friday last week

why? why? why! last week, when i was too lazy to bring the van to school, i decided to commute and of all the people i can come across with, it had to be double d. one of the few persons that really sucks out the confidence in me. i really feel bad about myself whenever i see him and last friday was no different. i was so close to the school, it was only a few meters away when he rode the jeepney i was in. he paid the fare after he seated himself in the same side i am in. i was only one person away. not sure if he saw me at once, but well, i didnt have to worry about that because when i was about to get off the jeep, being the large, clumsy idiot that i am, i almost stepped on his foot. ok, so i got his attention, and i had to apologize (again! for the nth time) because i accidentally hit his foot. what can i do, i really dont fit in jeepneys. so, when i finally reached the library, it took me a few more minutes to focus because dobol d just make me worry about my studies. i should be performing well, far more better than what i am doing right now.

well, at least now, im not as distracted as i used to be. luningning isnt bothering me as much as she used to two weeks ago. i still think about her but im starting to convince myself, i would have to let go. i really feel that the next time i see her, i have to say goodbye or i will have to accept the fact that, well, nothing can ever happen between us.