Tuesday, December 21, 2010

i just told myself a few days ago that im not going to drink alcohol anymore because i had a terrible hangover after the xmas party. i really dont listen to what i say because right now, im drunk again. damn it!

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

twenty seven years and nine days. im twenty seven years and nine days old. and i started it by sitting in front of the hospital where i was born. twenty seven years and nine days ago, i came out of a womb as a skinny little infant. totally clueless that after twenty seven years and nine days, i would be sitting in front of a building where i took my first breathe of air.

i didnt purposely go to the hospital. i was there out of necessity. my sister was very ill and had to be confined and this was the nearest hospital where she can be confined for further observation. i sat inside my ever reliable van i call ___, parking it in front of the hospital. thats how i ended up sitting in front of the hospital where i was born, staring at it for hours. at that time, we didnt know my sister had to be confined so i waited outside. it took hours before the hospital people decided to have her confined for the night.
just had another hectic day. had a "research rush". its that kind of "rush" feeling i get when i need to finish a research in break neck speed. my heart pumps faster (giving the illusion that time slows down for me but in reality, im just moving much faster than i need to), my eyes scan words much quicker and my brain comprehends it with dizzying speed. managed to finish the work in 59 minutes. because i had to. the work was given when it was almost 4pm. once i got back in front of the laptop, its was 4:01 and i timed myself. finished it by the strike of 5pm. i take my "once the clock strikes 5, im outta here" rule seriously (but that doesnt mean im off the hook for the day. work can call me at home).

i also met three clients. i also had phone in questions seeking legal advice. i felt like a doctor of sorts where i would tell my officemate to send the client to my room once im ready to speak with him or her. then i ask what's the problem and then i make an assessment. if i cant do it, i would say i need to consult the associate. and to think this is a typical day for most associates working in big law firms. i think.   
just got home. im really tired. need to wake up early tomorrow to study a case. im going to need coffee.

Friday, December 03, 2010

earthquake!!!!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

im not feeling well. feeling nauseous since 4pm today.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

i went to two interviews last week for two law firms. im now waiting for a third law firm to schedule an interview. im really hoping to get hired in another law firm. but at the same time, i dont mind if end up staying with my current law office.

the thing about work is that it helps in making days go by. its a meaningful distraction that makes time less burdensome in a way.

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

dream recall: (dream recall entries should be posted in another blog but i inadvertently transformed that blog into a "bookmark" blog. posting it now would make the entry look out of place)

dreamt of getting married. again! in my last dream i said that there must have been some good deal behind the marriage. the bride was pretty but she wasnt my type. this time, i was set to get married to two different people. one in the morning and one in the afternoon. as usual, in my dream, i really dont want to get married but for some reason im bound by something to do it. and i was thinking very hard how i can escape being charged with bigamy. and how im going to pull off the two marriages. didnt get to attend the second marriage since i woke up already. didnt even finish the first one. actually, i didnt even finish the other one too. i wake up the moment i see the bride walking towards me.

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

just threw my retractable mouse against the wall. it broke into pieces. naturally. and its all because i got pissed with the slow internet connection. losing my temper would be understandable if i had a stressful day at work but that wasnt the case.

note to self: avoid getting addicted to "illegal" drugs.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

i have a hearing in a few hours. i need to wake up early to review the case file. still got the usual headache. and i forgot to look for the missing key.

Monday, October 25, 2010

in addition to doing some legal research work, cleaning a pair of shoes, reading a book and learning the katakana, i have to include searching for a missing key to the stuff im going to do...when i wake up in a few hours. just found out one my keys in my key chain is missing. dont know when it went missing (or how it went missing) since its been weeks since i last used the missing key. crap. where the hell will i start looking for a missing key?! i just washed my bag earlier yesterday! it cant be in my bag. well, it shouldnt be there even if my place my key chain there. damn it!!!!  i need to forget about it for a while so i can sleep. 

