going to have a very busy, non-work related saturday and sunday. the work-related stuff will be done on monday and probably tuesday too. i cant even enjoy holidays. the worst part is...im going to use up one month and a half of my salary for a necessary, unexpected expense. i guess this is august's goodbye present for this year.

attended my mandaluyong court hearing. had lunch at trinoma. went to the office. then went back to the mall after office hours to watch Cowboys and Aliens. also, i checked Cyberzone and finally saw the 10 inch samsung galaxy tab. i did a lot of things in between but im too tired to think about it

i have court hearings on the next two days and i need to finish my part in the supreme court memorandum by wednesday. and i thought the last few days of august will be my rest days. im going to use the holidays next week to clean my room and do other chores.

not feeling well again. crap. the extra non-working day last friday gave me more time to sleep but i didnt really rest during the time im awake.

done with the SC oral arguments. finally. now comes the 20 day period to submit the memorandum. position paper on thursday, hearing next tuesday. and half a month left til august ends

i think its time to have my eyes checked

not feeling well. i really feel dizzy. very dizzy. damn it. and i was thinking earlier whether to buy pizza or a hotdog sandwich after i leave work. i dont think i can enjoy it given that i feel like throwing up.

very tiring day. had a lunch meeting with Senator Pimentel and Atty. Romulo Macalintal earlier today in preparation for the SC oral arguments next tuesday. in addition to that, i need to drop by the PAO office in relation to the murder case im handling, review a city ordinance to prepare a legal memo and review an expropriation case that started way back in the sixties. and the decision for the election protest case im handling is due next week.

went to cavite yesterday to go to my cousin's wake. first time i saw him and unfortunately, he's inside a coffin. also learned that i was baptized in a hospital (i was confined in the hospital due to lobar pneumonia). my parents decided to have me baptized because i was always severely ill as a baby. if we only had a tradition similar to the korean Doljanchi, my parents probably threw a big celebration when i reached my first birthday.

i think im going to bed early tonight. im starting to not feel well again. i hope this wont lead to another set of lab tests.

watched the 2nd installment of the last Harry Potter movie today. its nothing compared to the book. but its not a bad film adaptation. i guess.

bought 2 pairs of denim pants yesterday. i was supposed to buy a new pair of shoes too but there were too many people because of the mall wide sale. i didnt benefit from the mall sale because the items on sale dont cover my size. im better off buying my stuff during regular mall days.

not feeling well again. i just got well earlier today. crap. seriously? i already had myself checked almost two weeks ago and the x-ray didnt show anything wrong. the same thing for my ultrasound and other lab tests. i dont want to buy anymore meds! there's going to be a mall wide sale this weekend and i need to buy a new pair of jeans and leather shoes.

paid some bills and had a kko kko tour marathon. lost a few pounds because of my illness so im trying to gain it back. i will have to eat more often.

called in sick today. got a high fever but i still did some work during the morning. ive been taking meds for my other illnesses so i have no idea what's the origin of this fever. i need to get rid of this fever by tomorrow. ive got lots of stuff to do plus a lunch meeting.

despite my very weak condition, i continue to work. just a few more days and then i will be able to really rest without much worries. just hold on a little longer physical self. if life can be a little nicer, the workload will be very manageable by next week and physical self can get some rest to recover.

very tiring day. at least today, its not because of work. spent the morning getting some lab tests and received a prescription for some expensive medication. watched Transformers 3 during the afternoon and then bought some stuff at the mall. got home around 8. tomorrow, i resume work and start a week long medication for one of my ailments.

im too busy and tired to care. makes me thankful that i can still get enough time to sleep. not a good night sleep though due to some pain ive been having for weeks but its still sleep nonetheless.

just got home from work. crap. i have a hearing tomorrow. im too tired to prepare. i guess i will just have to wake up really, really early.

very productive day today. managed to do a lot of work. yet not enough to finish everything. i hope i continue this hardworker mode until the end of the week.

at the end of the day, i just want to relax but its the middle of the week so its kinda impossible. the fact that Mcdonald's Matalino is still closed makes matters worse. i dont have a "happy place". there's no good alternative place where i can get my morning coffee before i go to my court hearings. i miss my morning cup of coffee before i go to work.

the internet is starting to get boring too. im no longer hooked on facebook. i only check my emails because of force of habit. the only thing i have left are my PS3 and my soshi addiction.

im seriously not feeling well.

im not feeling well. i think its psychosomatic. coincidentally, im listening to prodigy's breathe.

