ive made a lot of wrong turns in my life. and i keep making them. probably, im going to keep making them til i die. it seems i just have the knack for making the wrong decisions. and even if i realized where i made the wrong turn, i just keep on going. trying not to regret each one and not even attempting to undo it.

Just woke up and i have no idea where my mother and my brother is. well, i could guess where they could possibly be. anyway, point is, its usual that i wake up and find myself home alone and have no idea where my family went. sometimes they wake me up and tell me while im half asleep. and thats not really effective since i might not be listening. or they really dont tell me at all because it doesnt really matter that much to me.

i like being left home alone, especially in the morning since im not a morning person. i can be in the foulest mood and no one would mind. the only thing i dont like when home alone and not having an idea where they went is that when someone calls, i have no idea what to say where they went

life is depressing. i think i need to read 10 million books this summer.

im not in the mood to talk to anyone. why blog about it? i dont know. just wanted to say i dont feel like talking to anyone in any form of communication. and it has nothing to do with my recent tooth extraction due to an impaction. sure, its still a little sore and i still cant eat properly, but even if i was feeling ok, im still not in the mood to talk to anyone for any reason.

this entry should have been posted a few weeks ago. i wrote this in the pocket pc and forgot to send and post it

Talk about weird. Yesterday, it seemed like i have this uncanny (yes, i used the word uncanny) ability to make the gadgets around me to not work properly. First, it was my cellphone (again). I just bought P20 worth of credits thru autoload. And when i sent my message, it told me the network was busy. Ive been trying the entire day, and it kept saying the same thing, cant send the text message because the network was busy, so i better try again later. But when i used my brother's sim card, it worked fine even on my phone. So it wasnt my phone that was defective. Anyway, after midnight, the phone's back to normal.

Second was the pocket pc. I needed to reformat the memory card simply because the windows media player cant update its library. Something as simple as synchronizing which i do daily isnt working the way it should be. So a lot of time was wasted just because of those minor irregularities in the normal functioning of them gadgets. I didnt even attempt to back-up my phone because with the way things were going yesterday, i might end up in ali mall again, to have my phone repaired.

no summer OLA for me. im a bit disappointed actually. but i shouldnt be because when i saw the list that i was one of those who were conditionally accepted, i knew then and there that the chances of meeting the condition that would make me qualified to enroll for the summer program was small. maybe i just ignored what i thought and gave in to what i wanted. so i became hopeful. and now im disappointed. well, not that disappointed but it did bother me because it would have been really nice if i met the condition so i could register and enroll. it would really ease up my academic load this coming school year (if i get to stay in the university as a law student). it just sucked and no one's to blame but me. i mean, if i was just tough enough a few semester ago, i wouldnt have dropped the subject that led to a chain of events that brought me to where i am now.

finally, ive reformatted the PC. it works much better now. started around 330PM and its already 11 and im almost finished re-installing the software i need to restore.

thanks to the pocket pc, i can take my meds on time. well, almost. sometimes i dont recognize its the pocket pc's reminder alarm that im hearing. i thought it was my brother's cellphone's low battery alarm. when i checked what time it was, only then did i realize it was the pocket pc reminding me to take my meds for my minor dental surgery. why am i writing this? no reason. just had my last exam a while ago. people were saying that the junior year is over. yeah, but it doesnt follow were already seniors. well, for them but not for me. lawschool is still a big uncertainty for me.

i could be having dinner with my blockmates and eating some free food but im at home doing some civ pro digests. my hand hurts already.

i think ive found a good place to study. lately, ive been going to the mall and always, my time is just wasted because i just take my lunch there and dont even spend at least an hour of studying. im better off having lunch in UP because not only do i get to study in the library, i also save money since the food is much cheaper. my problem with studying in the library is that i feel too restrained and its a bit incovenient to go to the restroom because i always study in the third floor. and i also have this problem of being in the mood to study in a particular place. if i get tired of studying in a certain place, i need to move in another spot because my brain wont absorb anything once im not in the mood to be in the place. how picky! so i need to learn quickly how to determine which place im in the mood to study in so i could maximize my time

Taking a break from writing digests...

..and doing some moblogging :)

Maybe i should be some kind of guidance counselor/tech support guy. People always ask my opinion regarding their relationships (family, friends, even romantic relationships) and also ask me if i can fix techie (even mechanical) related stuff.

As for my opinions regarding relationships, i always try to think of unconventional advice, if there's any. Why? Because if they want to hear what most people would say, i wont bother to help the person because they could ask for it from other people. I try to give the kind of help that only a few would (not could) give. Like brutally honest answers. Sometimes i just say things what i think people should hear (ala matrix oracle).

As for techie stuff, i dont know how that is acquired. Not that im an expert (im not) but i would say i know enough to fix and handle most techie related concerns. They say its a guy thing. Well, not really but it seems more guys have the tendency to be better with techie related things. Anyway, i just happen to learn and understand techie related things quickly. I like to tinker with gadgets and other mechanical/electronic things. But not to the point of opening and disassembling it. Well, I know how to assemble a PC. Thats a no brainer for experts or even above average techie guys. For me, i just know enough. Enough to handle each forward step of technology.

