it took me hours to finish setting up the new hard disk. first, i had problems placing it in the CPU case (i thought it was too big since it barely fits. i wasnt the one who installed the other hard disk, the 20 gig one). im using the 20 gig for the OS and downloads, while the 250 gig will serve as the real storage space. so, after screwing it all up (which was a problem since the hard disk did not come with any screws, so i had to use what i have, re-postioned the other screws i have available, like the example of the car with a flat tire with four screws missing), i found out that the file system used by the guy on the computer shop was NTFS. i asked the guy to make the partitions on the disk so all i have to do is install it. forgot that i prefer the FAT32 file system since NTFS causes compatibility problems. so, i had to download a disk director to re-format the file system. then after that, i removed and re-installed the softwares i have on the 20 gig, so all the 20 gig contains is the OS. this took hours. almost finished now. the only thing i have left to restore are the wallpapers and yahoo messenger. still have problems with drive C though. no matter how many files ive deleted, it seems that drive C isnt freeing any space. its supposed to be 50% full but according to its disk properties, its 75% full. would have reformatted the disk but i dont know how to set up the DSL connection (those goddamn bastards in Bayantel took weeks to install the DSL service!) . that's the only thing preventing me from reformatting the local disk.

weird day for a ride on the mrt/lrt. for some reason, my sense of direction is poor earlier this day. cant find my way to the right platform (i went to the southbound platform before i realized that i am on the wrong side, and even had to make a fool of myself by confirming to the security guard whether im on the wrong platform). even had to ask for directions where the right platform is. dont know why i find it hard to remember (although i think im just doubting myself whether im right or not because i really know where to go, it just so happens i need some assurance whether im right). even forgot how to use the card. well, not really. like i said, i needed an assurance whether im holding the card properly so i wont have to do the trial and error thing on the card slot for the ticket.

finally!!! i've finally bought the 250 gig hard disk ive been longing for. well, not really 250 gig but ive been longing for a bigger hard disk. ive been stuck on a 20 gig hard disk since college. and back then, 20 gig wasnt that bad, but it was the 40 gig which people aim to have. actually, 40 gig was already the normal disk size, so people have started dumping their 20 gigs to get to 40 gig, and im just stepping from 2gig to 20gig! now, the largest disk size ive seen is around 700plus gig, and it costs more than P20,ooo. i got my 250 gig seagate hard disk for only P3950 (the usual price is around P4320). hope that i didnt get a defective one or a low quality hard disk. but its seagate, all my hard disk always had been seagate and never had problems with it. but it didnt cost that low though (if i were to adjust the price to the disk size and time it was for sale). anyway, so far, the hard disk is working fine, got lots of space for files, music and downloads. too bad the internet connection is still slow.

so, what did i do today? might as well write an entry while waiting for the other websites to load. well, all i did was wait inside the van, sit there and listen to some music (nelly furtado's loose album and the happy feet OST). aside from that, well, i saw a man peddling some DVDs and bought two (DoA and Happy Feet), since i dont have the time to go to Quiapo (and dont have the money to buy the ones being sold in malls). so there. that's about 3/4 of the entire day. well, i woke up around 12pm and its only 630 pm. well, the day is almost over (or is it?).

IMDB is still not finished!!! and i cant play neopets!

waiting for IMDB to load....and after 10 million years...still loading!!

just watched Dead or Alive on DVD, and i want to know who's who...

internet speed: still sloooooooooooowwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!

at least blogger is working perfectly. maybe this will be one of the things i can do online. sigh. no neopets fun for a little while.

holy crap! the internet connection is sooo slooowww!!! wow, that earthquake in Taiwan must have really caused some considerable damage. according to news reports, it will take months before the undersea cables are fully repaired. hope they find an alternative solution or fix this ASAP. not that its affecting my neopets addiction but, well, it does sort of affects my daily internet activity.

