off to montalban in a few hours. will stay there until saturday. wont be online for a few days. will be difficult because im still an internet addict. i just have to check my emails at least once a day. 

parents changed plans...again!!! i really hate it when they do that. we have plans too and it really sucks that we have to adjust to their stupid change of plans

im still in the process of formulating my new year's resolution. if this year's focus was me and improving my sense of discipline and commitment (no surprise there, ive always been too self-centered to care about other people than me), next year's focus, as it appears to me at the moment, would revolve around my relationship with other people. so its still me only it involves other people too. i tried "settling" some of them this year but it seems some things cant be rushed. so right now, i have 6 people i need to deal with next year. 

just woke up. my body really hurts because of all the cleaning i did yesterday

the only productive thing i was able to do today was clean my room and the bathroom. my head hurts right now

not feeling well. damn it. i cleaned my room then cleaned one of our bathrooms. then took a bath. i knew it wasnt a good idea to take a bath after tiring myself out because of all the cleaning but i took a bath anyway. 

tried to study for corpo. didnt cover much. slept all morning. went to shopwise cubao to meet my mother and sister. while they were at the grocery, i went to SM to see if i could buy a new pair of pants. didnt find one. went home. it wasnt a very productive day

studied pril yesterday. was able to cover a few chapters. then went to UP to walk because im not really physically fit to jog yet. was able to do 4 laps around the academic oval.

went to quiapo today. accompanied my sister because she wanted to buy an "mp5" player. had lunch in ma mon luk. the mami was nice. got a haircut too.

its the 26th, its 430 am and im just waiting to fall back to sleep. 

i will have to do a 2 week recap since i said to myself i need to blog as much as possible about stuff that happens everyday my memory is getting worse.

dec 14, dont know what happened.

dec 15, had pril and corpo. 

dec 16, had law and envi and crim law rev. burned a bunch of DVDs for lani

dec 17, took the rem law rev quiz, shopped in trinoma with kate, nash, weng and dielle, took some photos of the lantern parade, attended the block dinner at carlos pizza, capitol, went to keisie's place for some kind of "afterparty". got home around 430am

dec 18, went to the law office then went to divisoria then went to national bookstore cubao. ran into diane and melai. had dinner with family because it was my parent's wedding anniversary

dec 19, scratched the taxi of our neighbor, did the team7 project at kuya center then went to bruno's place, with maricel and kai (and then cheska) for another one of his grill parties. got home before 3am

dec 20 - slept the entire day. had a very tiring week. attended "simbang gabi" with diane. then went to mcdonalds cubao. got home around 2am i think.

dec 21 - visited my cousin in the UST hospital. then went to SM North with my siblings to shop for gifts. then went home and wrote the stupid email.

dec 22 - dont remember what happened on this day

dec 23 - submitted my profile and write up. out of the 4 people i asked to make me a write up only 2 were able to give me one. 

dec 24 - did another one of them last minute shopping. i go shopping for gifts on the 24th every year. got home around 6pm, tired. was finally able to have a webcam conversation with iskra

dec 25 - christmas day. went to my cousin's house in fairview for the yearly family gathering. greeted everyone i could reach by text message while passing the time away. did a lot of reflecting and looked at where my life is heading. 

dec 26 - today. going to go to quiapo to buy something. spending not over. damn it. maybe i will finalize my new year's resolution tonight to get a head start. 

i hate christmas

im feeling better now. was depressed since tuesday. wonder why. i wake up late. and i dont feel like doing anything. at least its gone now. maybe its the romcom that fixed it. went to the spa again a while ago to get a massage. stupid depression makes me spend more and make stupid decisions. 

just rented and watched what happens in vegas

my head hurts. just had corpo today. 

wednesday: decided to have lunch at home because im trying to save money after spending some of it the night before by getting a massage because i got depressed with the fact that im going to buy a stupid gift for a person i never expected i would give one in the first place. so i just slept the entire morning because i was really pissed. then went to school, attended my pril class. then went to my corpo class which was cancelled. so i then went to my remlawrev class which was 5-9pm. helped kate setup her laptop's wifi connection. didnt recite nothing was assigned. 

thursday: another OLA duty day. no RRAFs for me to do. just spent hours doing nothing by reading stuff from the net. asked diane about some tips on what to buy for the person assigned to me since i really dont know what to buy and i dont want to think about what to buy either. then case con for until almost 3pm. then entertained some delegation of foreigners, which ended around 6pm. went home. did this. 

