tuesday, im still not done or not as done as i wanted to be. i think i took too long in some arguments that i forgot to apportion enough time for the other arguments. i thought i would finish it soon enough that i would be able to meet the deadline. well, i was able to submit it on time but i wasnt really able to write everything i wanted to write. anyway, had a sleepless night but still attended the tuesday succession class scheduled at 4pm which started at around 5pm. as for today, i started studying for the transpo exam for saturday. im aiming to study for evidence and tax tomorrow. as for succession, im reading it in "piecemeal" method

cmon sleepy feeling, hit me! i want to sleep!

after a very long and tiring day, i cant sleep. perfect. im in the mood to study too. but i cant. i need to go to school early to do some research for the memorial. and i dont think the reason i cant sleep is because im excited to do some research. i dont know why i cant sleep. somehow, the long class in evidence affected my sleeping pattern. ok, that last statement doesnt have any basis and purely an allegation snatched from thin air.

the evidence class extended until around 11pm! and i only had a hotdog sandwich for lunch! just got home. got a free ride from kate accompanied by third. had a very late dinner at jollibee with some of my blockmates. had the last day for PIL. and got a weird comment from kate, saying im angelic. a goody-goody. nice. thats what happened today. and no rain!

harsh as it may sound, law school has become easier if you shut out everyone else. like your family and friends. its really hard to keep juggling and allocating time. if you just focus on law school and to hell with everything else, then law school wont be as stressful. but thats living like adam sandler in Click. giving too much attention to work and the next thing he knows, he's old and dying and no idea what happened to his relationship with his family. i mean, the life of a lawyer is a lonely one and the life of a law student is a wretched life. why not get used to it and live that life? i mean, thats not really incompatible with the kind of life i have. just think of law school and to hell with everything else. i havent reached that kind of life but im heading there and getting near. this sem, ive spent a lot of time alone (this is the most "alone" that ive been in years). not sure if it helped or its been effective in raising my grades but so far, i dont mind living such a life (again). the more i keep this up, the more i will be like my highschool self, detached from everyone else. only this time, my head shouldnt be up in the clouds, it should be focused on what im supposed to do. and on that part, im still a bit far from the target. i need to make my mind sharper and my memory and retention better.

just got home. had succession and the continuation of the tax lecture by erwin and kate. the first one was better because i was more attentive last time. my mind just kept floating somewhere since succession so i really had a hard time focusing. then after the tax lecture, went to cubao to look for some coffee maker. still havent found a coffee maker cheap enough that i like.

had PIL. got called and gave a summary that sucked a lot. for some reason, i never get that summary right and the summary a while ago is the worst. a one sentence summary. well, it wasnt supposed to be but i got confused when the professor said we already tackled jurisdiction and so i doubted what i was supposed to say next and assumed i was wrong. well, it happened to be that if i continued talking, i was in the right track. another loss due to hesitation.

had evidence. even if already had a good recit last meeting, i still have doubts whether i do have an immunity from being called again. so im still preparing and would prepare for the next class meeting.

the succession finals had been moved. now i have to adjust my study schedule. not that im complaining but i have to re-arrange everything as soon as possible. time is of the essence.

in a few hours, ill be off to montalban for my father's birthday. yesterday, no succession, had a block picture taken for transpo law, had the last class for transpo law for the sem, then availed of my free meal in kenny rogers katipunan (thanks to kai for helping fill up the coupon. two were filled up in kenny rogers quezon ave, the rest were in kenny rogers sm north and i took the free meal in katipunan), then went to starbucks not only to have my sought after coffee but also to attend the grand alumni homecoming meeting. thats when i remembered how detached i am from my highschool batch. i didnt care back then. i still dont care now (compared to the average person) but i didnt care more back then. its like i had a vow of silence. i only talked to a few people and my words were even limited. but anyway, i attended the meeting because im not the same person as i was back in highschool but i really cant remove the image i had back then. why? because my batchmates dont know me! if they do, they dont know much. anyway, the meeting took quite some time before it ended and i really need to leave and be at video city by 11pm or it would mean a larger overdue rented movies! like in highschool, i just left without telling anyone, i just disappeared (i remember doing that to my college blockmates, eller and grace). then took a taxi and fortunately, i made it. it was already closed but since they havent locked up yet nor have they switched off their PC, they allowed me to return the movies i just rented. the day was a mixture of bad stuff and good stuff. so i cant declare it as a bad day nor a good day. since both cancels each other out, its just another not too ordinary but mostly ordinary day

finally a decent recitation in evidence!!!