i think there's something wrong with my back. nothing seriously wrong. not yet. but certainly, there's something wrong

my lower back's been hurting since this morning. weird thing about it is, one of the cases ive scheduled to review and assess today involves a client who suffered from a lower back injury. of course my back pain is nothing compared to his. he suffered from a lower back injury due to heavy labor given the nature of his work. i think my back pain is my body's way of trying to symphathize with the client.

much as i want to be a hardworking person and be a workaholic, im having difficulties. the most i can be right now is be a laid back person. thats better than being just plain lazy. at least i get things done. but still its unacceptable given my pace of learning the tricks of the trade.

i started thinking, how come i cant use my "workaholic mode"? i really need it. especially right now that i have court hearings for three straight weeks (average of four hearings per week). being laid back is just good enough to make sure i get something done. but its really not a job well done. its probably good enough but obviously lacking stuff. or maybe not good enough at all. there's just some output. plain and simple.

im laid back in a sense, i sleep in my office room to rest. when im tired, i stop working. of course, i only stop when i can afford to stop, meaning no deadlines. but on the inside, i get occasional panic attacks when my brain starts to give me the "big picture" or the amount of work to be done.

i need to do something about this.

went to UP earlier today to read some updated law books. when i got there, the guard told me its closed. i then asked if its closed just today or will it be closed next saturday. he said something i idiotically failed to realize. its summer! the law library is always closed on saturdays during summer! sheesh. i even thought earlier that it should be open on a saturday because there are saturday classes. there are no classes during summer. i totally forgot its May. damn it. and its been like that since i was in law school and it hasnt been that long since i was a law student.

i wish i can make things right. but i promised im going to leave things the way they are and try to forget about it. half a decade swept under the rug. move out then never come back

there's just some things in life you just have to let go. i might regret it, i might not. at this point, i wouldnt really know. its my future self's problem, not mine. right now, letting go and moving somewhere else seems to make a lot of sense. holding on just makes me feel stupid. so im going to hold on to what i believe...and at the moment, i believe in letting go. abandon all hope and forsake everything.

i was wondering earlier today what's wrong with me. i realized that my mind keeps getting in the way. my will isnt strong enough to overcome it. i cant go against it. it has always dictated my every thought, my every move. my mind needs some reformatting but it doesnt want me to.

my neck hurts. 2nd day of a month long daily court hearing

tired. and i have a week filled with court hearings. spent holy thursday driving. visita iglesia. spent friday studying. spent saturday shopping for another set of court attire. spent sunday studying. im drained.

went to montalban and then avilon zoo. very tired.

i feel incredibly tired. like i spent the day traveling. but all i did was sit in my office the entire day.

the busy life is kicking in. im just a few pages from finishing a non-law book im reading and i cant even squeeze a few minutes to finish it. and ive skipped my japanese language self-study for two weeks now. crap. and i was making some good progress lately.

got a cut on my lip (because of shaving) and a cut on my finger (because of recklessly sliding my finger on the edge of a mirror with no frame). i hate cuts

used my weekend shopping.

yesterday, i bought 2 barongs, a pair of slacks and a pair of leather shoes. shopping for clothes isnt my thing but i have no choice. i need to buy additional barongs. i need a spare long sleeve barong because i only have one long sleeve barong (in dark blue). got myself a white one because i dont want to stand out. not yet. i need to blend in for now. back then, standing out wasnt an issue. well, its was really something i purposely did then but now, things have changed. i need to keep a low profile until its ok to attract attention. bought another short sleeve barong when i found out last thursday that my gray barong was the exact same barong used by parking attendants at Alex Grill. damn it! that was my OLA barong.

anyway, i also bought a new pair of slacks because i only have one pair that fits me. i gained a lot weight (if i were to believe the online body mass index calculator, im just 10-15 pounds away from being overweight) so all my old slacks, with the exception of one, which i bought a few months ago, no longer fit.

as for the shoes, i dont even remember when i bought my current leather shoes. its that old. i was supposed to buy new pairs of socks and a leather belt but, just buying the four items really wore me out.

a friend recently asked how come he doesnt see me online on YM anymore. well, i just dont...feel like going online anymore. its not the first time this happened. back in college, i was "active" on YM. after i graduated i was still kind of active. it wasnt until the latter half of 2004 that i lost interest in it. i became active again in 2006. maybe after a year or two, i hibernated again. then active again by the end of 2008 or early 2009. by mid-2009, i lost interest again. so its seasonal in a way, with external factors affecting my online behavior. i guess.

