yesterday: went to antipolo rtc to check if there's a tsn already for the feb02 hearing. they said it will be available today. then went to Galing Pook somewhere in UP Village. then went to BK Timog to study. was able to study for only an hour. then went home and was very unproductive.

this life is wearing me out

no ola class component yesterday. just spent the day with kai, maricel and mike at cordillera coffee. then had dinner with diane at mashitta. then talked for a few hours. 

as for today, its my brother's birthday. went to trinoma to have lunch at kenny roger's (without taking a bath). around night time, drove my aunt, "cousin-in-law", her mom, and my cousin to NKI. then drove to KFC to have dinner with my family because its my brother's birthday. spent a few hours of the day watching HIMYM and Naruto Shippuuden with my brother. 

just had corpo. another uneventful day

had a hearin last feb 02. i got so pissed i smoked. 4 reds! and now im not sure if thats the reason why i still have this horrible cough

life has been a blur lately...ive been doing a lot of texting and chatting...an email here and there...then there's the one week no text policy when i was writing my SLR paper....then there's valentine's day...then there's the counsels, and the "incapacitated" judge due to her personal situation...got called for PRIL a couple of times...i think...been cutting class...have a bunch of backlogs for all my subjects...then there's the solid waste management thing...i need to text some clients....and do other OLA stuff....got drunk during desperation night...met jason's cool mother....studied in BK Timog yesterday with kai, maricel and mike...installed windows vista in jump's brand spanking new laptop and downloaded some drivers...no crim law rev for this week...the usual for rem law rev...same for PRIL...planted malunggay and kamote last law and envi class...lani reported on carbon trading...wasnt able to go to class last monday due to the submission of the SLR paper which i half-crammed since it wasnt an all nighter....38 un-awesome pages...or crap...valentine's day wasnt bad...ok, it was nice...just hanging out with friends, both old and new...friday the 13th was nice too...desperation night was spent with jump, jason, mike, erwin and allelu..and jason's mom...we picked up jason in kfc katips...there was trouble in the UP fair during our desperation night...OLA duty was a blur (feb12)...saw ashley at the parking lot...chatted with diane (feb11)...talked to ashley indirectly...there was a mining forum for law and envi (feb 10) and i didnt attend crim law rev for slr making...handed ashley something...got a head's up from jason about her bad day (feb 9)...left her a YM message saying it was a loophole...finally hired jason as my counsel earlier that day...on feb 8, the no text policy was created...effective feb 9 til slr submission...that didnt happen...sort of...cant remember what happened on feb 7...feb 6 i was in the mass comm library doing research...feb 1 to 5 is very much a blur...went out during rem law rev class to text her...that's all i remember...i really should not stop blogging...my memory is just getting worse and i need something like this to remind me of stuff

law and envi report and crim law rev midterms. tiring!

i was on my way to the Antipolo Hall of Justice to go to the PAO. while i was in Katipunan making a right towards Aurora, i suddenly heard that i hit the white pick-up truck on my right. i was like "you gotta be kidding me! 8am on a monday! nice way to start a busy week..." so i went down, looked at the damage, explained to the driver that i was looking at my left side and i wasnt able to check my right. but i added that he should have honked if i was about to hit him. tried to call the attention of traffic enforcers, they ignored me. the driver of the other vehicle said that we should just move to another place since it was a very busy road and were aggravating the traffic flow. he asked for my license and i asked for his to make sure that we both meet up on the other side of the road. when i returned to my van, i noticed the PNP sticker on his windshield. i said to myself "crap. again! really!?" 

when we were on the other side of Aurora, under the flyover, the driver said that he was in a hurry, that he was on his way to Crame and that he wouldnt want to say who he is but he's a police, only that he's not in uniform. so he told me to just pay up. well, i was in a hurry too but i cant give what he's asking for. he then reiterated that he doesnt want to introduce himself and it would really be much better if i just pay up so we wont bother each other anymore. i said i dont have that amount with me at the moment. if he wants we could exchange numbers. he refused. seeing that he wont budge and im really confused how this mishap happened, i offered him a lower amount but not really much different from his initial proposal. he said fine but he will note the plate number of my van. the stupid thing about this mess is that im not even sure if it was my fault! i just assumed that it was. damn it. and i failed to note his plate number. stupid. im not thinking anymore. this is why i dont want to mess the order of things. 