went to school around 10am. passed by Best Diagnostic first to get my 2nd CBC result. reached school around 11am. did my RRAF. dropped by OLA to make a phone call, follow up the status of a case in the NLRC. then i checked a website for law and envi. had lunch inside the classroom. later, i  found out that there's no law and envi. and in crimlaw rev, the professor didn't attend the class but he sent a proctor. also, there's this block kris kringle and when i saw the name in the piece of paper, all i could do was groan out loud and ask to myself, what the fuck?  

i should require myself to blog here everyday. my memory isnt functioning well lately. 

nothing much happened today. was supposed to have corpo but i wasnt able to go to class. also had my 2nd CBC within the week. received a text and call from jen laygo asking me to go to makati and drink with them. unfortunately, im not free to go. i have class tomorrow and lots of stuff to do. and i need to stay away from alcohol for a while. i also fixed barney's get pysched mix

i took a break from blogging last month. i just didnt feel like writing anything. so what stuff happened lately that i think i shouldnt forget? 

there's the enrollment hassle. my being a Team Leader for my OLA team. the weekly OLA class component. got called for PRIL already. got called twice in RemLaw Rev. the PDA breaking down. my saturday rizal lib research. dropping by diane's place. mark asking for a tomadores get together. watching twilight with bruno, maricel, kai, cheska and kat. my stupid birthday. the yearbook pictorial. me being the last minute proxy for a teammate's hearing. the hot foreigner jogger. the stranger that tried to cheer me up with her dance moves and nice personality. the bacterial infection that made me sick for almost a week. the launching of the gonzalo gonzales professorial chair. my traffic violation.

i think thats the eventful stuff that happened in the last 30 days. each sentence could be a subject of a blog entry. 

third day of stomach ache. it started around a little past 4pm or maybe 5pm last saturday, november 29, day after my birthday. i ate a beef and potato wrap and seafood wrap from healthy kitchen inside the ateneo caf. and drank water from the water fountain inside the rizal library. the stomache ache isnt as intense as it was last saturday but its still very bothersome. and i went to the bathroom thrice today and twice yesterday. and thrice or four times last saturday.

im having em headaches again. i wish i was drunk right now

cant sleep yet. just had some midnight snack and im full. damn it! i had to eat it. the food wont last til tomorrow and ive been skipping meals again lately.

just watched forgetting sarah marshall. another nice movie set in hawaii

watching street kings. i think i better blog about the movies i rent so i can keep track what ive watched and when i saw it. wow, an online logbook of movies ive seen. should i make a new blog address for it? and then write anything else about it, not necessarily a review. its a thought

just had back to back finals, from 1pm to 8pm, nego and ADR. and i didnt have sleep. crap, i just made a believer out of myself that it can be done

just watched Breakfast at Tiffany's on a wonderful rainy night. i just love rainy nights. i dont know why i rented Breakfast at Tiffany's. i dont know why i rented it. although ive been meaning to watch it, i just dont know why i wanted to watch it now.

just watched Breakfast at Tiffany's on a wonderful rainy night. i just love rainy nights. i dont know why i rented Breakfast at Tiffany's. i dont know why i rented it. although ive been meaning to watch it, i just dont know why i wanted to watch it now.

one of the saddest things is not being able to fully explain one's side. sometimes i get to meet applicants or clients who just want to be heard in court but unfortunately, it would just be a waste of everybody else's time because whatever they say will not change a thing. thats why my judgment was clouded once when i met such a client because i can relate. im the type who hates explaining myself but theres just some instances that needs to be clarified with other people. and theres one that i strongly want to explain but im restraining myself from doing so because it wont change a thing no matter how many times i explain it or no matter to how many persons i tell it.

my last post was september 8! i guess its time for another review of the week.

what did i do tuesday? i think i studied a little for nego. more than 39 minutes. then went home.

wednesday: had nego, went home to have the pc monitor claimed since it broke the other day (power problems) then went back to school for puboff.

thursday: ola duty.

friday; field trip to shell refinery. didnt make it for ADR class since we got back a little past 8pm. we left around 9am

saturday: no proj dev due the field trip, then IPL, the ola class component

sunday: attended mass and watched shooter which i rented. i also watched racing stripes, bourne ultimatum a few days before. answered online quizzes.

attended my hearing in antipolo. went back home to sleep a little. went to school to find out we dont have classes for puboff.