and my world continues to shrink

i went to cubao for three consecutive days last weekend. first was last friday to meet a friend. second was last saturday to buy groceries. third was yesterday to buy some CDs for my sister and some materials for my brother.

yesterday, i also met two current clients of our law office. one was at the MRT cubao station, the other one at Gateway. what's interesting to note in both instances is that i saw these clients when i decided to go back a few meters from where i was heading. at the MRT cubao station, i was already on my way to Fairmart when i saw the line at the ATM (i needed some extra funds). so i decided to go to the ATM located near the police booth at the MRT station (which i just passed). that's where i saw my client, who happens to be a police officer. an hour later, i was already heading towards Puregold, coming from Ali Mall, to buy dinner for my family when i decided to eat at Taco Bell first. since i was absorbed with whatever im thinking, i didnt notice Taco Bell and just realized it when i was already in front of the National Book Store entrance. while walking in front of National Book Store, i had the nagging feeling i missed something. thats when i realized i decided minutes earlier to drop by Taco Bell first before going to Puregold. so i went back to Gateway. that's where i saw the other client of our law office.

if i didnt decide to turn back in both instances,  i wouldnt have seen these clients and i wouldnt have felt that my world is growing smaller.

"im sorry but my answer is no. i cant. i musnt. i simply cant. the thing is...this is what i gave up in exchange for what i have now. im not happy with what i did but im bound by the choice i have made. its a cross i volunteered to carry"

ive got the curse of foresight, bombarded by deja vus from time to time. please dont let me be psychic. well, there's really nothing psychic about it. it just so happens that my hunches are right 90% of the time. im hoping this falls under the 10%.

im screwed. if this keeps up, its only a matter of time. well, it might be a better place. or maybe worse. if its worse, then i am screwed.

sometimes i wonder where i go. not that ive been roaming around. its just my mind has been somewhere else. lately, im surprised with how much unread emails i have when i know i check my emails regularly. im also surprised that there are days that i havent read the news when im always updated with current events. thats why i ask myself where have i been lately? or where has my mind been?

for days ive been bothered by a simple song that ive been humming in my head. i was familiar with the tune but not with the lyrics. all i knew was it has the word "star" and "put it in your pocket". since its been days, i decided to google it. found out its a song by perry como. no idea where i heard the song. it just came to my head one day and its been pestering me. now that i found out what the song was, the lyrics made me paranoid. wont let life pull another crazy stunt on me. im hiding. i will avoid meeting anyone new except the unavoidable walk in clients.

im sick! just drank ginger tea for my sore throat. going to have a cold. why didnt i get this during the holidays? first work week of the year and im feeling a lot of discomfort.

my self imposed xmas break is over. we dont have a xmas break except for days declared as holidays. but since courts have xmas breaks, i requested that i wont go to the office but just be on call 24/7 for the last two weeks of december. and now that break is over but i still have a lot of non-work stuff to do!!! the goddamn break was no break at all. it was a break from work so i can do non-work stuff. 

i just told myself a few days ago that im not going to drink alcohol anymore because i had a terrible hangover after the xmas party. i really dont listen to what i say because right now, im drunk again. damn it!

twenty seven years and nine days. im twenty seven years and nine days old. and i started it by sitting in front of the hospital where i was born. twenty seven years and nine days ago, i came out of a womb as a skinny little infant. totally clueless that after twenty seven years and nine days, i would be sitting in front of a building where i took my first breathe of air.

i didnt purposely go to the hospital. i was there out of necessity. my sister was very ill and had to be confined and this was the nearest hospital where she can be confined for further observation. i sat inside my ever reliable van i call ___, parking it in front of the hospital. thats how i ended up sitting in front of the hospital where i was born, staring at it for hours. at that time, we didnt know my sister had to be confined so i waited outside. it took hours before the hospital people decided to have her confined for the night.

just had another hectic day. had a "research rush". its that kind of "rush" feeling i get when i need to finish a research in break neck speed. my heart pumps faster (giving the illusion that time slows down for me but in reality, im just moving much faster than i need to), my eyes scan words much quicker and my brain comprehends it with dizzying speed. managed to finish the work in 59 minutes. because i had to. the work was given when it was almost 4pm. once i got back in front of the laptop, its was 4:01 and i timed myself. finished it by the strike of 5pm. i take my "once the clock strikes 5, im outta here" rule seriously (but that doesnt mean im off the hook for the day. work can call me at home).