had pril and didnt attend corpo. i have an exam and a report tomorrow.

studied crim law rev all day

thursday: had ola

friday: submitted pleading, had corpo

tried to study crim law rev during free time

had pril, had corpo and had remlawrev

did my formal offer of evidence. still need to polish it. took some pics of trash cans. had law and envi. had crim law rev. had dinner with blockmates

things just went crazy last thursday, jan 15.

the day started well, had ola. was studying for remlawrev when i got home after ola when i received an email that stirred my emotions. crap. wasnt able to focus for two days. wasnt able to go to my friday corpo class. was distracted the entire saturday. 

had remlawrev midterms last sunday which was yesterday. 

today, had pril, got called and then had corpo

had my hearing this morning. things went as expected but not as planned. oh well. try as i might, i wont be able to do anything about it. had pril, had corpo and had rem law review. day started at 8am, it hasnt ended but i got home a little past 10pm. loooooong day. 

had law and envi, then went to HLURB and then had crim law rev

going to have a busy week. aside from being a given a proactive task for law and envi, i have a hearing tomorrow, have to recite for remlawrev, ola duty, midterms on sunday and i have an SLR paper to attend to.

just had a dream involving "charlie's angels". not the ones on tv or the movie but 3 people i know who i secretly refer to as charlie's angels. why? because they're like the personality types of drew barrymore, lucy liu and cameron diaz in the movie charlie's angels. 

anyway, we were at some party and one of the angel's mouth started having some kind of white foam. its like she just ingested some poison or something. 

im bored. life is just so boring

met client. had pril and then had corpo. very uneventful as usual

just got home. had ola class component then went to prof oposa's house in alabang. got lost a little bit.

yesterday: no corpo. had dinner with elaine, mike, diane and chelle

had ola duty. woke up late so i was late by almost an hour. then went to HLURB to do the assigned law and envi stuff. met 2 of my aunts. thats it. 

had pril, had corpo and had remlaw rev. thats it. 

went to megamall to have lunch, then SEC, then CDA, then NLRC then to mcdo banawe ,then cubao, then to mcdo philcoa, then to UP, then walked home. texted clients too 

went to QC city hall to inquire about deputization. learned that i cant be deputized...in QC. if there's a sheriff that would deputize me, it has to be the caloocan sheriff. met my father's cousin too today. then i went to marikina rtc to follow up the status of a case. forgot to make a simple phone call to the nlrc. damn it. then i drafted my direct exam questions for my hearing next week. 

just got back from montalban. good thing we got back earlier than planned. this is the only kind of sudden change of plans i approve of. cant study there. 

off to montalban in a few hours. will stay there until saturday. wont be online for a few days. will be difficult because im still an internet addict. i just have to check my emails at least once a day. 

parents changed plans...again!!! i really hate it when they do that. we have plans too and it really sucks that we have to adjust to their stupid change of plans

im still in the process of formulating my new year's resolution. if this year's focus was me and improving my sense of discipline and commitment (no surprise there, ive always been too self-centered to care about other people than me), next year's focus, as it appears to me at the moment, would revolve around my relationship with other people. so its still me only it involves other people too. i tried "settling" some of them this year but it seems some things cant be rushed. so right now, i have 6 people i need to deal with next year. 

just woke up. my body really hurts because of all the cleaning i did yesterday

the only productive thing i was able to do today was clean my room and the bathroom. my head hurts right now

not feeling well. damn it. i cleaned my room then cleaned one of our bathrooms. then took a bath. i knew it wasnt a good idea to take a bath after tiring myself out because of all the cleaning but i took a bath anyway. 

tried to study for corpo. didnt cover much. slept all morning. went to shopwise cubao to meet my mother and sister. while they were at the grocery, i went to SM to see if i could buy a new pair of pants. didnt find one. went home. it wasnt a very productive day

studied pril yesterday. was able to cover a few chapters. then went to UP to walk because im not really physically fit to jog yet. was able to do 4 laps around the academic oval.

