are you enjoying yourself? being alone, i mean?

nope! absolutely not. sometimes, if i dont control myself, i inadvertently socialize. i half regret it because i cant stick to what i intend to do. but i guess man is just a social animal. its really hard to go against whats natural. but sooner or later im going to figure out, again, how to withdraw from society. it wont be a enjoyable thing to do. probably the most depressing shit that can be done but i just feel that it would do me good. have some peace of mind.

thats crazy talk for you and a normal shit to deal with for me