it was really unexpected. i didnt volunteer since i always feel that im not prepared enough. i got called and fortunately, i wasnt told to sit down. and i was able to recite the provisions. it was really nice that i had the opportunity to have a good recitation before this semester ended. anyway, after my recitation, people were congratulating me. its like the way people "cheer" for a toddler who just took his first steps. its not really a bloody brilliant recitation but it is my best recitation in the subject (after three strikes! i didnt apply the three strike rule this time, for some reason, i just felt it didnt apply) and one of the best recitations ive done for my three year stay in the college. not that such accomplishment deserves recognition, i dont even think people should have made a big deal out of it.

im studying like ive never studied before in all of my previous semesters. i mean, im studying regularly now. but unfortunately, it doesnt seem to be paying off. im still in the same position as i was before. hopefully, not worse than before. well, im going to find out whether this is true when the grades come out. im really not hopeful that there's been an improvement. i just hope its not worse than my last semester. last semester was like a nose dive from a not so high position.

no succession today. no more tax law classes. it ended last week. mentioned this already. no PIL for this week. so i only have three subjects/classes to attend this week: evidence for tuesday and thursday, succession and transpo law for wednesday and friday. looks like a light week in terms of work load. not really. the extra time is an opportunity to get a head start on the requirements for some subjects and remove backlogs for some other subjects. like my professor in transpo law class said, the life of a law student is a wretched life. you get some free time but you dont get to enjoy it. you get to use it for some other work you need to accomplish.

just had my nego finals hours ago. it was very difficult. didnt even had time to finish it. if maybe i had 30 mins more, or even just 10 mins, it would have made a lot of difference. well, thats over. i just hope that it isnt as bad as i think. i attended both my succession and transpo law classes. didnt regret it. even if i had spent more time studying, it wouldnt have made much of a difference. i was focusing on the wrong parts of the subject, memorizing the wrong provisions.

it started as a shitty day but ended not so bad. had a succession class at 1230. so i was already at malcolm by that time but didnt get off the jeep yet. i decided to go to the shopping center first to buy some cellphone load/credit. it took less than 3 minutes to reach the shopping center but well, that 3 minutes mattered. why? because when i reached the shopping center, it was already raining hard. 3 minutes ago or even less, while at the waiting shed near romulo hall and in front of the malcolm hall parking lot, there wasnt even a drizzle. so when it was time for me to go to class coming from the shopping center, i had to walk through the rain so that i wont be late or too late. when i reached the classroom, no class. how nice. i rushed from the shopping center, got wet all over just to reach an almost empty classroom (since the people were just leaving when i got there). and since i was wet, i cant go inside the library which was cold due to the air-conditioning. i had to stay outside all afternoon, waiting to get dry. good thing there was a PVO donut sale. i stayed there all afternoon. i couldnt think of any other place to go to.

also had transpo class. why wasnt it so bad? i dont know. i just dont feel so bad about it.

i hope i dont have insomnia. i fell asleep around past 4am yesterday. i was wide awake the entire night! and i have a 1pm class. good thing there wasnt a PIL class. i woke up around 11am. right now, im feeling sleepy already. i just hope i do fall asleep this time.

just got home. finally, a not so ordinary day. a day that breaks the monotony of regular school days.

first, there was no PIL class. instead of having class, we attended the Et Tu Brod forum which talked about hazing and how to solve this problem. then, no evidence class. instead we watched a film named "My Cousin Vinny" (starring Joe Pesci and Marisa Tomei) which was very funny. unfortunately, we started watching the film a bit late so it ended a little past 8pm. the reason im mindful about the time was because a highschool batchmate dropped me a friendster message last sunday informing me of the alumni homecoming meeting this tuesday, meaning today. it was set in the alumni office of our highschool, 630pm. i know the meeting wont actually start by 630pm but since the film ended by 8pm, it meant im going to reach our high school by 830pm. im two hours late. an hour might be acceptable but two hours? i thought that the meeting might have ended by that time. but i still went anyway. i got there and well, the meeting was almost over. i think the meeting ended 30 minutes after i arrived. so, charlex and geloy briefed me on what we were supposed to do. so there.