went to quiapo today. accompanied my sister because she wanted to buy an "mp5" player. had lunch in ma mon luk. the mami was nice. got a haircut too.

its the 26th, its 430 am and im just waiting to fall back to sleep. 

i will have to do a 2 week recap since i said to myself i need to blog as much as possible about stuff that happens everyday my memory is getting worse.

dec 14, dont know what happened.

dec 15, had pril and corpo. 

dec 16, had law and envi and crim law rev. burned a bunch of DVDs for lani

dec 17, took the rem law rev quiz, shopped in trinoma with kate, nash, weng and dielle, took some photos of the lantern parade, attended the block dinner at carlos pizza, capitol, went to keisie's place for some kind of "afterparty". got home around 430am

dec 18, went to the law office then went to divisoria then went to national bookstore cubao. ran into diane and melai. had dinner with family because it was my parent's wedding anniversary

dec 19, scratched the taxi of our neighbor, did the team7 project at kuya center then went to bruno's place, with maricel and kai (and then cheska) for another one of his grill parties. got home before 3am

dec 20 - slept the entire day. had a very tiring week. attended "simbang gabi" with diane. then went to mcdonalds cubao. got home around 2am i think.

dec 21 - visited my cousin in the UST hospital. then went to SM North with my siblings to shop for gifts. then went home and wrote the stupid email.

dec 22 - dont remember what happened on this day

dec 23 - submitted my profile and write up. out of the 4 people i asked to make me a write up only 2 were able to give me one. 

dec 24 - did another one of them last minute shopping. i go shopping for gifts on the 24th every year. got home around 6pm, tired. was finally able to have a webcam conversation with iskra

dec 25 - christmas day. went to my cousin's house in fairview for the yearly family gathering. greeted everyone i could reach by text message while passing the time away. did a lot of reflecting and looked at where my life is heading. 

dec 26 - today. going to go to quiapo to buy something. spending not over. damn it. maybe i will finalize my new year's resolution tonight to get a head start. 

i hate christmas

im feeling better now. was depressed since tuesday. wonder why. i wake up late. and i dont feel like doing anything. at least its gone now. maybe its the romcom that fixed it. went to the spa again a while ago to get a massage. stupid depression makes me spend more and make stupid decisions. 

just rented and watched what happens in vegas

my head hurts. just had corpo today. 

wednesday: decided to have lunch at home because im trying to save money after spending some of it the night before by getting a massage because i got depressed with the fact that im going to buy a stupid gift for a person i never expected i would give one in the first place. so i just slept the entire morning because i was really pissed. then went to school, attended my pril class. then went to my corpo class which was cancelled. so i then went to my remlawrev class which was 5-9pm. helped kate setup her laptop's wifi connection. didnt recite nothing was assigned. 

thursday: another OLA duty day. no RRAFs for me to do. just spent hours doing nothing by reading stuff from the net. asked diane about some tips on what to buy for the person assigned to me since i really dont know what to buy and i dont want to think about what to buy either. then case con for until almost 3pm. then entertained some delegation of foreigners, which ended around 6pm. went home. did this. 

went to school around 10am. passed by Best Diagnostic first to get my 2nd CBC result. reached school around 11am. did my RRAF. dropped by OLA to make a phone call, follow up the status of a case in the NLRC. then i checked a website for law and envi. had lunch inside the classroom. later, i  found out that there's no law and envi. and in crimlaw rev, the professor didn't attend the class but he sent a proctor. also, there's this block kris kringle and when i saw the name in the piece of paper, all i could do was groan out loud and ask to myself, what the fuck?  

i should require myself to blog here everyday. my memory isnt functioning well lately. 

nothing much happened today. was supposed to have corpo but i wasnt able to go to class. also had my 2nd CBC within the week. received a text and call from jen laygo asking me to go to makati and drink with them. unfortunately, im not free to go. i have class tomorrow and lots of stuff to do. and i need to stay away from alcohol for a while. i also fixed barney's get pysched mix

i took a break from blogging last month. i just didnt feel like writing anything. so what stuff happened lately that i think i shouldnt forget? 