Thursday, October 21, 2010

this is the second night of having a headache. i wonder if i should have my blood viscosity checked? its also been a couple of days since i woke up with a numb right arm. and my kidney area on both sides have been feeling a bit painful for three days now. damn it. just earlier this week, i damaged my throat because i coughed too hard one night. i should start strengthening my physical self soon.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

i need to look for more law offices. i submitted my resume to three offices and still no calls. well, its only three. i should start to look for more law offices. my officemate joked that i could submit my resume to the law offices handling the opposing parties' case the pleadings that im making. well, if i become desperate, i might really try it.



ever since i started my temp work, ive done a handful of legal research, appeared for a hearing that im absolutely not prepared for. i was only informed about it around 8am that we dont have a lawyer that could attend the 8:30 hearing. so i had less than 30 minutes to prepare. not prepare for the case but prepare to get out of bed and find my barong. so i rushed to the trial court to make an appearance and inform the court that we are not prepared and explain why. unfortunately, the judge didnt find the reason satisfactory and ordered that the case should proceed. crap. anyway, the judge decided that the fiscal should do the lawyer work since im not qualified yet nor prepared to do it. i dont even have the case file with me!

also attended a labor case. so far that's work. im getting old and underpaid. at least im getting good exposure to a well rounded legal work.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

hired! sort of. just finished my first day of work.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

one full week since the last bar exam sunday and im still having dreams about the bar exams. the other day i dreamt there was a fifth bar sunday. and earlier today, i dreamt that i wasnt able to write my name on my booklet.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

went to solgen this morning to submit my resume. tried to re-learn hiragana and read a book about philippine-japan relations. bought the book back in college and never read it. i dont remember why i bought it in the first place.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

not feeling well. i think im going to be sick. i have a headache and my throat hurts. at least the bar exams are over.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

lost 10 pounds since june. with just a few days left before the 2010 bar exams is finally over, i guess i wont be losing more than a couple more pounds. while people usually gain weight, i lose them. its very easy for me to lose weight. i can lose it overnight if i wanted to. i remember back in college, i lost 2 pounds by merely pulling off an all nighter. thats why i try not to lose sleep. i can get really grumpy when i lack sleep (and im not exactly the cheerful type during my normal mode). i become less inhibited when i dont have much sleep. so its either im grumpy or playful. depends on the mood.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

what the crap is up with this weather! its soooo hot!!!! its september already! where the crap is the cool air? where's the rain!? damn it!!!!! i hate the warm weather! unless im in beach mode.

Sunday, September 05, 2010

done with the first bar sunday. one down, three to go

Friday, September 03, 2010

soooo tired!!! spent the day doing some "last minute" review for the first bar sunday. i hope i managed to cover everything i need to cover for poli and labor and that i remember them until sunday. now its time to go to youtube and watch...

nine ladies dancing!
nine ladies singing!
nine ladies laughing!
nine ladies joking!
nine korean chicks!
four music vids!
three hot girls!
two fancam clips!
and a girl group nicknamed SoShi

Thursday, September 02, 2010

holy crap! i studied from 9am to 11pm! 14 hours!? inclusive of 20 minute lunch and four 15 minute breaks.  

Friday, August 27, 2010

i still have a swollen lip and a swollen cheek. looks like i have a serious gum infection.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

got a swollen cheek and a swollen lip. its really getting me down. it causes some discomfort when i eat
attended the first preweek lecture a while ago. then went to the dentist to have my swollen gum checked

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

just got back from the dentist. my gum on my right cheek is a bit swollen (i can feel it through my right cheek) and she said its probably due to my stress levels. if there's anything good with signs, its my body. it didnt deem the rashes and the cough as sufficient to tell me im stressed. it had to include swollen gums.

mcdo matalino did something nice for me today. even if i was still at the back of the line and it wasnt my turn yet, they already prepared my order. i didnt have to wait for the guy before me to finish his order and i was already done with my transaction. i hope fast food restos can be this efficient all the time.

as regards the hostage drama yesterday, i think the policemen should seek the aid of event organizers and wedding coordinators. the latter is more efficient and effective in getting the job done.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

im not feeling well. i hope its not dengue. got a mosquito bite on my right leg. hope it wasnt caused by an aedis aegypti mosquito. not sure if i got the scientific name right. grade school stuff have been dislodged by new material i need to remember until september ends. if it is dengue, i just wish my blood condition could serve as a mitigating factor and i dont have to be confined or something.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

finally! a quite productive day. it was a fucking struggle but productive nonetheless. just a few weeks before the bar exam month and im already showing signs of "wear and tear" (my brain is too tired to think and search for the right words). my body is really starting to reject review mode. just a few pages of reading and i start to feel very warm and nauseous. my throat starts to ache too if i insist on reviewing. so i had to resort to a lot of breaks, some lasted for half an hour, some lasted for two hours, depends on whether my body wont mind me hitting the books again. its a very intermittent way of reviewing but at least im moving forward. managed to cover 185 pages (which isnt really good because the target was 400 pages and it was scheduled to be done yesterday! but i would say not bad since i had no output whatsoever from the days prior. days prior? aaaahh! too tired to think)

