another shitty day...just took the midterm exam...and i didnt do well. how did i know? the answer key for the exam was given...where's my confidence now! that always happens. why dont i ever learn? im always confident that im going to do ok, and when the semester is about to end, im squeezing everything i can squeeze out of each one of my brain cells because its a "do or die" situation. why cant i just do things the normal way or at least what most people do...why do i have to risk everything at the end of the semester? just doesnt make sense, and i know, one of these days, im going to make that miscalculation again and bury myself alive...again! see, i never learn. i keep pushing myself to the limit.