wow, another blog entry in less than an hour. well, i just read my blog entry in my multiply site, and i what i can say about it is: i should learn how to post shorter blog entries. its really tiring to read a long blog entry. besides, my target reader is myself anyway.

i really should oblige myself to post something in this blog. ive neglected this site from quite some time. besides, i need to improve my writing skills.

so, what can i write for tonight? well, nothing much happened today. just stayed home, since it's official, im on christmas break! i received a text message from grace telling me that the make up classes for civil procedure will not push throught. well, that is good news for this year but a bit of a bad news for next year. not having the classes this tuesday and wednesday means a heavier load next month and next year, and that we will have to catch up with more lessons. also, there are other make-up classes for other subjects. so, well, not sure right now whether to savor the break while there's the chance to take a rest and relax, or to still study in order to minimize the load for next year. cant it be both? well, of course it can, but it wont be much as good if i choose only one, but at least i get to accomplish two things. oh well, hope i get to decide by the time a wake up later.

there is nothing in this life that could ever make me happy. this life sucks and its not worth living. im tired!!!

wow, its been a while. it seems that i forgot about blogging...anyway, its a lazy monday afternoon and vacation is almost over. if i think about it, vacation is over. wait, if i think about it again, it seems i didnt have a vacation! for two months, april and may, i was the family driver, how nice. i drove to cavite, to montalban, to caloocan, to novaliches, to pasig, ortigas, makati, las pinas, etc. its a very tiring vacation. and i didnt even get to read any book!

this week is supposed to be enrollment week and im not even sure if im qualified for enrollment! the grades for the second semester of SY 2005-2006 aren't out yet...well, most of the grades. so how am i supposed to know if my GWA is high enough to be able to enter the sophomore year when i can't compute my yearly GWA!

Just Asking

What the hell is my problem? This has been one of the questions I constantly ask myself for years and until now, I have no idea what the f***'s the answer. What are the other questions you ask? I'll tell you some other time, but for now, let's focus on this question, even if I know it won't be answered tonight.

I could now say, it has been two weeks since I seriously studied, and I better get my groove back or else (meaning another memory to repress or another personality to create to carry the tragic event that is about to happen). I thought Banjo's gone, but well, he's just dormant, and right now, I am starting to develop a theory of when he pops up. At least I have an idea when the Fruit Fairy comes out. As for the others, they still remain a secret, even Estong who can exist independently. Not even sure if he is a personality of his own.

Another Tiring Weekend.

Its a sunday morning and i want to go back to sleep. but i cant. why? because ive slept for 15 hours straight! i was so tired that when i got home yesterday afternoon, saturday, around 4 or 5 pm, i went straight to bed and i woke up around 8 am this sunday. i was so tired because we prepared our report on the Sandiganbayan. i went to UP last Friday, 8:30 am to wait for a groupmate who would accompany me to the house of another groupmate, which is in muntinlupa, and already near laguna. we got there in the afternoon, and we started doing the assigned project after lunch. and from there, we worked straight until around 8 am, the following morning. and the class report was supposed to start by 8 am! well, we got to school by 10 am, and we were able to present the report we made. but after that, instead of going straight home, i lingered a little bit longer inside the campus to hang out with some of my blockates. why? because i dont want to go sleep, not yet. i dont want to have another one of those insomnia sessions. it just drives me crazy and i really think im starting to go insane. so there. two days disappeared just like that. fortunately, the brokeback friday was fun, and the warm, lazy saturday wasn't that bad either.

also, it was another expensive weekend, compared to last weekend, because, i went to fridays on a thursday afternoon which was unplanned, paid P230. i went to muntinlupa/laguna, and spent P400 for gas money. then had lunch on a saturday, around P100. so, i spent around P730 in three days which i didnt plan at all. im not even sure if i can save some money this coming week because its valentine's day on tuesday. not that i have plans but there are places i can go to and people i can go with.