there's the enrollment hassle. my being a Team Leader for my OLA team. the weekly OLA class component. got called for PRIL already. got called twice in RemLaw Rev. the PDA breaking down. my saturday rizal lib research. dropping by diane's place. mark asking for a tomadores get together. watching twilight with bruno, maricel, kai, cheska and kat. my stupid birthday. the yearbook pictorial. me being the last minute proxy for a teammate's hearing. the hot foreigner jogger. the stranger that tried to cheer me up with her dance moves and nice personality. the bacterial infection that made me sick for almost a week. the launching of the gonzalo gonzales professorial chair. my traffic violation.

i think thats the eventful stuff that happened in the last 30 days. each sentence could be a subject of a blog entry. 

third day of stomach ache. it started around a little past 4pm or maybe 5pm last saturday, november 29, day after my birthday. i ate a beef and potato wrap and seafood wrap from healthy kitchen inside the ateneo caf. and drank water from the water fountain inside the rizal library. the stomache ache isnt as intense as it was last saturday but its still very bothersome. and i went to the bathroom thrice today and twice yesterday. and thrice or four times last saturday.

im having em headaches again. i wish i was drunk right now

cant sleep yet. just had some midnight snack and im full. damn it! i had to eat it. the food wont last til tomorrow and ive been skipping meals again lately.

just watched forgetting sarah marshall. another nice movie set in hawaii

watching street kings. i think i better blog about the movies i rent so i can keep track what ive watched and when i saw it. wow, an online logbook of movies ive seen. should i make a new blog address for it? and then write anything else about it, not necessarily a review. its a thought

just had back to back finals, from 1pm to 8pm, nego and ADR. and i didnt have sleep. crap, i just made a believer out of myself that it can be done

just watched Breakfast at Tiffany's on a wonderful rainy night. i just love rainy nights. i dont know why i rented Breakfast at Tiffany's. i dont know why i rented it. although ive been meaning to watch it, i just dont know why i wanted to watch it now.

just watched Breakfast at Tiffany's on a wonderful rainy night. i just love rainy nights. i dont know why i rented Breakfast at Tiffany's. i dont know why i rented it. although ive been meaning to watch it, i just dont know why i wanted to watch it now.

one of the saddest things is not being able to fully explain one's side. sometimes i get to meet applicants or clients who just want to be heard in court but unfortunately, it would just be a waste of everybody else's time because whatever they say will not change a thing. thats why my judgment was clouded once when i met such a client because i can relate. im the type who hates explaining myself but theres just some instances that needs to be clarified with other people. and theres one that i strongly want to explain but im restraining myself from doing so because it wont change a thing no matter how many times i explain it or no matter to how many persons i tell it.

my last post was september 8! i guess its time for another review of the week.

what did i do tuesday? i think i studied a little for nego. more than 39 minutes. then went home.

wednesday: had nego, went home to have the pc monitor claimed since it broke the other day (power problems) then went back to school for puboff.

thursday: ola duty.

friday; field trip to shell refinery. didnt make it for ADR class since we got back a little past 8pm. we left around 9am

saturday: no proj dev due the field trip, then IPL, the ola class component

sunday: attended mass and watched shooter which i rented. i also watched racing stripes, bourne ultimatum a few days before. answered online quizzes.

attended my hearing in antipolo. went back home to sleep a little. went to school to find out we dont have classes for puboff.

damn it! i hate my life.

i hate it when people try to tell me what to do or should be. i should be like this, i should do that. fuck off. well, they can tell me once or twice by way of advice but dont tell it in an imposing manner. thats a sure way for the person to get a fired up reaction from me.

did some PVO QRT then went to mandaluyong then went to UP for ADR

no nego. no puboff. just had puboff practice. and tomorrow ola duty.

went to school. did some ola stuff. made a couple of calls. rode a jeep to sm north to ride the mrt. had a stop-over at cubao before heading for NCMH in mandaluyong. then went back, rode a jeep to the mrt again all the way to sm north then back to up then home

i admire people who can keep the faith. ive encountered people who only has God as a reason to keep on living. life has been harsh to them yet they never lost their faith. it even strenghtened their faith. in a way, Marx was correct religion is like the opium of the people. it helps people get by. as bad as it may sound, i see it that way too but not in a negative manner. religion and faith is a source of strength when there's no one around to give it to you. its like God taps one's inner strength to help the person overcome life's obstacles.