damn it! i hate my life.

i hate it when people try to tell me what to do or should be. i should be like this, i should do that. fuck off. well, they can tell me once or twice by way of advice but dont tell it in an imposing manner. thats a sure way for the person to get a fired up reaction from me.

did some PVO QRT then went to mandaluyong then went to UP for ADR

no nego. no puboff. just had puboff practice. and tomorrow ola duty.

went to school. did some ola stuff. made a couple of calls. rode a jeep to sm north to ride the mrt. had a stop-over at cubao before heading for NCMH in mandaluyong. then went back, rode a jeep to the mrt again all the way to sm north then back to up then home

i admire people who can keep the faith. ive encountered people who only has God as a reason to keep on living. life has been harsh to them yet they never lost their faith. it even strenghtened their faith. in a way, Marx was correct religion is like the opium of the people. it helps people get by. as bad as it may sound, i see it that way too but not in a negative manner. religion and faith is a source of strength when there's no one around to give it to you. its like God taps one's inner strength to help the person overcome life's obstacles.

im tired of pretending everything is ok. its like making a fool out of myself. it sucks. ive been the great pretender for more than a decade now. but what can i do. its not like things will be better if i stop pretending.

fuck you bayantel for your slow internet connection!

are you enjoying yourself? being alone, i mean?

nope! absolutely not. sometimes, if i dont control myself, i inadvertently socialize. i half regret it because i cant stick to what i intend to do. but i guess man is just a social animal. its really hard to go against whats natural. but sooner or later im going to figure out, again, how to withdraw from society. it wont be a enjoyable thing to do. probably the most depressing shit that can be done but i just feel that it would do me good. have some peace of mind.

thats crazy talk for you and a normal shit to deal with for me

in a way, i would say, things arent that bad because i could imagine how it could be worse. i have a midterm exam that was supposed to be due on tuesday but the deadline was extended til friday. then there was a suspension of classes today. so its like im being given a break. well,thats just it. its like im being given a break but in fact im just being given ample time. because despite the 2 holidays, i never really had any rest because i made use of those days to get some things done. and even with the extension of the deadline, im stll struggling in answering the midterm exam. with the suspension of classes, it just gave me more time to do things i need to do but that doesnt mean im about to relax sooner or later. i still have a lot of pending stuff to do! it just never ends. and the thing is, it appears to me that it will only last until the end of august. i mean, the midterm exam is due this friday. the pretrial is tomorrow. the OLA class component is this saturday. 2 of my classes assigned a lot of readings and they are due this friday and saturday.

what about next week? theres the puboff project. then there's the follow-ups on the lately neglected cases because of the academic demands that needs attending at the moment. the follow-ups involves talking and meeting clients and probably drafting documents.

i dont know how many times i will say this in my lifetime. i say this every single day. and i will saiy it again: God, i hate my life!

its a holiday but i spent the entire day studying and trying to answer a midterm exam. ok, maybe not an entire day but most of it. and i might have overdone it because i feel im going to be ill. nice.

went to caloocan yesterday. while in caloocan, i learned we wont be having class for nego. lucky? nope. when i reached home after coming from caloocan, i learned i left my ID with the guard at the caloocan rtc. crap. had to travel all  the way back because my locker keys are also with my ID. and its a long weekend due to the upcoming holidays. when i got my ID, went back home to eat lunch because im low on money. then went to school. attended ADR. then went home

following day, today, had proj dev. when i got home, started doing my pretrial brief. after that started downloading the ipl midterm exam questions. as expected, they're hard. now, i just want to rest for the night. its going to be a very busy week.

i really hate my life. and i just feel theres really nothing i can do about it. no one can really save me. not even me. i will forever be in this perpertual misery til death comes for me

had nego. went to marikina. got scolded by the judge. slept in the lib. had the puboff presentation

accompanied cheska to paranaque rtc for her direct exam. fetched her witness in ust. had puboff practice til 9pm

went to Comelec last friday. wasnt able to attend nego because i had to drop by the QC RTC. had ADR in the afternoon.

saturday: no projdev but had to work on the puboff script. had IPL then OLA class component. then practiced for the puboff project til 830pm. then when i got home, worked on the puboff script again

Thursday: accompanied my cousin to the airport since she's off to the US. no definite date yet when she will come back. from the airport, went back home to rest a little then off to school for OLA duty. had a busy OLA duty even if im just manning the desk. after OLA, had lunch with kat, maricel, cheska, aimee and mike at Ken Afford beside the memorable Dormitoryana. after lunch, went to Paranaque to accompany cheska and to check on the court records of the case im handling. from Paranaque, went back to UP to waste an hour before going to the case conference scheduled at 630. after the case con went home, ate dinner and blogged. its 9:21pm. my day officially started at 3:00am. and to think i thought an 8am to 8pm schedule was bad.