Friday, August 13, 2010

just saw my August 12 post, 3am. cant remember making it. wow, i must have been really messed up during that time i cant even remember posting it. although its me alright, i dont recall actually writing it and posting it.
another unproductive day. three days in a row.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

i want to be with someone. unfortunately, i cant. damn it

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

i dont care. i dont care. i dont ca-a-a-a-a-are. i didnt study much today. i started not feeling well. also, im starting not to care too. im just too booooored. day in day out, all day long, all i do is study. well, i take breaks and rest days but breaks and rest days arent fun!!! i hate it when i get too bored about something. and i think im suffering from withdrawal symptoms. why do pretty women have to smell so nice? aaw, crap! i hate having limited time! this is a restriction of my freedom of movement or something.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

started reviewing around 1pm. woke up late. was able to review 260 pages. 100 pages short of the target for today. 100 pages is a lot to carry over for tomorrow. and i was planning to free up some time so i can watch a movie. not sure if thats going to happen. wait...i think i still can if im going to wake up early!!! i hate myself every morning because i always try to reason with my half-awake self not to wake up yet.

Monday, August 09, 2010

very unproductive day
as usual, i studied. im behind 30 pages for today. attended mass late in the afternoon and then walked home in the rain (i attended the mass in the PoHS/UP Chapel. i really dont like IHMP). it was nice...and idiotic. i could have caught a cold when i cant afford to be sick. my shoes and shorts were drenched. had to place my cellphones and mp3 player in my backpocket because it wasnt as wet as the rest of my shorts.

Friday, August 06, 2010

got nothing new to report to myself. i just studied today. had coffee, applie pie and french fries when i studied for a couple of hours in mcdonalds matalino. today is a productive day.
got nothing new to report to myself. i just studied today. had coffee, applie pie and french fries when i studied for a couple of hours in mcdonalds matalino. today is a productive day.

Thursday, August 05, 2010

just got home. finally got my bar permit! whew. this means its time to really get serious. i wonder if i can really execute the 16hour study schedule? i think its possible. the problem is i might not be able to control my rageaholic side. if not, then a 12hour study schedule is the minimum i should make sure i accomplish. and if dont manage to pull that of, i still have plan C and plan D. time to execute plan A...starting tomorrow. 

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

unproductive day. my right ear hurts. my vision is blurred. tongue is still abnormal. same portion at the back of my head hurts from time to time.
finally, was able to study and cover a substantial portion. yesterday, i was just not in the mood.

Sunday, August 01, 2010

tried starting the day right. woke up a little past 6am, attended mass, studied in mcdo matalino and went home around 10 to 1030 am. continued studying until around 3pm when i was interrupted by a loud videoke-like session. this lasted until 630pm. there's still a videoke session happening while writing this but its not as loud as before. and im not feeling well at the moment. i think im going to be sick. august, youre simply incredible.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

having sleeping problems. fell asleep around 6am. crap.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

ive been very unproductive since Friday. some of my teeth hurts. havent fully recovered from the minor surgery but i would say im 75%-80% back to normal. now my plan is to sleep less. not only to make more time but to prevent myself from sleep indulgence. i have to get used to having not much sleep.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

studied. not as productive as yesterday but i studied.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

saw Inception. like what i just tweeted hours earlier, it was ok. when i say its ok, it probably means good to most people since my standards are high. right after seeing the movie, went straight to econ lib to study. studied a little more in Mcdo Matalino. what i established today is...i can still manage my time well. i was able to insert a 2 and half hour movie in my sched and still cover substantially the same material. thats good. and theres still room for improvement and i figured out a way how to do it. this has been a productive day

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

studied in Econ lib. making good progress on my pace. tongue still annoys me.

