if im being taught a lesson for being arrogant and reckless, why dont You come down here so i can break Your neck. i dont like being the subject of sick jokes you crazy fuck

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im sorry. i really am. im tired and drained. may mga bagay na hindi pwede sabihin. mga paliwanag na di maririnig. so universe, you sick fuck, leave me alone. tangina! obvious naman na di na pwede bawiin ginawa ko kaya tantanan mo na ko. putangina naman. matino naman ginagawa ko sa buhay ko. bakit ayaw mo pa tumigil? kahit kailan, hindi ako maniniwala sa pinagpipilitan mo. ginagago mo lang ako. pota!

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cant believe its been more than a month since i last saw her. the cannabitch is pissed. and her druggie friend isnt talking to me either. and her co-alphabitch is starting to move away from me too because it seems im bad news.

i dont care if i lose my sanity in the process. the weed makes the pain go away. i just want the pain to go away

damn it. i think the booze and weed is starting to mess me up. can a daily buzz really kill that much brain cells? fuck. imma need some uppers. if i have lost all awareness of what im doing and where im going, at least...meh. all i want is one great final adventure before everything falls apart. or at least make me feel and believe im having one even if its...meh. i dont care anymore. fuck this shit. whatever happens, happens. i dont like anything anyway. 

she was going to leave. so she'll burn the bridge eventually. so what do i do? burn the bridge before she does. and now she's pissed? fuck that. i always have one foot out the door. im not going to be the goddamn fool. never again. i wont allow myself to be outplayed again. i admit defeat to an accountant. her mind is as brilliant and sharp as a diamond. but to a stewardess? i dont think i can allow myself to be outplayed this time.

this was my fate from the moment i was born. i was never meant to be on Your side. thats why Youve rendered me incapable of being happy. so be it

i wonder if there is such a thing is too much soda?

1:20 am. how nice. im thinking of things to do to remember me by. but i think ive made sufficient impressions already.

for a person that has become "energetic" and positive, im still far away from being truly open. im trying much harder in keeping out things that i cant control

i think i just became too aggressive. am i scaring people away? time to find a new watering hole.

people are starting to bore me again. damn it! cant let it happen. cant let this positive attitude slip away. once the boredom takes over...i need to think of a way to spice things up.

finally learned what song she sang to me the night she asked me to stay until 2:30am. i guess she was thinking of someone else when she was singing this song to me. how rude! she really was dangerous. sigh. oh well. i guess she can only love me in my dreams. damn it! i need to quit this shit.

i asked you to dance. is this all you have? not enough my dear friend. sadly, not enough. i want more than this.

im not feeling well

i guess i lack the selfishness to love a person

i wonder if God pulled a nasty trick on me. nah. its my own doing. my own initiative. my loss. im the one who wanted to make the deal. i was just too cocky and stupid to fully realize what i was giving up. at least i got what i asked for.

more than half a decade ago, i asked God for something. in return, i offered something i thought wasnt important to me. i was a loner so i thought, it wont be much of a sacrifice on my part since i can easily get by with only myself by my side. little did i know God knew me more than i did. God knew my future more than what my foresight could see. so a little more than a couple of years ago, i tried to break the deal by doing something i already promised i wont do because i already offered it or gave it up. after a few months, God made it clear that the deal is in force. that He actually accepted my offer. so i had to choose. break the deal, which meant losing what i was asking more than half a decade ago, or comply with the agreement and suffer the penalties for breaking it. i chose the latter. but in addition with the compliance, i asked for something in addition to what i initially asked. this time i offered something more. now, im bound by those promises i have made.

my upper body is in pain. but its not as painful as expected. but its still painful enough to force me to move slower than usual. surprisingly, my body doesnt ache after a serious workout or whenever i jog (i dont even do the stretching thing). but when i went surfing a few weeks ago, my left arm was sore for a week!

im feeling extremely lazy today

i am forced to change my hairstyle at the moment because i dont like my hair cut. this is why i dont like getting a haircut recently. the barbershop i used to go to changed its location due to a change in management and along with the change, my former barber disappeared because he no longer likes the new management of the barbershop. this happened more or less two years ago. ever since then, ive been looking for a new barber and i havent found one yet. since i have a job interview tomorrow, i was forced to get a haircut yesterday and the stylist didnt really get what cut i wanted. maybe i should bring my grad pic with me next time.