Wednesday: had nego. studied for puboff. made a draft of the script for the puboff project. studied for puboff again. had puboff class.

Tuesday: went to QC rtc, then to the UP post office then to the Caloocan RTC and then the sole of my left shoe got detached while walking in monumento, so i had it fixed and while waiting, i roamed around and got a majestic time wasting an hour then headed back to UP only to sleep because im just too tired to do anything else

Monday: cant remember much about monday except that i had puboff and dropped by the QC RTC that morning and spent some time in OLA

had nego. went to the caloocan mtc by walking all the way from monumento to 10th avenue until i reached the caloocan hall of justice or something like that. then walked again to monumento so i could take a bus going to sm north, then take a jeep that would pass by east avenue. when i got home, called up the fiscal in QC for a case status update. was supposed to go to the marikina MTC but i was too tired already and im very low on funds.

had a busy ola duty. met a client nad had couple of RRAFs

had nego. went to commonwealth. entered the dragon. had puboff meeting. ate dinner with aimee, diane, con and erwin. went to eunilaine. walked home. blogged. sleepy

went to antipolo rtc this morning to personally serve a manifestation. then went to ola. then went home and when i got home, wasnt feeling well. i was feeling dizzy. so i went to sleep.

just got a Tarot reading from Kat last friday. im not sure if its accurate, but its not inaccurate either. the thing about my past and present is somewhat correct. im not sure if it was correct because of the general nature of the reading. since its that general, its possible that it could create the illusion of accuracy.

anyway, if the past and present is somewhat correct, chances are, the reading on my future could also be correct to a certain extent. if thats the case, then all i have to do is just wait and endure despite being surrounded by frustrations because the reading said i just have to be patient. so does that mean, things will come my way someday?

monday - went to bicutan to brief mike's client
tuesday - accompanied mike and maricel for mike's client's direct examination
wednesday - accompanied cheska for her client's promulgation
thursday - OLA duty, met with 3 clients and accompanied cheska to paranaque RTC
friday - going to attend nego class, see OLA director, mail manifestations, attend ADR

why has death not come for me? a question which im very interested to know the answer

went to Bicutan to accompany mike brief his client for his direct examination tomorrow.

the day started with another beautiful rainy day. i just love the rain. after my first class, i had nothing much to do since i also learned from migs we would not have puboff for today. i went to OLA to mail the manifestation and the opposition to the motion for reconsideration. again, i went to the post office personally to mail the copies for the adverse party. good thing i didnt mail the one for the nlrc because after lunch, i changed my plan of mailing it because i didnt know that 3 copies were needed and im only mailing one. and its all because i bumped into aimee and jason. kind of fortunate because i would be filing an insufficient number of copies. so i guess this would count as one of those rare lucky days. the only bad thing that happened today is the spending. the post office costs, the fares and my stupid choice of eating at kenny rogers. i exceeded my daily allowance. and i really need to save money because stuff are becoming more and more expensive. 

they say take a chance. ive lost so much im tired of taking chances. id rather let things slip away.

life is depressing. very, very depressing. especially when youre reminded of inequality in the world and the unfairness of life. that there will be losers. and i am one of them. that nothing good ever comes my way. and that i will have to put up with it for the rest of my life. i hate waking up in the morning.

the day started out well. got a couple of free rides. literally. when i was walking to ride a jeepney to the MRT, my uncle's driver saw me and said i could hitch a ride to the MRT station since its on his way back to my uncle's place. i rode the MRT to go to the NSO located at edsa corner times street to accompany a client. i then went to UP, riding a UP Pantranco jeep. paid P9. but since the jeepney driver told me he wont pass by malcolm hall, which is only a few distance from where we were already, he returned P7 so i can ride an ikot jeepney. fortunately, i got one of those "free ride" jeepneys.