i also met three clients. i also had phone in questions seeking legal advice. i felt like a doctor of sorts where i would tell my officemate to send the client to my room once im ready to speak with him or her. then i ask what's the problem and then i make an assessment. if i cant do it, i would say i need to consult the associate. and to think this is a typical day for most associates working in big law firms. i think.   

just got home. im really tired. need to wake up early tomorrow to study a case. im going to need coffee.

earthquake!!!!

im not feeling well. feeling nauseous since 4pm today.

i went to two interviews last week for two law firms. im now waiting for a third law firm to schedule an interview. im really hoping to get hired in another law firm. but at the same time, i dont mind if end up staying with my current law office.

the thing about work is that it helps in making days go by. its a meaningful distraction that makes time less burdensome in a way.

dream recall: (dream recall entries should be posted in another blog but i inadvertently transformed that blog into a "bookmark" blog. posting it now would make the entry look out of place)

dreamt of getting married. again! in my last dream i said that there must have been some good deal behind the marriage. the bride was pretty but she wasnt my type. this time, i was set to get married to two different people. one in the morning and one in the afternoon. as usual, in my dream, i really dont want to get married but for some reason im bound by something to do it. and i was thinking very hard how i can escape being charged with bigamy. and how im going to pull off the two marriages. didnt get to attend the second marriage since i woke up already. didnt even finish the first one. actually, i didnt even finish the other one too. i wake up the moment i see the bride walking towards me.

just threw my retractable mouse against the wall. it broke into pieces. naturally. and its all because i got pissed with the slow internet connection. losing my temper would be understandable if i had a stressful day at work but that wasnt the case.

note to self: avoid getting addicted to "illegal" drugs.

i have a hearing in a few hours. i need to wake up early to review the case file. still got the usual headache. and i forgot to look for the missing key.

in addition to doing some legal research work, cleaning a pair of shoes, reading a book and learning the katakana, i have to include searching for a missing key to the stuff im going to do...when i wake up in a few hours. just found out one my keys in my key chain is missing. dont know when it went missing (or how it went missing) since its been weeks since i last used the missing key. crap. where the hell will i start looking for a missing key?! i just washed my bag earlier yesterday! it cant be in my bag. well, it shouldnt be there even if my place my key chain there. damn it!!!!  i need to forget about it for a while so i can sleep. 

this is the second night of having a headache. i wonder if i should have my blood viscosity checked? its also been a couple of days since i woke up with a numb right arm. and my kidney area on both sides have been feeling a bit painful for three days now. damn it. just earlier this week, i damaged my throat because i coughed too hard one night. i should start strengthening my physical self soon.

i need to look for more law offices. i submitted my resume to three offices and still no calls. well, its only three. i should start to look for more law offices. my officemate joked that i could submit my resume to the law offices handling the opposing parties' case the pleadings that im making. well, if i become desperate, i might really try it.



ever since i started my temp work, ive done a handful of legal research, appeared for a hearing that im absolutely not prepared for. i was only informed about it around 8am that we dont have a lawyer that could attend the 8:30 hearing. so i had less than 30 minutes to prepare. not prepare for the case but prepare to get out of bed and find my barong. so i rushed to the trial court to make an appearance and inform the court that we are not prepared and explain why. unfortunately, the judge didnt find the reason satisfactory and ordered that the case should proceed. crap. anyway, the judge decided that the fiscal should do the lawyer work since im not qualified yet nor prepared to do it. i dont even have the case file with me!

also attended a labor case. so far that's work. im getting old and underpaid. at least im getting good exposure to a well rounded legal work.

hired! sort of. just finished my first day of work.

one full week since the last bar exam sunday and im still having dreams about the bar exams. the other day i dreamt there was a fifth bar sunday. and earlier today, i dreamt that i wasnt able to write my name on my booklet.

went to solgen this morning to submit my resume. tried to re-learn hiragana and read a book about philippine-japan relations. bought the book back in college and never read it. i dont remember why i bought it in the first place.

not feeling well. i think im going to be sick. i have a headache and my throat hurts. at least the bar exams are over.

lost 10 pounds since june. with just a few days left before the 2010 bar exams is finally over, i guess i wont be losing more than a couple more pounds. while people usually gain weight, i lose them. its very easy for me to lose weight. i can lose it overnight if i wanted to. i remember back in college, i lost 2 pounds by merely pulling off an all nighter. thats why i try not to lose sleep. i can get really grumpy when i lack sleep (and im not exactly the cheerful type during my normal mode). i become less inhibited when i dont have much sleep. so its either im grumpy or playful. depends on the mood.