im tired of pretending everything is ok. its like making a fool out of myself. it sucks. ive been the great pretender for more than a decade now. but what can i do. its not like things will be better if i stop pretending.

fuck you bayantel for your slow internet connection!

are you enjoying yourself? being alone, i mean?

nope! absolutely not. sometimes, if i dont control myself, i inadvertently socialize. i half regret it because i cant stick to what i intend to do. but i guess man is just a social animal. its really hard to go against whats natural. but sooner or later im going to figure out, again, how to withdraw from society. it wont be a enjoyable thing to do. probably the most depressing shit that can be done but i just feel that it would do me good. have some peace of mind.

thats crazy talk for you and a normal shit to deal with for me

in a way, i would say, things arent that bad because i could imagine how it could be worse. i have a midterm exam that was supposed to be due on tuesday but the deadline was extended til friday. then there was a suspension of classes today. so its like im being given a break. well,thats just it. its like im being given a break but in fact im just being given ample time. because despite the 2 holidays, i never really had any rest because i made use of those days to get some things done. and even with the extension of the deadline, im stll struggling in answering the midterm exam. with the suspension of classes, it just gave me more time to do things i need to do but that doesnt mean im about to relax sooner or later. i still have a lot of pending stuff to do! it just never ends. and the thing is, it appears to me that it will only last until the end of august. i mean, the midterm exam is due this friday. the pretrial is tomorrow. the OLA class component is this saturday. 2 of my classes assigned a lot of readings and they are due this friday and saturday.

what about next week? theres the puboff project. then there's the follow-ups on the lately neglected cases because of the academic demands that needs attending at the moment. the follow-ups involves talking and meeting clients and probably drafting documents.

i dont know how many times i will say this in my lifetime. i say this every single day. and i will saiy it again: God, i hate my life!

its a holiday but i spent the entire day studying and trying to answer a midterm exam. ok, maybe not an entire day but most of it. and i might have overdone it because i feel im going to be ill. nice.

went to caloocan yesterday. while in caloocan, i learned we wont be having class for nego. lucky? nope. when i reached home after coming from caloocan, i learned i left my ID with the guard at the caloocan rtc. crap. had to travel all  the way back because my locker keys are also with my ID. and its a long weekend due to the upcoming holidays. when i got my ID, went back home to eat lunch because im low on money. then went to school. attended ADR. then went home

following day, today, had proj dev. when i got home, started doing my pretrial brief. after that started downloading the ipl midterm exam questions. as expected, they're hard. now, i just want to rest for the night. its going to be a very busy week.

i really hate my life. and i just feel theres really nothing i can do about it. no one can really save me. not even me. i will forever be in this perpertual misery til death comes for me

had nego. went to marikina. got scolded by the judge. slept in the lib. had the puboff presentation

accompanied cheska to paranaque rtc for her direct exam. fetched her witness in ust. had puboff practice til 9pm

went to Comelec last friday. wasnt able to attend nego because i had to drop by the QC RTC. had ADR in the afternoon.

saturday: no projdev but had to work on the puboff script. had IPL then OLA class component. then practiced for the puboff project til 830pm. then when i got home, worked on the puboff script again

Thursday: accompanied my cousin to the airport since she's off to the US. no definite date yet when she will come back. from the airport, went back home to rest a little then off to school for OLA duty. had a busy OLA duty even if im just manning the desk. after OLA, had lunch with kat, maricel, cheska, aimee and mike at Ken Afford beside the memorable Dormitoryana. after lunch, went to Paranaque to accompany cheska and to check on the court records of the case im handling. from Paranaque, went back to UP to waste an hour before going to the case conference scheduled at 630. after the case con went home, ate dinner and blogged. its 9:21pm. my day officially started at 3:00am. and to think i thought an 8am to 8pm schedule was bad.