the nice day ended there. everything went back to the normal tiring and confusing day. went to trinoma to have lunch and i also bought a new pair of headphones since the ones i have are already defective (useable but defective). i just bought a cheap one since i dont have the money to buy the really good ones. and im contemplating of buying a new mp3 player, since the one i have now is a bit defective. it had a good run so its not so bad (3 years for P1800. its like paying P60 per month. not bad really). then i got a document revised and because of that, i still havent have it signed. i was planning to have it mailed today. so i go to plan B. mail it in between classes on my own. and then went to the UP infirmary for a consultation because of my coughing fits which is already more than a week long. when i got to mercury drug, im sure the lady at the counter saw that i was surprised by how much the medicine costs. i only have coughing fits and the medication is worth P852! holy crap. it is expensive. even the generic one is worth P400 plus. sucks! 

another tiring day as usual. the day started with me going to OLA to have some stuff printed. then went to my supervising lawyer's law office to have them signed. then went back to UP to study. i spent a lot today because i ended up eating a P205 meal for lunch. another P75 meal in the afternoon and an P82 share on a "block pizza". that doesnt include the minor stuff like photocopied stuff and jeepney fares. its a very tiring and costly day

i think ive reached toxic levels in my room again. there's this cockroach that just wont leave my room for two days. i dont know, but i think its the same cockroach for the past two days. its just roaming around my room

another slow day for my social life. wait...do i still have one? well, yeah. trace amounts of it. dont really have the time to relax and unwind.

life is as depressing as usual

had another tiring day. had my first RRAF a while ago and had to rush it because it was urgent. didnt really have time to research on it. and because of that, wasnt able to study for nego. at least its still  tomorrow. the thing is, i need to allot time for instances like this. its like making sure you have time for unforeseeable stuff. and then, if you dont have any unforeseeable stuff to do, you make use of the free time for other productive things. nice life

currently, my source of strength is music.

got coughing fits. got runny nose. if i dont have a runny nose, got clogged nose. nice

got called yesterday for pub off and got called last friday for nego. i felt that i was going to be called yesterday but even if that was the case, i wasnt expecting to be asked on the commission on appointments. what sucked was even if i felt i was prepared, i just am unfortunate enough to be asked on stuff i didnt focus on. i guess that only mean im not prepared enough.

ive achieved invisibility. now what? i doubt the time is ripe for the ultimate disappearing act. so, will it be the great re-appearing act? not in the mood for it

i hate myself so much its impossible to love me. quote from semi-pro...sort of.

left the house at 5:50am. reached antipolo RTC at 630am (was driving at around 40-60kph due to unfamiliar and slippery road). was the first one who got there aside from the guards. or so it seemed to me. anyway, when i got there, the guards were not sure if they were going to hold offices because all they know was that the suspension only covered classes/schools. it was my second hearing and again, nothing really eventful. i think thats something good.

just had my first hearing a few days ago as a law intern. it didnt go the way i planned since the way i planned wasnt the best way to go. just proves that im not prepared for the task...yet. it was poor discretion on my part. i guess i just felt very bad for the client (i could relate a bit on the client's experience) that it clouded my judgment. the longer you stay in law school, the harder it gets. and law practice wont be any easier.

so what the crap am i up to? well, its the first week of classes (classes started last june 10) and ive only had 2 real class days. the rest were just introductions or the professor didnt show up. but despite that fact, ive been very busy with OLA stuff. i still can imagine how things would be on a regular class week. im still underloaded when it comes to OLA cases and i have 16 units of regular subjects! 20 units total, im busy already when the real class week has not even started. oooh crap! better warm up and make sure i dont suffer from burnout

i think im becoming too OLA-centric. i have to remind myself i have other classes

just had my first OLA duty. spent the morning reviewing my cases, texting my clients and revising my legal forms (didnt get to interview an applicant but i did have a few minutes of phone duty). in the afternoon, i went to the marikina RTC to confirm my hearing date. and then, by late afternoon, it rained, i didnt have change for a jeepney ride when i was heading home, was forced to buy merienda to get some loose change (which is really irritating since im on a very tight budget), and a bit earlier before that, had bad news from a client since the recommended action on the case didnt work. and right now, the neighbor on the other side of street is banging very loudly on what sounds like a gate for reasons i could only assume to be...well, unreasoble. the day started ok and then it became tiring, then a bit depressing. but i really dont feel that bad. i like OLA. now law school and all its difficult stuff have some sense to it.

i forgot what my blogger account was. crap

my head hurts. i dont like the scent of the lotion. and summer is almost over and all i finished reading are the 13 books of lemony snicket's unfortunate events and god's debris. that sucks! i need to read a ton more. and in addition to that, review my law subjects! well, if im going to have a lot of free time, that would have been easy to do.

went to the mall with three of my cousins. if i remember correctly, this was the first time that all four of us went out. never realized that, that is, if im not mistaken

ive made a lot of wrong turns in my life. and i keep making them. probably, im going to keep making them til i die. it seems i just have the knack for making the wrong decisions. and even if i realized where i made the wrong turn, i just keep on going. trying not to regret each one and not even attempting to undo it.