Weird Week

This was probably the weirdest week i've ever had. i usually have two classes per day for four days every week. so its two classes from monday to thursday. but this week, for the entire four days, i only had two classes, out of the eight. five of them were free cuts, the sixth class was excused. it was really weird. the first class of the week, asked for a make up class because, i cant remember the reason, anyway, we just cant hold classes that time. for the second class, the professor was sick. the following day, the third class, i was excused because i had to conduct an interview for a report on that same class which will be held on the coming weekend, saturday morning. then the fourth class, was announced to be a free cut. so in the first two days of the week, i didnt attend any class. on the third day, for the fifth class, instead of holding regular classes, the professor required us to attend a forum, because the professor was one of the guest speakers of the forum. the sixth class was my first class for the week, and by that time i was already feeling that luck is about to run out. i mean, i consider the first two days of no classes as lucky days because i wasnt prepared to attend classes for that week because of the long, unusual weekend i had before, so i wasnt able to study for any subject. and well, i was right. the following day, the seventh class, i was called to recite. i didnt do very well. not as bad as my previous recitation for that class, but not very good either to merit a good grade. anyway, the eighth class was also a free cut. so the week ended, and i only attended two classes.

Long Weekend

Friday: I conducted an interview in the Sandiganbayan, along with three of my group mates and one of my group mate’s girlfriend who tagged along to help us with our class project. We arrived in Sandiganbayan around 10:15 am (the appointment was supposed to be 10 am) and from there, we pestered the people working in Sandiganbayan with questions ranging from a bit serious to just plain absurd and irrelevant. We had lunch in the cafeteria, got a little peeved with the price of the Japanese food they were selling. Fortunately it wasn’t bad. We finished around 4 pm and then three of us went back to UP and hung out for a while. Come around 5-6pm, two of us went back to our humble abodes to waste some time while waiting for a friend who works in the Ortigas area. Got a text a message regarding the reunion for the following day while I was changing my clothes (since I was wearing a semi formal attire for the interview I conducted earlier). Still didn’t have a hint it was going to be a long, tiring weekend. An hour later, we met up with two more friends from Ateneo law, who are also planning to wander around since it was a Friday night. We went to Quatro, Timog. This is where I broke my promise not to drink. Well, not really promise not to drink but reserve my alcohol drinking to special occasions, and I don’t think that was an occasion that could be considered special. Anyway, an hour or two later, we decided to tag along with two of our friends to go to Oyster Boy, Ortigas. This is where I broke my promise to never smoke again. I don’t what happened, I just felt compelled to smoke. Had two sticks. Then, for the third and last time, we decided to go to Drew’s, Katipunan to join some other friends, who were already very tipsy. Ok, so I spent a lot of gas money that night, and all I had to drink was one bottle of san mig light and smoke maybe around 6 sticks of cigarette. We finished around 1 am, I think. Or was it 2 am? Can’t actually remember. Anyway, point is, I went home late.

Saturday: I think I woke up around 10 am to eat some breakfast, and then I slept again until lunch. After eating lunch, took a bath, then slept again. I really felt tired and drained and dehydrated. So aside from sleeping, I kept on drinking water the entire day. Anyway, I finally decided I’m going to this grade school reunion, which was set at 8pm, at Quatro, Timog. I left our house around quarter to 9, not that I want to be fashionably late but I had things to do before I go (like change the parking spot in the garage) and I knew people won’t arrive until maybe 8:30 pm. So, I got there at 9 pm, maybe I was just on time. I really didn’t expect I was going to enjoy the night, since I really had no memories to share with them, but well, I actually did have fun. I enjoyed their company and I was really happy that I decided to join them this time. And since they didn’t know about my blood problem, no one was going to stop me from drinking. So I ordered two macho mugs of san mig light and chugged down half macho mug of red horse. Didn’t care if I die that night, I just love alcohol, and I’m going to die happy. Anyway, we ended around 4 am, got home around 4:30 am. It was nice to catch up with people whom you haven’t seen for 10 years. Really makes you think of what could have been or how life can be, well, as it is. I was glad to have seen them again after all these years.