my arms are sore and my knees are bruised because i went surfing last monday (yet i still managed to jog yesterday and today. im proud of myself). went to la union with law school blockmates last weekend. it was great. it was nice. wish we could do it more often but the reality is, the older we get, the less likely vacations like this becomes. were running out of time. well, im running out of time. im not exactly the type of friend who's part of a close circle of friends (or a faction in a particular block). im more of an afterthought kind of friend or the "who else is there?" kind of guy. i have the tendency to disappear for months and resurface from time to time. crap. i think im a whale. 

i just barfed after laughing so hard. didnt know that could happen. well, ive been eating for hours so its not farfetched. i really should start to be mindful of my eating habits. even if i jog daily, it wont stop my weight gain if i eat non-stop. wow, this is something new to me.

my back is killing me. i just felt the pain in my spine while taking a shower a few minutes ago when i abruptly straightened my back because of the cold water from the shower

i need to clean my room before 2012 comes. gots lots and lots of pieces of paper called receipts, charge slips, brochures, etc. scattered around my room. 

i think the lack of exercise is messing up my brain

i think im going to be sick. got a mild sore throat. im not surprised. i always catch a cold during december. im usually sick during christmas week. so im doing my last minute xmas shopping with a cold

i think i just received a missed call from someone from Malaysia

jogged in the rain. hope i dont catch a cold.

woke up with a hangover this morning. weird part is i didnt drink last night.

got my laptop back.

laptop broke. after 4 years of using it daily, its hinges finally gave in. the repairshop told me it will take 1 to 2 months to get the parts needed. crap.

my head hurts. im in the office and my head fucking hurts. well, its not that serious, like my head is about to pop. but it really does hurt a lot. and im in the office. i was planning to pay the bills today in the mall, then relax a bit then find a place to work there. but i have to be in the office first. why did my head decide to have a headache today?

a thought just entered my head just now. i suddenly remembered a recent dream where i rode a plane. that i was worried because of the altitude and my blood condition. but i risked it anyway. not that there's something weird about it since its only a dream. its just it popped in my head so suddenly and reminded me of some girl who worried about me riding planes.

took a short nap this afternoon when i got home. my nap was interrupted by a strange text message. i had to immediately check some of my online accounts to make sure it wasnt hacked.

i had to check my other blog what ive been posting lately even if i just posted something an hour or a few hours ago.

today was a very unproductive day.

just had a colonoscopy earlier today. i was supposed to be given a sedative to put me to sleep but it didnt really work (the nurse said its probably because i have a high tolerance for alcohol). i was awake the whole time and i felt the annoying discomfort the whole procedure. i was groaning due to the slight pain.

there are no definite findings yet but i just hope that the "impression" the doctor got stays that way. i dont want any other serious medical concerns. im financially drained. 

holy crap. how can fat people live with their selves? im not even overweight but im already having difficulties dealing with this weight ive gained. its just so hard to move.

tiring day. just bought a new desktop PC. and an LED monitor. i still need to transfer the files from the old PC to the new one.

had a really busy weekend.

my whole body is aching. cant even bend. my thighs hurt. i dont recall my body aching this much after cleaning my room. i think its because of age.

tiring day today. cleaned my room. even the walls. didnt get to finish but i think i managed to do 75% of what im supposed to do.

going to have a very busy, non-work related saturday and sunday. the work-related stuff will be done on monday and probably tuesday too. i cant even enjoy holidays. the worst part is...im going to use up one month and a half of my salary for a necessary, unexpected expense. i guess this is august's goodbye present for this year.

attended my mandaluyong court hearing. had lunch at trinoma. went to the office. then went back to the mall after office hours to watch Cowboys and Aliens. also, i checked Cyberzone and finally saw the 10 inch samsung galaxy tab. i did a lot of things in between but im too tired to think about it

i have court hearings on the next two days and i need to finish my part in the supreme court memorandum by wednesday. and i thought the last few days of august will be my rest days. im going to use the holidays next week to clean my room and do other chores.