Just woke up and i have no idea where my mother and my brother is. well, i could guess where they could possibly be. anyway, point is, its usual that i wake up and find myself home alone and have no idea where my family went. sometimes they wake me up and tell me while im half asleep. and thats not really effective since i might not be listening. or they really dont tell me at all because it doesnt really matter that much to me.

i like being left home alone, especially in the morning since im not a morning person. i can be in the foulest mood and no one would mind. the only thing i dont like when home alone and not having an idea where they went is that when someone calls, i have no idea what to say where they went

life is depressing. i think i need to read 10 million books this summer.

im not in the mood to talk to anyone. why blog about it? i dont know. just wanted to say i dont feel like talking to anyone in any form of communication. and it has nothing to do with my recent tooth extraction due to an impaction. sure, its still a little sore and i still cant eat properly, but even if i was feeling ok, im still not in the mood to talk to anyone for any reason.

this entry should have been posted a few weeks ago. i wrote this in the pocket pc and forgot to send and post it

Talk about weird. Yesterday, it seemed like i have this uncanny (yes, i used the word uncanny) ability to make the gadgets around me to not work properly. First, it was my cellphone (again). I just bought P20 worth of credits thru autoload. And when i sent my message, it told me the network was busy. Ive been trying the entire day, and it kept saying the same thing, cant send the text message because the network was busy, so i better try again later. But when i used my brother's sim card, it worked fine even on my phone. So it wasnt my phone that was defective. Anyway, after midnight, the phone's back to normal.

Second was the pocket pc. I needed to reformat the memory card simply because the windows media player cant update its library. Something as simple as synchronizing which i do daily isnt working the way it should be. So a lot of time was wasted just because of those minor irregularities in the normal functioning of them gadgets. I didnt even attempt to back-up my phone because with the way things were going yesterday, i might end up in ali mall again, to have my phone repaired.

no summer OLA for me. im a bit disappointed actually. but i shouldnt be because when i saw the list that i was one of those who were conditionally accepted, i knew then and there that the chances of meeting the condition that would make me qualified to enroll for the summer program was small. maybe i just ignored what i thought and gave in to what i wanted. so i became hopeful. and now im disappointed. well, not that disappointed but it did bother me because it would have been really nice if i met the condition so i could register and enroll. it would really ease up my academic load this coming school year (if i get to stay in the university as a law student). it just sucked and no one's to blame but me. i mean, if i was just tough enough a few semester ago, i wouldnt have dropped the subject that led to a chain of events that brought me to where i am now.

finally, ive reformatted the PC. it works much better now. started around 330PM and its already 11 and im almost finished re-installing the software i need to restore.

thanks to the pocket pc, i can take my meds on time. well, almost. sometimes i dont recognize its the pocket pc's reminder alarm that im hearing. i thought it was my brother's cellphone's low battery alarm. when i checked what time it was, only then did i realize it was the pocket pc reminding me to take my meds for my minor dental surgery. why am i writing this? no reason. just had my last exam a while ago. people were saying that the junior year is over. yeah, but it doesnt follow were already seniors. well, for them but not for me. lawschool is still a big uncertainty for me.

i could be having dinner with my blockmates and eating some free food but im at home doing some civ pro digests. my hand hurts already.

i think ive found a good place to study. lately, ive been going to the mall and always, my time is just wasted because i just take my lunch there and dont even spend at least an hour of studying. im better off having lunch in UP because not only do i get to study in the library, i also save money since the food is much cheaper. my problem with studying in the library is that i feel too restrained and its a bit incovenient to go to the restroom because i always study in the third floor. and i also have this problem of being in the mood to study in a particular place. if i get tired of studying in a certain place, i need to move in another spot because my brain wont absorb anything once im not in the mood to be in the place. how picky! so i need to learn quickly how to determine which place im in the mood to study in so i could maximize my time

Taking a break from writing digests...