Sunday: For some strange reason, I woke up around 8:30 am, and I was wide awake. I didn’t feel sleepy after sleeping for only four hours. I had a headache though. So I drank lots of water again to hydrate myself. Around lunchtime, I drove my family to Shopwise, and then I loitered in Gateway for a while. Then I thought of a friend who works there, so I texted her if I could hang out with her for a while since I was just roaming around the mall she was working in. So there, we talked, told her about this girl I like, and then minutes later, my sister texted me we had to go home. My not so usual weekend ended there. Started around 9 am of Friday and ended Sunday, around 3 or 4 pm. Wait, also got a text message inviting me to join a Valentine’s Singles Dinner. Not sure if I’ll go. So there.

friday last week

why? why? why! last week, when i was too lazy to bring the van to school, i decided to commute and of all the people i can come across with, it had to be double d. one of the few persons that really sucks out the confidence in me. i really feel bad about myself whenever i see him and last friday was no different. i was so close to the school, it was only a few meters away when he rode the jeepney i was in. he paid the fare after he seated himself in the same side i am in. i was only one person away. not sure if he saw me at once, but well, i didnt have to worry about that because when i was about to get off the jeep, being the large, clumsy idiot that i am, i almost stepped on his foot. ok, so i got his attention, and i had to apologize (again! for the nth time) because i accidentally hit his foot. what can i do, i really dont fit in jeepneys. so, when i finally reached the library, it took me a few more minutes to focus because dobol d just make me worry about my studies. i should be performing well, far more better than what i am doing right now.

well, at least now, im not as distracted as i used to be. luningning isnt bothering me as much as she used to two weeks ago. i still think about her but im starting to convince myself, i would have to let go. i really feel that the next time i see her, i have to say goodbye or i will have to accept the fact that, well, nothing can ever happen between us.

yesterday morning, a feroza blocked my way near the AS building, right in front of the waiting shed. the driver of the feroza might have thought i was harassing him or her because i was running right beside him/her from the oblation to AS. it just so happens that i was planning to overtake him/her but he/she keeps running at the same pace as i am. also i got curious of the logo on the car door so i looked at it. i didnt mean to make it appear i was harassing him/her or taunting him/her. anyway, it was another uneventful day. i wasnt called to recite in consti class but i was told that i will be called and that if i do get called, i would recite for the entire two hours. as for the oblicon class, the prof texted that we will not be having classes for that day. then i found out we had a make up class for legal theory which wasnt that bad because the discussion was fun and interesting. after class, i drove home while listening to Huling El Bimbo, Rico J version. by the time i got home, i slept. woke up, watched a little tv and looked for this survey which would give me a clue about something. so there.

i should be sleeping! its almost 3 am, and im just wasting time

Noisy Neighbors

It’s past midnight and I can’t sleep because of our noisy neighbors. What do they give their kids anyway? It’s already 1 am and the kids sound like their going to be up until morning. I just realized it’s not pleasant to hear the sound of a child’s laughter and hear them play whatever game their playing in the middle of the night. Don’t these kids have curfews or something?

Parking

i still suck in parking cars!!! i just parked my cousin's car in our garage and the distance from the bumper of the other car from the bumper of the car im driving is only an inch! no kidding, just an inch, no exaggeration. who parks cars like that? ok, so it saves garage space but still, that was unintentional, an inch more i might have created a dent on both bumpers. im really not good with estimating the distance of the car in front of me. im very used to driving our van, maybe that's why im very bad in driving vehicles with hoods. i also noticed that lately, the engine of the vehicle im driving always dies when im backing up. my brain-foot coordination seems to be poor when im backing up the van( (or the car). i have no idea why i just included the last 2 sentences. anyway, i have to improve my parking skills, i have to keep that in mind the next time i drive my cousin's car...if there will be a next time.