and its a coffee free day for me.

today was the last meeting for the tax law class. i wasnt even aware of that! got called. the professor even joked it was a miracle i was called since i rarely get called in the class. i think in the entire semester, i was called three times. two of them were on what's my opinion regarding the law. so, its two subjects down, four more to go. no more tax and nego classes but the nego finals is this coming friday. its possible that the PIL class may end this week. there's only three weeks of classes left. wasnt able to attend my succession class. i was feeling extremely drowsy. i think its because of my coffee addiction.

havent blogged for more than a week! wasnt in the mood. i had my evidence midterm exam last september 8. im not sure if i did well. our evidence professor said it was easy but that was also what our negotiable instruments law professor said to us and less than 10 in our batch passed that examination.

had dinner with our tax professor last september 10 at dencios after the tax law class. nothing out of the ordinary happened from september 11 and 13 (no succession and no transpo for september 12. why? well, its just that the professors didnt hold classes for reasons most likely independent of the estrada verdict. the suspension of classes only covered some areas and levels, and law schools werent included). had evidence class on both days and had PIL on the 13th. it was announced that the PIL finals would be done ala moot court. so i decided to watch my blockmates competing in the moot court the following day, september 14. the competition was held in ateneo school of law in rockwell. i didnt want to go at first but i thought, i need to have an idea how the PIL finals would be like. i also saw some of my friends and blockmates in ateneo law (mark, leah, nikki, iyen, ona, pj, sheryl, love, leo and some others, cant remember their names). after the moot court (well, we didnt stay til the end of the competition) we (my UP law blockmates) were supposed to head home but decided to go eat at trinoma (at north park courtesy of keisie).

so, the only interesting days were the days i went out with my blockmates (dinner at dencios and the moot court + dinner at north park). other than that, the days were just regular class days, with me spending some time in the library to study and watching videos i rent.

and now, i have to study for the nego final examination this coming friday. i also have to get a good recitation in evidence class. i also have to do the digests for succession. i need to find a good tax law book for my tax law class. and fortunately, i dont have backlogs on the PIL and Transpo readings.

had my first real meal today at around 10pm. my breakfast was just 2 pieces of hotdog and a mug of milo. lunch was one piece of donut. had my lunch around 12pm. had my dinner at 10pm! 10 hours later! and i had class from 3pm to 930pm! i was really starving when i reached mcdonalds (had no choice but to eat in a fastfood. its either this or expensive restaurants). i ordered a double cheeseburger, large fries, large coke, a side salad and a chicken fillet meal.

just had nego and evidence. no PIL. had a nice recit in nego. why? because its voluntary. and its also the last day for nego so the next time i pick up my nego readings and nego book, its for studying for the finals and thats only 2 weeks away.

good thing im done with the mindmap. i can just rest now (after a very tiring day). tomorrow i start reviewing for my evidence midterm exam on saturday.

wasnt in the mood to blog lately and still not in the mood. im printing my mindmap right now. i hope i dont run out of ink.

no succession again. had transpo. tomorrow will be the last meeting for nego. i hope i dont get called for PIL and Evidence again. im drained. i guess august just sucked a lot of energy out of me. and right now, im saving up energy for my midterms on saturday. and then try to save up energy again for my final exams on the 21st. then prepare myself for the finals week on october. the next remaining weeks will be very tiring. not that i need a break badly but i just dont have the energy to do stuff. its like i want to but i cant because i dont have the energy for it. its not that im tired of things and i just want to get away from it all.

got called for PIL.

no succession. had tax. thats it

90% done with the mindmap!

well, its september. the last day of august was ok. just watched the movie 1408 (twice) and then attended my transpo class.

nothing out of the ordinary happened today except i might have talked to bianca gonzales. not really sure. i was heading towards the jeepney terminal at vinzons when a car pulled over while i was walking near the waiting shed of econ. a girl in the car sitting next to the driver (never saw the driver) asked where the Fine Arts building was. i replied, i dont know exactly but its on the opposite side (because they were going to the wrong direction). so she just repeated what i said and then they left. after a few seconds i thought, that girl looked familiar. and only after a few more seconds did i think that she looked a lot like bianca gonzales, talked the same way and her voice was very similar too. she might be. i dont know. if it occurred to me while she was talking to me, i could have checked. if she was bianca gonzales, she looked prettier on tv.