what the crap is up with this weather! its soooo hot!!!! its september already! where the crap is the cool air? where's the rain!? damn it!!!!! i hate the warm weather! unless im in beach mode.

done with the first bar sunday. one down, three to go

soooo tired!!! spent the day doing some "last minute" review for the first bar sunday. i hope i managed to cover everything i need to cover for poli and labor and that i remember them until sunday. now its time to go to youtube and watch...

nine ladies dancing!
nine ladies singing!
nine ladies laughing!
nine ladies joking!
nine korean chicks!
four music vids!
three hot girls!
two fancam clips!
and a girl group nicknamed SoShi

holy crap! i studied from 9am to 11pm! 14 hours!? inclusive of 20 minute lunch and four 15 minute breaks.  

i still have a swollen lip and a swollen cheek. looks like i have a serious gum infection.

got a swollen cheek and a swollen lip. its really getting me down. it causes some discomfort when i eat

attended the first preweek lecture a while ago. then went to the dentist to have my swollen gum checked

just got back from the dentist. my gum on my right cheek is a bit swollen (i can feel it through my right cheek) and she said its probably due to my stress levels. if there's anything good with signs, its my body. it didnt deem the rashes and the cough as sufficient to tell me im stressed. it had to include swollen gums.

mcdo matalino did something nice for me today. even if i was still at the back of the line and it wasnt my turn yet, they already prepared my order. i didnt have to wait for the guy before me to finish his order and i was already done with my transaction. i hope fast food restos can be this efficient all the time.

as regards the hostage drama yesterday, i think the policemen should seek the aid of event organizers and wedding coordinators. the latter is more efficient and effective in getting the job done.

im not feeling well. i hope its not dengue. got a mosquito bite on my right leg. hope it wasnt caused by an aedis aegypti mosquito. not sure if i got the scientific name right. grade school stuff have been dislodged by new material i need to remember until september ends. if it is dengue, i just wish my blood condition could serve as a mitigating factor and i dont have to be confined or something.

finally! a quite productive day. it was a fucking struggle but productive nonetheless. just a few weeks before the bar exam month and im already showing signs of "wear and tear" (my brain is too tired to think and search for the right words). my body is really starting to reject review mode. just a few pages of reading and i start to feel very warm and nauseous. my throat starts to ache too if i insist on reviewing. so i had to resort to a lot of breaks, some lasted for half an hour, some lasted for two hours, depends on whether my body wont mind me hitting the books again. its a very intermittent way of reviewing but at least im moving forward. managed to cover 185 pages (which isnt really good because the target was 400 pages and it was scheduled to be done yesterday! but i would say not bad since i had no output whatsoever from the days prior. days prior? aaaahh! too tired to think)

just saw my August 12 post, 3am. cant remember making it. wow, i must have been really messed up during that time i cant even remember posting it. although its me alright, i dont recall actually writing it and posting it.

another unproductive day. three days in a row.

i want to be with someone. unfortunately, i cant. damn it

i dont care. i dont care. i dont ca-a-a-a-a-are. i didnt study much today. i started not feeling well. also, im starting not to care too. im just too booooored. day in day out, all day long, all i do is study. well, i take breaks and rest days but breaks and rest days arent fun!!! i hate it when i get too bored about something. and i think im suffering from withdrawal symptoms. why do pretty women have to smell so nice? aaw, crap! i hate having limited time! this is a restriction of my freedom of movement or something.

started reviewing around 1pm. woke up late. was able to review 260 pages. 100 pages short of the target for today. 100 pages is a lot to carry over for tomorrow. and i was planning to free up some time so i can watch a movie. not sure if thats going to happen. wait...i think i still can if im going to wake up early!!! i hate myself every morning because i always try to reason with my half-awake self not to wake up yet.

very unproductive day

as usual, i studied. im behind 30 pages for today. attended mass late in the afternoon and then walked home in the rain (i attended the mass in the PoHS/UP Chapel. i really dont like IHMP). it was nice...and idiotic. i could have caught a cold when i cant afford to be sick. my shoes and shorts were drenched. had to place my cellphones and mp3 player in my backpocket because it wasnt as wet as the rest of my shorts.

got nothing new to report to myself. i just studied today. had coffee, applie pie and french fries when i studied for a couple of hours in mcdonalds matalino. today is a productive day.

got nothing new to report to myself. i just studied today. had coffee, applie pie and french fries when i studied for a couple of hours in mcdonalds matalino. today is a productive day.