not feeling well again. crap. the extra non-working day last friday gave me more time to sleep but i didnt really rest during the time im awake.

done with the SC oral arguments. finally. now comes the 20 day period to submit the memorandum. position paper on thursday, hearing next tuesday. and half a month left til august ends

i think its time to have my eyes checked

not feeling well. i really feel dizzy. very dizzy. damn it. and i was thinking earlier whether to buy pizza or a hotdog sandwich after i leave work. i dont think i can enjoy it given that i feel like throwing up.

very tiring day. had a lunch meeting with Senator Pimentel and Atty. Romulo Macalintal earlier today in preparation for the SC oral arguments next tuesday. in addition to that, i need to drop by the PAO office in relation to the murder case im handling, review a city ordinance to prepare a legal memo and review an expropriation case that started way back in the sixties. and the decision for the election protest case im handling is due next week.

went to cavite yesterday to go to my cousin's wake. first time i saw him and unfortunately, he's inside a coffin. also learned that i was baptized in a hospital (i was confined in the hospital due to lobar pneumonia). my parents decided to have me baptized because i was always severely ill as a baby. if we only had a tradition similar to the korean Doljanchi, my parents probably threw a big celebration when i reached my first birthday.

i think im going to bed early tonight. im starting to not feel well again. i hope this wont lead to another set of lab tests.

watched the 2nd installment of the last Harry Potter movie today. its nothing compared to the book. but its not a bad film adaptation. i guess.

bought 2 pairs of denim pants yesterday. i was supposed to buy a new pair of shoes too but there were too many people because of the mall wide sale. i didnt benefit from the mall sale because the items on sale dont cover my size. im better off buying my stuff during regular mall days.

not feeling well again. i just got well earlier today. crap. seriously? i already had myself checked almost two weeks ago and the x-ray didnt show anything wrong. the same thing for my ultrasound and other lab tests. i dont want to buy anymore meds! there's going to be a mall wide sale this weekend and i need to buy a new pair of jeans and leather shoes.

paid some bills and had a kko kko tour marathon. lost a few pounds because of my illness so im trying to gain it back. i will have to eat more often.

called in sick today. got a high fever but i still did some work during the morning. ive been taking meds for my other illnesses so i have no idea what's the origin of this fever. i need to get rid of this fever by tomorrow. ive got lots of stuff to do plus a lunch meeting.

despite my very weak condition, i continue to work. just a few more days and then i will be able to really rest without much worries. just hold on a little longer physical self. if life can be a little nicer, the workload will be very manageable by next week and physical self can get some rest to recover.

very tiring day. at least today, its not because of work. spent the morning getting some lab tests and received a prescription for some expensive medication. watched Transformers 3 during the afternoon and then bought some stuff at the mall. got home around 8. tomorrow, i resume work and start a week long medication for one of my ailments.

im too busy and tired to care. makes me thankful that i can still get enough time to sleep. not a good night sleep though due to some pain ive been having for weeks but its still sleep nonetheless.

just got home from work. crap. i have a hearing tomorrow. im too tired to prepare. i guess i will just have to wake up really, really early.

very productive day today. managed to do a lot of work. yet not enough to finish everything. i hope i continue this hardworker mode until the end of the week.

at the end of the day, i just want to relax but its the middle of the week so its kinda impossible. the fact that Mcdonald's Matalino is still closed makes matters worse. i dont have a "happy place". there's no good alternative place where i can get my morning coffee before i go to my court hearings. i miss my morning cup of coffee before i go to work.

the internet is starting to get boring too. im no longer hooked on facebook. i only check my emails because of force of habit. the only thing i have left are my PS3 and my soshi addiction.

im seriously not feeling well.

im not feeling well. i think its psychosomatic. coincidentally, im listening to prodigy's breathe.

i think there's something wrong with my back. nothing seriously wrong. not yet. but certainly, there's something wrong

my lower back's been hurting since this morning. weird thing about it is, one of the cases ive scheduled to review and assess today involves a client who suffered from a lower back injury. of course my back pain is nothing compared to his. he suffered from a lower back injury due to heavy labor given the nature of his work. i think my back pain is my body's way of trying to symphathize with the client.