Wednesday: had nego. studied for puboff. made a draft of the script for the puboff project. studied for puboff again. had puboff class.

Tuesday: went to QC rtc, then to the UP post office then to the Caloocan RTC and then the sole of my left shoe got detached while walking in monumento, so i had it fixed and while waiting, i roamed around and got a majestic time wasting an hour then headed back to UP only to sleep because im just too tired to do anything else

Monday: cant remember much about monday except that i had puboff and dropped by the QC RTC that morning and spent some time in OLA

had nego. went to the caloocan mtc by walking all the way from monumento to 10th avenue until i reached the caloocan hall of justice or something like that. then walked again to monumento so i could take a bus going to sm north, then take a jeep that would pass by east avenue. when i got home, called up the fiscal in QC for a case status update. was supposed to go to the marikina MTC but i was too tired already and im very low on funds.

had a busy ola duty. met a client nad had couple of RRAFs

had nego. went to commonwealth. entered the dragon. had puboff meeting. ate dinner with aimee, diane, con and erwin. went to eunilaine. walked home. blogged. sleepy

went to antipolo rtc this morning to personally serve a manifestation. then went to ola. then went home and when i got home, wasnt feeling well. i was feeling dizzy. so i went to sleep.

just got a Tarot reading from Kat last friday. im not sure if its accurate, but its not inaccurate either. the thing about my past and present is somewhat correct. im not sure if it was correct because of the general nature of the reading. since its that general, its possible that it could create the illusion of accuracy.

anyway, if the past and present is somewhat correct, chances are, the reading on my future could also be correct to a certain extent. if thats the case, then all i have to do is just wait and endure despite being surrounded by frustrations because the reading said i just have to be patient. so does that mean, things will come my way someday?

monday - went to bicutan to brief mike's client
tuesday - accompanied mike and maricel for mike's client's direct examination
wednesday - accompanied cheska for her client's promulgation
thursday - OLA duty, met with 3 clients and accompanied cheska to paranaque RTC
friday - going to attend nego class, see OLA director, mail manifestations, attend ADR

why has death not come for me? a question which im very interested to know the answer

went to Bicutan to accompany mike brief his client for his direct examination tomorrow.

the day started with another beautiful rainy day. i just love the rain. after my first class, i had nothing much to do since i also learned from migs we would not have puboff for today. i went to OLA to mail the manifestation and the opposition to the motion for reconsideration. again, i went to the post office personally to mail the copies for the adverse party. good thing i didnt mail the one for the nlrc because after lunch, i changed my plan of mailing it because i didnt know that 3 copies were needed and im only mailing one. and its all because i bumped into aimee and jason. kind of fortunate because i would be filing an insufficient number of copies. so i guess this would count as one of those rare lucky days. the only bad thing that happened today is the spending. the post office costs, the fares and my stupid choice of eating at kenny rogers. i exceeded my daily allowance. and i really need to save money because stuff are becoming more and more expensive. 

they say take a chance. ive lost so much im tired of taking chances. id rather let things slip away.

life is depressing. very, very depressing. especially when youre reminded of inequality in the world and the unfairness of life. that there will be losers. and i am one of them. that nothing good ever comes my way. and that i will have to put up with it for the rest of my life. i hate waking up in the morning.

the day started out well. got a couple of free rides. literally. when i was walking to ride a jeepney to the MRT, my uncle's driver saw me and said i could hitch a ride to the MRT station since its on his way back to my uncle's place. i rode the MRT to go to the NSO located at edsa corner times street to accompany a client. i then went to UP, riding a UP Pantranco jeep. paid P9. but since the jeepney driver told me he wont pass by malcolm hall, which is only a few distance from where we were already, he returned P7 so i can ride an ikot jeepney. fortunately, i got one of those "free ride" jeepneys.