..and doing some moblogging :)

Maybe i should be some kind of guidance counselor/tech support guy. People always ask my opinion regarding their relationships (family, friends, even romantic relationships) and also ask me if i can fix techie (even mechanical) related stuff.

As for my opinions regarding relationships, i always try to think of unconventional advice, if there's any. Why? Because if they want to hear what most people would say, i wont bother to help the person because they could ask for it from other people. I try to give the kind of help that only a few would (not could) give. Like brutally honest answers. Sometimes i just say things what i think people should hear (ala matrix oracle).

As for techie stuff, i dont know how that is acquired. Not that im an expert (im not) but i would say i know enough to fix and handle most techie related concerns. They say its a guy thing. Well, not really but it seems more guys have the tendency to be better with techie related things. Anyway, i just happen to learn and understand techie related things quickly. I like to tinker with gadgets and other mechanical/electronic things. But not to the point of opening and disassembling it. Well, I know how to assemble a PC. Thats a no brainer for experts or even above average techie guys. For me, i just know enough. Enough to handle each forward step of technology.

Domestic life

I have to remind myself not to go home if possible. I think im better off anywhere than being at home. Well, when it comes to peace of mind at least. And i still call it home and not a mere house where my family resides because, it still is a very nice home. It just so happens that i dont fit in it. Whenever im at home, i get burdened with stuff and never really given that amount of time i need to really relax (and when i say relax, i mean peace and comfort without being disturbed in any way. Thats why i like to be home alone). Someone's always knocking on my door or asking me to do stuff. And the reason they ask me and not somebody else (and there are lots of somebody else) is because they reason out that im the only one capable. Yeah right. Its either they really are clueless of the skills of other people (who are better than me with regard to some stuff and usually its the stuff they are asking me to do) or they just like to pick on me because i easily give in. That sucks. I just hate my current domestic life. And my social life isnt any better because of my loner tendencies (i just have to stay away from people from time to time) and my demanding academic life.

got called for specpro this morning. and it was the last class for the sem. well, last spec pro class. the last class for agency and partnership was last thursday and the last tax law class will be this coming thursday. that would leave me with three subjects per week.

back to spec pro, i was the first one to be called. and i didnt do well. crap. the only time i got called and i blew it. i studied. but well, as usual, that wasnt enough. and it was so early in the morning. like a blockmate once said, "i havent even rubbed two brain cells together". or something like that. but then again, i dont have much brain cells to rub. many got killed in the regular alcohol intake of 2004.

i havent blogged for quite some time. why? i dont know. i just didnt realize that time flew that fast. not that i was busier than the usual but i have been occupied with stuff. tech stuff to be more specific. a few weeks ago, my sister bought a laptop. and just yesterday, i bought a wireless broadband router. and a day before that, my cousin lent me her pocket pc. a few weeks ago and maybe a week after my sister bought her laptop, i bought a 2gig flash disk and USB connector. and there's been a lot of "free cuts" from time to time with regard to my classes this month. and i got called for my tax class for the first time this semester and it wasnt that bad. sounds like a good month? not really. i would say it was a bad month for me when it comes to gadgets (aside from other minor unfortunate things but not unfortunate enough to be really strangely unlucky). this is a little bit exaggerated but still very descriptive of what i had gone through lately.

the day we bought the laptop, we found out that it flooded in our house when we got home. why? i forgot to switch off the faucet. and then, when i installed the operating system on the laptop, i found out that my copy isnt good enough to be compatible with the needed software my sister would use for the laptop. so i had to buy a more updated operating system. and then there's my phone. it malfunctioned again! and on valentine's day! nice timing as always (the first time it went "haywire" was christmas eve or two hours before 12 midnight of the 25th). so i didnt have a fully functional phone for a couple of days. then there's the router. it took me hours setting it up. i thought theres something wrong with the configuration but i found out the following day there was none. how did i find out? i just stopped thinking too closely on the project. maybe im getting too "emotional" that i cant think properly and as rationally as before. i was too eager and excited with the router that i had the tendency to overlook the obvious. and before that realization, i was fucking convinced that theres something wrong because it wasnt working like it should. in the end, it just so happened that i was thinking too much. anyway, its really hard to explain, and im just happy its working now. and then theres the software for the pocket pc. i cant find any online thats available for downloading. that sucks. what if the owner lost the installation CD? but then again, most likely, ive overlooked this one again and im not searching well enough.