Monday, July 19, 2010

back to bar review mode...with a some painful distractions. and im down to 20 pages per hour. damn it! i need to warm up again to get to the pace i was in before the surgery.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

so what the crap was i up to lately?

took the mock bar last sunday. had my impacted tooth removed last monday. didnt study from monday to friday because i decided to really rest in order to recover quickly from the minor surgery. my right cheek is still swollen and my tongue is still mildly numb. hopefully i can study normally by tomorrow.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

wasted saturday. was very unproductive.

today, took the mock bar. wasnt prepared but i managed to write answers on all items. minor surgery tomorrow.

Friday, July 09, 2010

woke up late because of the stupid toothache. fell asleep around 6am. woke around 11am so my day started around noon. watched the world cup around 4am because i knew i wont fall asleep with the pain. went to my old dentist to schedule the extraction/minor surgery. not sure if the headache im feeling is related to the tooth ache. its like a hammer hitting lightly the top of my head.

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

what did i do yesterday? i dont quite remember. i studied thats for sure but what happened in between the study breaks...its a blur.

took the mock bar today. it was ok. will continue studying tomorrow.

Monday, July 05, 2010

depression just kicked in. really? i have to deal with this now with a tooth ache and a cold while monitoring my somewhat negligible bacterial infection and reviewing for the bar? and trying to counter distractions too. i have to admit, my mental and physical weakness is making me fall apart at the seams.
what the crap happened yesterday? i wasnt able to take the mock bar. didnt feel well. just tried to rest yesterday.

went to the doctor this morning. she said there's nothing wrong with me. got a negligible bacterial infection and that my impacted tooth could be contributing to whatever im feeling. she said it might be affecting a nerve so i need to have it extracted as soon as possible.

Saturday, July 03, 2010

oh crap. im heating up! i wonder if im going to spontaneously combust?

haha. i just tried snapping my fingers and wondered if i can make them spark. but seriously, i really feel hotter than a while ago as if my temperature is rising. but like i said, the thermometer says my temps normal. what the crap is going on!?
im hot!

yup. im hot. well, i feel hot. checked my temperature and i dont have a fever. i feel like im burning up. i checked if the thermometer is working. its working fine. i have a normal temperature yet i feel like im really burning. my eyes...well, not really burning, but it feels very warm. i guess this is how it feels like if i dont have sweat glands. its like im covered with warm air. what the crap is wrong with me? ive been asking God for rain (strong rain) because i really, really hate the warm feeling. now i realize, maybe there's something wrong with me and not the weather. i feel like im overheating.

anyway, i started the day around 530am. went to mcdo matalino around 6am to study. started feeling warmer than usual during the afternoon until now. mock bar tomorrow.

Friday, July 02, 2010

took the mock bar exam for poli and labor yesterday. happy with labor. need to read more for poli.

went to the clinic today for xray, urinalysis and blood test. not feeling well since wednesday. wasnt able to study anything today. i dont have a fever but i have mild muscle pains and i really dont feel well.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

im not feeling well. started the day around 530 am, studied at mcdo matalino from 630 am to 11am. went home to have lunch and thats when i started to feel like im sick. i dont have a fever but it feels i have one. wasnt able to prepare for the mock bar tomorrow. oh well, theres nothing i can do about it. right now, im sweating as if i have a high temperature but i dont have a fever. i have a cough though.
its 5am and its raining

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

what the crap happened yesterday? just stayed home and reviewed.

same thing today. and im starting to regain the focus i need. problem is, im not physically fit for it. after a couple of hours, i start to feel dizzy and feel im going to have a fever. good thing is my usual 50 pages for 2 hours pace has been reduced to 40 pages per hour (or improved from 25 pages per hour to 40 pages per hour. depends on how one looks at it). i could hit 50 to 60 pages per hour if i were in a better physical condition. i better figure out a way to squeeze in physical training

Sunday, June 27, 2010

reviewed in mcdo matalino
friday: met diane then went to pan amerikana. rained hard and got stranded at katips.

saturday: watched the movies i rented

Thursday, June 24, 2010

just got home. started the day reviewing. met jump to give his CNDR. went to makati. then went to mcdo matalino. felt awful

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

went to the Supreme Court to file my bar petition. i hope there are no problems with it. then saw a attempted snatching incident. then went to UP to review. then went home.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

went to UP to get stamps and have the petition notarized. then reviewed. then tried to synch my phones with the laptop. laptop scared the shit out of me. new phone did the same.