the nice day ended there. everything went back to the normal tiring and confusing day. went to trinoma to have lunch and i also bought a new pair of headphones since the ones i have are already defective (useable but defective). i just bought a cheap one since i dont have the money to buy the really good ones. and im contemplating of buying a new mp3 player, since the one i have now is a bit defective. it had a good run so its not so bad (3 years for P1800. its like paying P60 per month. not bad really). then i got a document revised and because of that, i still havent have it signed. i was planning to have it mailed today. so i go to plan B. mail it in between classes on my own. and then went to the UP infirmary for a consultation because of my coughing fits which is already more than a week long. when i got to mercury drug, im sure the lady at the counter saw that i was surprised by how much the medicine costs. i only have coughing fits and the medication is worth P852! holy crap. it is expensive. even the generic one is worth P400 plus. sucks! 

another tiring day as usual. the day started with me going to OLA to have some stuff printed. then went to my supervising lawyer's law office to have them signed. then went back to UP to study. i spent a lot today because i ended up eating a P205 meal for lunch. another P75 meal in the afternoon and an P82 share on a "block pizza". that doesnt include the minor stuff like photocopied stuff and jeepney fares. its a very tiring and costly day

i think ive reached toxic levels in my room again. there's this cockroach that just wont leave my room for two days. i dont know, but i think its the same cockroach for the past two days. its just roaming around my room

another slow day for my social life. wait...do i still have one? well, yeah. trace amounts of it. dont really have the time to relax and unwind.

life is as depressing as usual

had another tiring day. had my first RRAF a while ago and had to rush it because it was urgent. didnt really have time to research on it. and because of that, wasnt able to study for nego. at least its still  tomorrow. the thing is, i need to allot time for instances like this. its like making sure you have time for unforeseeable stuff. and then, if you dont have any unforeseeable stuff to do, you make use of the free time for other productive things. nice life

currently, my source of strength is music.

got coughing fits. got runny nose. if i dont have a runny nose, got clogged nose. nice

got called yesterday for pub off and got called last friday for nego. i felt that i was going to be called yesterday but even if that was the case, i wasnt expecting to be asked on the commission on appointments. what sucked was even if i felt i was prepared, i just am unfortunate enough to be asked on stuff i didnt focus on. i guess that only mean im not prepared enough.

ive achieved invisibility. now what? i doubt the time is ripe for the ultimate disappearing act. so, will it be the great re-appearing act? not in the mood for it

i hate myself so much its impossible to love me. quote from semi-pro...sort of.

left the house at 5:50am. reached antipolo RTC at 630am (was driving at around 40-60kph due to unfamiliar and slippery road). was the first one who got there aside from the guards. or so it seemed to me. anyway, when i got there, the guards were not sure if they were going to hold offices because all they know was that the suspension only covered classes/schools. it was my second hearing and again, nothing really eventful. i think thats something good.

just had my first hearing a few days ago as a law intern. it didnt go the way i planned since the way i planned wasnt the best way to go. just proves that im not prepared for the task...yet. it was poor discretion on my part. i guess i just felt very bad for the client (i could relate a bit on the client's experience) that it clouded my judgment. the longer you stay in law school, the harder it gets. and law practice wont be any easier.

so what the crap am i up to? well, its the first week of classes (classes started last june 10) and ive only had 2 real class days. the rest were just introductions or the professor didnt show up. but despite that fact, ive been very busy with OLA stuff. i still can imagine how things would be on a regular class week. im still underloaded when it comes to OLA cases and i have 16 units of regular subjects! 20 units total, im busy already when the real class week has not even started. oooh crap! better warm up and make sure i dont suffer from burnout

i think im becoming too OLA-centric. i have to remind myself i have other classes

just had my first OLA duty. spent the morning reviewing my cases, texting my clients and revising my legal forms (didnt get to interview an applicant but i did have a few minutes of phone duty). in the afternoon, i went to the marikina RTC to confirm my hearing date. and then, by late afternoon, it rained, i didnt have change for a jeepney ride when i was heading home, was forced to buy merienda to get some loose change (which is really irritating since im on a very tight budget), and a bit earlier before that, had bad news from a client since the recommended action on the case didnt work. and right now, the neighbor on the other side of street is banging very loudly on what sounds like a gate for reasons i could only assume to be...well, unreasoble. the day started ok and then it became tiring, then a bit depressing. but i really dont feel that bad. i like OLA. now law school and all its difficult stuff have some sense to it.

i forgot what my blogger account was. crap