much as i want to be a hardworking person and be a workaholic, im having difficulties. the most i can be right now is be a laid back person. thats better than being just plain lazy. at least i get things done. but still its unacceptable given my pace of learning the tricks of the trade.

i started thinking, how come i cant use my "workaholic mode"? i really need it. especially right now that i have court hearings for three straight weeks (average of four hearings per week). being laid back is just good enough to make sure i get something done. but its really not a job well done. its probably good enough but obviously lacking stuff. or maybe not good enough at all. there's just some output. plain and simple.

im laid back in a sense, i sleep in my office room to rest. when im tired, i stop working. of course, i only stop when i can afford to stop, meaning no deadlines. but on the inside, i get occasional panic attacks when my brain starts to give me the "big picture" or the amount of work to be done.

i need to do something about this.

went to UP earlier today to read some updated law books. when i got there, the guard told me its closed. i then asked if its closed just today or will it be closed next saturday. he said something i idiotically failed to realize. its summer! the law library is always closed on saturdays during summer! sheesh. i even thought earlier that it should be open on a saturday because there are saturday classes. there are no classes during summer. i totally forgot its May. damn it. and its been like that since i was in law school and it hasnt been that long since i was a law student.

i wish i can make things right. but i promised im going to leave things the way they are and try to forget about it. half a decade swept under the rug. move out then never come back

there's just some things in life you just have to let go. i might regret it, i might not. at this point, i wouldnt really know. its my future self's problem, not mine. right now, letting go and moving somewhere else seems to make a lot of sense. holding on just makes me feel stupid. so im going to hold on to what i believe...and at the moment, i believe in letting go. abandon all hope and forsake everything.

i was wondering earlier today what's wrong with me. i realized that my mind keeps getting in the way. my will isnt strong enough to overcome it. i cant go against it. it has always dictated my every thought, my every move. my mind needs some reformatting but it doesnt want me to.

my neck hurts. 2nd day of a month long daily court hearing

tired. and i have a week filled with court hearings. spent holy thursday driving. visita iglesia. spent friday studying. spent saturday shopping for another set of court attire. spent sunday studying. im drained.

went to montalban and then avilon zoo. very tired.

i feel incredibly tired. like i spent the day traveling. but all i did was sit in my office the entire day.

the busy life is kicking in. im just a few pages from finishing a non-law book im reading and i cant even squeeze a few minutes to finish it. and ive skipped my japanese language self-study for two weeks now. crap. and i was making some good progress lately.

got a cut on my lip (because of shaving) and a cut on my finger (because of recklessly sliding my finger on the edge of a mirror with no frame). i hate cuts

used my weekend shopping.

yesterday, i bought 2 barongs, a pair of slacks and a pair of leather shoes. shopping for clothes isnt my thing but i have no choice. i need to buy additional barongs. i need a spare long sleeve barong because i only have one long sleeve barong (in dark blue). got myself a white one because i dont want to stand out. not yet. i need to blend in for now. back then, standing out wasnt an issue. well, its was really something i purposely did then but now, things have changed. i need to keep a low profile until its ok to attract attention. bought another short sleeve barong when i found out last thursday that my gray barong was the exact same barong used by parking attendants at Alex Grill. damn it! that was my OLA barong.

anyway, i also bought a new pair of slacks because i only have one pair that fits me. i gained a lot weight (if i were to believe the online body mass index calculator, im just 10-15 pounds away from being overweight) so all my old slacks, with the exception of one, which i bought a few months ago, no longer fit.

as for the shoes, i dont even remember when i bought my current leather shoes. its that old. i was supposed to buy new pairs of socks and a leather belt but, just buying the four items really wore me out.

a friend recently asked how come he doesnt see me online on YM anymore. well, i just dont...feel like going online anymore. its not the first time this happened. back in college, i was "active" on YM. after i graduated i was still kind of active. it wasnt until the latter half of 2004 that i lost interest in it. i became active again in 2006. maybe after a year or two, i hibernated again. then active again by the end of 2008 or early 2009. by mid-2009, i lost interest again. so its seasonal in a way, with external factors affecting my online behavior. i guess.