Excerpt from The Restaurant at the End of the Universe:

...I'm quite used to being humiliated,' droned Marvin. 'I can even go and stick my head in a bucket of water if you like. Would you like me to go and stick my head in a bucket of water? I've got one ready. Wait a minute.'
'Er, hey, Marvin. . .' interrupted Zaphod, but it was too late. Sad little clunks and gurgles came up the line.
'Whats he saying?' asked Trillian.
'Nothing,' said Zaphod, 'he just phoned up to wash his head at us.'
'There,' said Marvin, coming back on the line and bubbling a bit. 'I hope that gave you great satisfaction. . .'
'Yeah, yeah,' said Zaphod, 'now will you please tell us where you are?'
'I'm in the car park,' said Marvin.
'The car park?' said Zaphod, 'what are you doing there?'
'Parking cars, what else does one do in a car park?'
- Marvin speaking to Zaphod from Milliways Car Park

one problem of having so many email addresses is that you forget to check some of them. i just checked one of them and found out that i haven't checked one of my online accounts, the one from myspace.com. its been probably more than a year or maybe even two years since i last logged in. here is my profile for myspace which somehow reflects my state of mind a few years ago. i posted it so i can constantly remind myself who i am (i have this tendency to have an identity crisis from time to time).

i am. (skip this and move to the next paragraph if you are not wasting your time at the moment, no one reads these profiles anyway when they have some other things to do or can do) more about me...hmmm...well, i am currently undergoing a re-construction of myself after a series of events contested my beliefs and principles in life and projected my strength as a weakness. at this very moment, i am still unsure whether to abandon my current way of living and set-up an entirely new one or stick to it but conduct a few reforms here and there. what is my current way of living? all i can say is that it has given me this feeling of invulnerability to most things and that only God can pose a challenge in life and that my life in general is extremely boring and easy and in a way perfect, everything is all in the mind. i like the way i live already and that every problem i have can be solved. unfortunately, i live in a world that does not operate in the same way, therefore, making some of my ways of living contradictory or in conflict with the way people actually live . the problem is, the source of my strength, invulerability and boredom is due to my loner ways when man by nature is a social animal. in order to not to have a boring life, i must immerse myself and learn (again for i have un-learned it already) what this world considers as a norm, i must be the one that looks for the challenge and not the other way around where i wait for circumstance and try not to be its victim and manipulate it to make me stronger. actually, what's written above is nothing but bullshit. more about me (again)...hmmm...i am tall, dark and handicapped (temporarily mentally disabled). my personality depends on my mood. i can be a party animal or an anti-social, and....ummm... i prefer to be the person of last resort when it comes to being asked for help for i am not the type who feels good that i have done a good deed (can't admit it actually), i like to drive fast in fancy cars and chickens dig me like granola bars, loves food trips, likes road trips, hates hot, uncomfortable long trips, poet and novelist wannabe (my way of immortalizing myself ala william blake), planning to reverse some of my habits, agrees with some of the ideas of marx, machiavelli, nietzsche and foucault, i am not a communist and will never be (just interested in studying and analyzing the Philippine left as a movement), i am not deep, just different (and very humble), predictably unpredictable, i am a walking contradiction (one of my favorite descriptions of myself)...ummm....i'm just here to help anyway so there's no point filling this up pala (wow conyo). just got nothing to do kasi (more conyotics). i think this is enough, for now.

just testing the blog send address...changed my email

Just woke up. Its already 12:30 in the afternoon and I still have loads of cases to read. I was supposed to wake up at 7 in the morning but I ignored my alarm clock…again! What's the point of setting the alarm clock to wake me up every morning when I ignore it every time it rings? I'm so undisciplined. That’s why the assigned cases and readings I’m supposed to read keeps piling up and I wont be able to finish reading it and I wont be able to catch up with the class. The year just started and I’m already burying myself alive! I always get called for recitation and whenever I hear my name get called, I always start the recitation with a "huh? Me?" or "huh? What are we discussing again?” I better pull myself together or my professors won’t have second thoughts of giving me a failing grade. Wow, it took me nine minutes just to write this crap.