Monday, June 21, 2010

woke up late. then went to UP to review. craved for sushi and maki. didnt find any so i settled for isaw. wasnt good enough so went home disappointed.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

has Father's Day lunch at Max's Ali Mall, watched Toy Story 3 in 3D at Gateway, attended sunday mass at UP Parish of the Holy Sacrifice. tiring day.
almost forgot to do a recap of the day. i really should do this daily in order to establish some order and routine in my currently chaotic life.

well, woke up. then what? hmm. oh yeah, today was my appointment with the dentist. i was scheduled to be at the clinic by 10am. arrived a little late due to the heavy traffic caused by a minor collision between a bus and a private vehicle. another dentist looked at my xray because the other one was not available. i then went to UP to claim my CNDR. bumped into sao when i was in panic mode since i was worrying about a lot of things and my mind was going overdrive. she probably thought i was having some nervous breakdown. then went home after getting the document. had lunch. fell asleep. woke up. went to Mcdo Matalino to get some coffee and try to study. then went home. got pissed with the warm weather. blogged about it. it rained. fixed my twitter account. thats it.

Friday, June 18, 2010

so what did i do today? well, got a dental xray (P700), claimed reviewers, checked out BK ERod,  studied in Mcdonalds Matalino for more or less 2 hours
wow, its 5am and im awake. seems like january 2009 but its not. im awake because i havent slept and not because im eager to start a brand new day. well, no point in hoping to bring back what cant be brought back. whats done is done.
i should use this blog more often. i need to document my daily activity to encourage me to be productive every day.
my head hurts, my tooth aches and i cant sleep because of the goddamn warm weather!!!

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

theres something wrong with my neck

Monday, June 07, 2010

lost my coin purse that was given by chelle as a gift a few years ago. dropped it inside a jeepney.

Saturday, June 05, 2010

i missed using my senheiser earphones. the sound quality is just incredible compared to the standard earphones that come with the mp3 player (which is total crap) and the decent sound quality of philips earhphones.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

im on a very tight budget until september. will have to stick to the plan. i hate being unemployed

Sunday, May 23, 2010

im having a difficult time remembering things again

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

still suffering from abnormal sleep patterns. havent slept for more 24 hours...and i still cant sleep.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

im having another sleepless night. my problems are really haunting me

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

i cant sleep and i dont like it

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

my head hurts. and i cant sleep...again. second time this week.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

im like robin scherbatsky and banjo is like barney stinson.

Sunday, March 07, 2010

im not the type who easily lets go of things or people i hold on to. but once i do let go, i really let go. no turning back. in every instance, its my loss. and pride always prevents me from undoing what ive done. its what prevents me from turning back.

well, there was this one instance when i tried to undo what ive done. it didnt work. it just showed me that sometimes some things cant be saved for the simple reason that there's the refusal to be saved. after making the decision that i have to make an exception, after swallowing my pride, the insulting experience pissed it off and made pride come back even stronger. now im certain that pride would be one of the things i would take along with me when i die.

so no matter how much i regret how things turned out to be, i will utter no apologies until my last breath. 

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

maybe this lawyering thing isnt for me. i mean, im willing to jeopardize my legal career just because of a minor inconvenience. although i enjoy lawyering...the thing is, i already ruined things for myself. and so far, i can live with it. so why bother? i dont want to continue to endure minor inconveniences for nothing. thats just stupid.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

lost my digicam and wallet yesterday

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

after a long staff meeting, im going to go to class. and tomorrow i start with the assignments discussed in todays meeting. i now have stuff scheduled until february.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

one of my big problems is...i dont know how to show my appreciation for things. like effort done to please me. i do appreciate the effort but how to express it...i just dont know.
now i understand why long distance relationships dont work. or why its very difficult. thats weird. this isnt the first time ive been in this situation but somehow things are different. its like im seeing things differently as before.
im not getting much emails in one of my email accounts.

there are a few friends requests in a social networking site that didnt register in its corresponding email account...

im still not feeling well and its been more than a week...