and my world continues to shrink

i went to cubao for three consecutive days last weekend. first was last friday to meet a friend. second was last saturday to buy groceries. third was yesterday to buy some CDs for my sister and some materials for my brother.

yesterday, i also met two current clients of our law office. one was at the MRT cubao station, the other one at Gateway. what's interesting to note in both instances is that i saw these clients when i decided to go back a few meters from where i was heading. at the MRT cubao station, i was already on my way to Fairmart when i saw the line at the ATM (i needed some extra funds). so i decided to go to the ATM located near the police booth at the MRT station (which i just passed). that's where i saw my client, who happens to be a police officer. an hour later, i was already heading towards Puregold, coming from Ali Mall, to buy dinner for my family when i decided to eat at Taco Bell first. since i was absorbed with whatever im thinking, i didnt notice Taco Bell and just realized it when i was already in front of the National Book Store entrance. while walking in front of National Book Store, i had the nagging feeling i missed something. thats when i realized i decided minutes earlier to drop by Taco Bell first before going to Puregold. so i went back to Gateway. that's where i saw the other client of our law office.

if i didnt decide to turn back in both instances,  i wouldnt have seen these clients and i wouldnt have felt that my world is growing smaller.

"im sorry but my answer is no. i cant. i musnt. i simply cant. the thing is...this is what i gave up in exchange for what i have now. im not happy with what i did but im bound by the choice i have made. its a cross i volunteered to carry"

ive got the curse of foresight, bombarded by deja vus from time to time. please dont let me be psychic. well, there's really nothing psychic about it. it just so happens that my hunches are right 90% of the time. im hoping this falls under the 10%.

im screwed. if this keeps up, its only a matter of time. well, it might be a better place. or maybe worse. if its worse, then i am screwed.

sometimes i wonder where i go. not that ive been roaming around. its just my mind has been somewhere else. lately, im surprised with how much unread emails i have when i know i check my emails regularly. im also surprised that there are days that i havent read the news when im always updated with current events. thats why i ask myself where have i been lately? or where has my mind been?

for days ive been bothered by a simple song that ive been humming in my head. i was familiar with the tune but not with the lyrics. all i knew was it has the word "star" and "put it in your pocket". since its been days, i decided to google it. found out its a song by perry como. no idea where i heard the song. it just came to my head one day and its been pestering me. now that i found out what the song was, the lyrics made me paranoid. wont let life pull another crazy stunt on me. im hiding. i will avoid meeting anyone new except the unavoidable walk in clients.

im sick! just drank ginger tea for my sore throat. going to have a cold. why didnt i get this during the holidays? first work week of the year and im feeling a lot of discomfort.

my self imposed xmas break is over. we dont have a xmas break except for days declared as holidays. but since courts have xmas breaks, i requested that i wont go to the office but just be on call 24/7 for the last two weeks of december. and now that break is over but i still have a lot of non-work stuff to do!!! the goddamn break was no break at all. it was a break from work so i can do non-work stuff. 

i just told myself a few days ago that im not going to drink alcohol anymore because i had a terrible hangover after the xmas party. i really dont listen to what i say because right now, im drunk again. damn it!

twenty seven years and nine days. im twenty seven years and nine days old. and i started it by sitting in front of the hospital where i was born. twenty seven years and nine days ago, i came out of a womb as a skinny little infant. totally clueless that after twenty seven years and nine days, i would be sitting in front of a building where i took my first breathe of air.

i didnt purposely go to the hospital. i was there out of necessity. my sister was very ill and had to be confined and this was the nearest hospital where she can be confined for further observation. i sat inside my ever reliable van i call ___, parking it in front of the hospital. thats how i ended up sitting in front of the hospital where i was born, staring at it for hours. at that time, we didnt know my sister had to be confined so i waited outside. it took hours before the hospital people decided to have her confined for the night.