Domestic life

I have to remind myself not to go home if possible. I think im better off anywhere than being at home. Well, when it comes to peace of mind at least. And i still call it home and not a mere house where my family resides because, it still is a very nice home. It just so happens that i dont fit in it. Whenever im at home, i get burdened with stuff and never really given that amount of time i need to really relax (and when i say relax, i mean peace and comfort without being disturbed in any way. Thats why i like to be home alone). Someone's always knocking on my door or asking me to do stuff. And the reason they ask me and not somebody else (and there are lots of somebody else) is because they reason out that im the only one capable. Yeah right. Its either they really are clueless of the skills of other people (who are better than me with regard to some stuff and usually its the stuff they are asking me to do) or they just like to pick on me because i easily give in. That sucks. I just hate my current domestic life. And my social life isnt any better because of my loner tendencies (i just have to stay away from people from time to time) and my demanding academic life.

got called for specpro this morning. and it was the last class for the sem. well, last spec pro class. the last class for agency and partnership was last thursday and the last tax law class will be this coming thursday. that would leave me with three subjects per week.

back to spec pro, i was the first one to be called. and i didnt do well. crap. the only time i got called and i blew it. i studied. but well, as usual, that wasnt enough. and it was so early in the morning. like a blockmate once said, "i havent even rubbed two brain cells together". or something like that. but then again, i dont have much brain cells to rub. many got killed in the regular alcohol intake of 2004.

i havent blogged for quite some time. why? i dont know. i just didnt realize that time flew that fast. not that i was busier than the usual but i have been occupied with stuff. tech stuff to be more specific. a few weeks ago, my sister bought a laptop. and just yesterday, i bought a wireless broadband router. and a day before that, my cousin lent me her pocket pc. a few weeks ago and maybe a week after my sister bought her laptop, i bought a 2gig flash disk and USB connector. and there's been a lot of "free cuts" from time to time with regard to my classes this month. and i got called for my tax class for the first time this semester and it wasnt that bad. sounds like a good month? not really. i would say it was a bad month for me when it comes to gadgets (aside from other minor unfortunate things but not unfortunate enough to be really strangely unlucky). this is a little bit exaggerated but still very descriptive of what i had gone through lately.

the day we bought the laptop, we found out that it flooded in our house when we got home. why? i forgot to switch off the faucet. and then, when i installed the operating system on the laptop, i found out that my copy isnt good enough to be compatible with the needed software my sister would use for the laptop. so i had to buy a more updated operating system. and then there's my phone. it malfunctioned again! and on valentine's day! nice timing as always (the first time it went "haywire" was christmas eve or two hours before 12 midnight of the 25th). so i didnt have a fully functional phone for a couple of days. then there's the router. it took me hours setting it up. i thought theres something wrong with the configuration but i found out the following day there was none. how did i find out? i just stopped thinking too closely on the project. maybe im getting too "emotional" that i cant think properly and as rationally as before. i was too eager and excited with the router that i had the tendency to overlook the obvious. and before that realization, i was fucking convinced that theres something wrong because it wasnt working like it should. in the end, it just so happened that i was thinking too much. anyway, its really hard to explain, and im just happy its working now. and then theres the software for the pocket pc. i cant find any online thats available for downloading. that sucks. what if the owner lost the installation CD? but then again, most likely, ive overlooked this one again and im not searching well enough.

as for valentines day, i spent a few hours of it with my law blockmates. it was sort of an accident. i went to sm north right after my partnership law class to have some lunch and at the same time window shop because my brother's birthday is coming up. while walking in the mall, a blockmate saw me and informed me that theres a block lunch at a nearby mall. so i went there after roaming a little, and after receiving a text message from another blockmate telling me that they're already there. then went to a blockmate's condo unit and watched Juno. then went to cubao to have dinner with my family (which is sort of an annual thing, family dinner every valentines day and i missed last year's because i had an exam for civpro).

and i also figured out how to remove the malware that infected my PC weeks earlier.

im infected with a malware! nice. just makes life more difficult

still no civpro. i think. finally no more midterm exams! done with agency, civpro, specpro and locgov exam. not sure if i did well. and now its february. like things are going to be easier. and theres something wrong with the PC. cant open any hard disk drives! well, they cant be opened by clicking on it. you have to resort to some keyboard action.

no medjur. just had agency. and just found out that there wont be civpro class this week. wow, more time to study for my locgov midterms. the life of a law student is a wretched life.

no civ pro today. and im really not feeling well. damn cold. and i have another midterm exam by the end of the week. nice.

i think i have a cold. crap. i hate sleeping with a clogged nose. i think its because of the back to back midterm examinations i just had. must have really drained a lot of energy from my brain cells. it drained a lot of energy that i made another "movie" mistake last saturday. i watched D-war, without researching on it first. it wasnt as bad as Pathfinder. almost. great special effects. thats it. thats the only good thing about the movie. its like watching a video game with great special effects.

procedure week: midterm exam for civpro on friday, and midterm exam for specpro on saturday