as for valentines day, i spent a few hours of it with my law blockmates. it was sort of an accident. i went to sm north right after my partnership law class to have some lunch and at the same time window shop because my brother's birthday is coming up. while walking in the mall, a blockmate saw me and informed me that theres a block lunch at a nearby mall. so i went there after roaming a little, and after receiving a text message from another blockmate telling me that they're already there. then went to a blockmate's condo unit and watched Juno. then went to cubao to have dinner with my family (which is sort of an annual thing, family dinner every valentines day and i missed last year's because i had an exam for civpro).

and i also figured out how to remove the malware that infected my PC weeks earlier.

im infected with a malware! nice. just makes life more difficult

still no civpro. i think. finally no more midterm exams! done with agency, civpro, specpro and locgov exam. not sure if i did well. and now its february. like things are going to be easier. and theres something wrong with the PC. cant open any hard disk drives! well, they cant be opened by clicking on it. you have to resort to some keyboard action.

no medjur. just had agency. and just found out that there wont be civpro class this week. wow, more time to study for my locgov midterms. the life of a law student is a wretched life.

no civ pro today. and im really not feeling well. damn cold. and i have another midterm exam by the end of the week. nice.

i think i have a cold. crap. i hate sleeping with a clogged nose. i think its because of the back to back midterm examinations i just had. must have really drained a lot of energy from my brain cells. it drained a lot of energy that i made another "movie" mistake last saturday. i watched D-war, without researching on it first. it wasnt as bad as Pathfinder. almost. great special effects. thats it. thats the only good thing about the movie. its like watching a video game with great special effects.

procedure week: midterm exam for civpro on friday, and midterm exam for specpro on saturday

cant believe i fell asleep last night! well, i fell asleep earlier than midnight. and its a saturday night. crap. at least i woke up early today

not doing well in school. crap. better pull myself together. i should pull harder

no locgov for today. sixth straight day for having 2 whopper juniors, one large coke and large fries for lunch

i should write a new year's resolution and commit to it. thats one way of keeping myself focused and hopefully occupied enough to counter the bothersome feeling

4th day on 2 whopper juniors, large fries and large coke. watched I am Legend. not that good and not that bad. its like 1% resident evil, 1% castaway and 98% pursuit of happyness. a very "self-centered" movie

things arent going well for me right now. emotionally and mentally. another "turbulent period" ahead.

i guess i could it say everything's going as expected. like these past 2 years, something fucked up comes up that messes things up. problem is, its a very hazy something. right now, im having a hard time pulling myself together. i didnt attend three classes this week! im disturbed/bothered again by something i dont know that's really bringing me down. in 2006 it came late january. in 2007 it came around mid-february. this year is a little early since its only the first week. but its still within the expected period since im expecting it to come around the first three months at the beginning of the year. another problem is, i havent really figured out how to fight it. this semester is the last time i can bounce back. if theres a perfect time for it, now is the time. one last chance. so, i better figure out how to counter this thing thats holding me down or well, everything will be lost. well, everything i know now. crap.

this is the third consecutive day that i had 2 whopper juniors, one large fries (with mayonnaise as dip) and a large coke. will i go for five straight days? maybe six even?

the internet connection's ok tonight. finally! hope this isnt temporary.

anyway, wasnt able to attend my first class. experienced extreme drowsiness. maybe too much coffee and taking multivitamins sort of messed up my system. fortunately, classes were suspended from 1pm onwards. in effect, i only had one class (agency).

really brilliant. its past midnight and i havent studied for my tuesday classes (spec pro, agency and medjur). the first one starts at 8am. for some reason, the extreme drowsiness pestered me all day long.

its monday again tomorrow! the only nice thing i can look forward to every monday is that i get to listen to the Brewrats.

i now have 12055 wallpapers, 9081 of which are sexy celebs and 1669 are movie wallpapers

i think im developing the habit of winking. better control it before i end up getting slapped by a female stranger.

just had locgov (from 730am to 1030am). then paid for the stuff i photocopied. P595! thats crazy! well, not really. should be more mindful of my spending. its only a few days since the year started. then had lunch with my blockmates (beach house)

what the craps wrong with my yahoomail! is there something wrong with my internet connection or what?

just had agency. didnt have tax law class. then loitered in the mall

classes start tomorrow. wait, in a few hours since its past midnight