just had another hectic day. had a "research rush". its that kind of "rush" feeling i get when i need to finish a research in break neck speed. my heart pumps faster (giving the illusion that time slows down for me but in reality, im just moving much faster than i need to), my eyes scan words much quicker and my brain comprehends it with dizzying speed. managed to finish the work in 59 minutes. because i had to. the work was given when it was almost 4pm. once i got back in front of the laptop, its was 4:01 and i timed myself. finished it by the strike of 5pm. i take my "once the clock strikes 5, im outta here" rule seriously (but that doesnt mean im off the hook for the day. work can call me at home).

i also met three clients. i also had phone in questions seeking legal advice. i felt like a doctor of sorts where i would tell my officemate to send the client to my room once im ready to speak with him or her. then i ask what's the problem and then i make an assessment. if i cant do it, i would say i need to consult the associate. and to think this is a typical day for most associates working in big law firms. i think.   

just got home. im really tired. need to wake up early tomorrow to study a case. im going to need coffee.

earthquake!!!!

im not feeling well. feeling nauseous since 4pm today.

i went to two interviews last week for two law firms. im now waiting for a third law firm to schedule an interview. im really hoping to get hired in another law firm. but at the same time, i dont mind if end up staying with my current law office.

the thing about work is that it helps in making days go by. its a meaningful distraction that makes time less burdensome in a way.

dream recall: (dream recall entries should be posted in another blog but i inadvertently transformed that blog into a "bookmark" blog. posting it now would make the entry look out of place)

dreamt of getting married. again! in my last dream i said that there must have been some good deal behind the marriage. the bride was pretty but she wasnt my type. this time, i was set to get married to two different people. one in the morning and one in the afternoon. as usual, in my dream, i really dont want to get married but for some reason im bound by something to do it. and i was thinking very hard how i can escape being charged with bigamy. and how im going to pull off the two marriages. didnt get to attend the second marriage since i woke up already. didnt even finish the first one. actually, i didnt even finish the other one too. i wake up the moment i see the bride walking towards me.

just threw my retractable mouse against the wall. it broke into pieces. naturally. and its all because i got pissed with the slow internet connection. losing my temper would be understandable if i had a stressful day at work but that wasnt the case.

note to self: avoid getting addicted to "illegal" drugs.

i have a hearing in a few hours. i need to wake up early to review the case file. still got the usual headache. and i forgot to look for the missing key.

in addition to doing some legal research work, cleaning a pair of shoes, reading a book and learning the katakana, i have to include searching for a missing key to the stuff im going to do...when i wake up in a few hours. just found out one my keys in my key chain is missing. dont know when it went missing (or how it went missing) since its been weeks since i last used the missing key. crap. where the hell will i start looking for a missing key?! i just washed my bag earlier yesterday! it cant be in my bag. well, it shouldnt be there even if my place my key chain there. damn it!!!!  i need to forget about it for a while so i can sleep. 

this is the second night of having a headache. i wonder if i should have my blood viscosity checked? its also been a couple of days since i woke up with a numb right arm. and my kidney area on both sides have been feeling a bit painful for three days now. damn it. just earlier this week, i damaged my throat because i coughed too hard one night. i should start strengthening my physical self soon.

i need to look for more law offices. i submitted my resume to three offices and still no calls. well, its only three. i should start to look for more law offices. my officemate joked that i could submit my resume to the law offices handling the opposing parties' case the pleadings that im making. well, if i become desperate, i might really try it.



ever since i started my temp work, ive done a handful of legal research, appeared for a hearing that im absolutely not prepared for. i was only informed about it around 8am that we dont have a lawyer that could attend the 8:30 hearing. so i had less than 30 minutes to prepare. not prepare for the case but prepare to get out of bed and find my barong. so i rushed to the trial court to make an appearance and inform the court that we are not prepared and explain why. unfortunately, the judge didnt find the reason satisfactory and ordered that the case should proceed. crap. anyway, the judge decided that the fiscal should do the lawyer work since im not qualified yet nor prepared to do it. i dont even have the case file with me!

also attended a labor case. so far that's work. im getting old and underpaid. at least im getting good exposure to a well rounded legal work.

hired! sort of. just finished my first day of work.

one full week since the last bar exam sunday and im still having dreams about the bar exams. the other day i dreamt there was a fifth bar sunday. and earlier today, i dreamt that i wasnt able to write my name on my booklet.