just got home. finally got my bar permit! whew. this means its time to really get serious. i wonder if i can really execute the 16hour study schedule? i think its possible. the problem is i might not be able to control my rageaholic side. if not, then a 12hour study schedule is the minimum i should make sure i accomplish. and if dont manage to pull that of, i still have plan C and plan D. time to execute plan A...starting tomorrow. 

unproductive day. my right ear hurts. my vision is blurred. tongue is still abnormal. same portion at the back of my head hurts from time to time.

finally, was able to study and cover a substantial portion. yesterday, i was just not in the mood.

tried starting the day right. woke up a little past 6am, attended mass, studied in mcdo matalino and went home around 10 to 1030 am. continued studying until around 3pm when i was interrupted by a loud videoke-like session. this lasted until 630pm. there's still a videoke session happening while writing this but its not as loud as before. and im not feeling well at the moment. i think im going to be sick. august, youre simply incredible.

having sleeping problems. fell asleep around 6am. crap.

ive been very unproductive since Friday. some of my teeth hurts. havent fully recovered from the minor surgery but i would say im 75%-80% back to normal. now my plan is to sleep less. not only to make more time but to prevent myself from sleep indulgence. i have to get used to having not much sleep.

studied. not as productive as yesterday but i studied.

saw Inception. like what i just tweeted hours earlier, it was ok. when i say its ok, it probably means good to most people since my standards are high. right after seeing the movie, went straight to econ lib to study. studied a little more in Mcdo Matalino. what i established today is...i can still manage my time well. i was able to insert a 2 and half hour movie in my sched and still cover substantially the same material. thats good. and theres still room for improvement and i figured out a way how to do it. this has been a productive day

studied in Econ lib. making good progress on my pace. tongue still annoys me.

back to bar review mode...with a some painful distractions. and im down to 20 pages per hour. damn it! i need to warm up again to get to the pace i was in before the surgery.

so what the crap was i up to lately?

took the mock bar last sunday. had my impacted tooth removed last monday. didnt study from monday to friday because i decided to really rest in order to recover quickly from the minor surgery. my right cheek is still swollen and my tongue is still mildly numb. hopefully i can study normally by tomorrow.

wasted saturday. was very unproductive.

today, took the mock bar. wasnt prepared but i managed to write answers on all items. minor surgery tomorrow.

woke up late because of the stupid toothache. fell asleep around 6am. woke around 11am so my day started around noon. watched the world cup around 4am because i knew i wont fall asleep with the pain. went to my old dentist to schedule the extraction/minor surgery. not sure if the headache im feeling is related to the tooth ache. its like a hammer hitting lightly the top of my head.

what did i do yesterday? i dont quite remember. i studied thats for sure but what happened in between the study breaks...its a blur.

took the mock bar today. it was ok. will continue studying tomorrow.

depression just kicked in. really? i have to deal with this now with a tooth ache and a cold while monitoring my somewhat negligible bacterial infection and reviewing for the bar? and trying to counter distractions too. i have to admit, my mental and physical weakness is making me fall apart at the seams.

what the crap happened yesterday? i wasnt able to take the mock bar. didnt feel well. just tried to rest yesterday.

went to the doctor this morning. she said there's nothing wrong with me. got a negligible bacterial infection and that my impacted tooth could be contributing to whatever im feeling. she said it might be affecting a nerve so i need to have it extracted as soon as possible.

oh crap. im heating up! i wonder if im going to spontaneously combust?

haha. i just tried snapping my fingers and wondered if i can make them spark. but seriously, i really feel hotter than a while ago as if my temperature is rising. but like i said, the thermometer says my temps normal. what the crap is going on!?

im hot!

yup. im hot. well, i feel hot. checked my temperature and i dont have a fever. i feel like im burning up. i checked if the thermometer is working. its working fine. i have a normal temperature yet i feel like im really burning. my eyes...well, not really burning, but it feels very warm. i guess this is how it feels like if i dont have sweat glands. its like im covered with warm air. what the crap is wrong with me? ive been asking God for rain (strong rain) because i really, really hate the warm feeling. now i realize, maybe there's something wrong with me and not the weather. i feel like im overheating.

anyway, i started the day around 530am. went to mcdo matalino around 6am to study. started feeling warmer than usual during the afternoon until now. mock bar tomorrow.

took the mock bar exam for poli and labor yesterday. happy with labor. need to read more for poli.

went to the clinic today for xray, urinalysis and blood test. not feeling well since wednesday. wasnt able to study anything today. i dont have a fever but i have mild muscle pains and i really dont feel well.