Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
twenty seven years and nine days. im twenty seven years and nine days old. and i started it by sitting in front of the hospital where i was born. twenty seven years and nine days ago, i came out of a womb as a skinny little infant. totally clueless that after twenty seven years and nine days, i would be sitting in front of a building where i took my first breathe of air.
i didnt purposely go to the hospital. i was there out of necessity. my sister was very ill and had to be confined and this was the nearest hospital where she can be confined for further observation. i sat inside my ever reliable van i call ___, parking it in front of the hospital. thats how i ended up sitting in front of the hospital where i was born, staring at it for hours. at that time, we didnt know my sister had to be confined so i waited outside. it took hours before the hospital people decided to have her confined for the night.
i didnt purposely go to the hospital. i was there out of necessity. my sister was very ill and had to be confined and this was the nearest hospital where she can be confined for further observation. i sat inside my ever reliable van i call ___, parking it in front of the hospital. thats how i ended up sitting in front of the hospital where i was born, staring at it for hours. at that time, we didnt know my sister had to be confined so i waited outside. it took hours before the hospital people decided to have her confined for the night.
just had another hectic day. had a "research rush". its that kind of "rush" feeling i get when i need to finish a research in break neck speed. my heart pumps faster (giving the illusion that time slows down for me but in reality, im just moving much faster than i need to), my eyes scan words much quicker and my brain comprehends it with dizzying speed. managed to finish the work in 59 minutes. because i had to. the work was given when it was almost 4pm. once i got back in front of the laptop, its was 4:01 and i timed myself. finished it by the strike of 5pm. i take my "once the clock strikes 5, im outta here" rule seriously (but that doesnt mean im off the hook for the day. work can call me at home).
i also met three clients. i also had phone in questions seeking legal advice. i felt like a doctor of sorts where i would tell my officemate to send the client to my room once im ready to speak with him or her. then i ask what's the problem and then i make an assessment. if i cant do it, i would say i need to consult the associate. and to think this is a typical day for most associates working in big law firms. i think.
i also met three clients. i also had phone in questions seeking legal advice. i felt like a doctor of sorts where i would tell my officemate to send the client to my room once im ready to speak with him or her. then i ask what's the problem and then i make an assessment. if i cant do it, i would say i need to consult the associate. and to think this is a typical day for most associates working in big law firms. i think.
Friday, December 03, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
i went to two interviews last week for two law firms. im now waiting for a third law firm to schedule an interview. im really hoping to get hired in another law firm. but at the same time, i dont mind if end up staying with my current law office.
the thing about work is that it helps in making days go by. its a meaningful distraction that makes time less burdensome in a way.
the thing about work is that it helps in making days go by. its a meaningful distraction that makes time less burdensome in a way.
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
dream recall: (dream recall entries should be posted in another blog but i inadvertently transformed that blog into a "bookmark" blog. posting it now would make the entry look out of place)
dreamt of getting married. again! in my last dream i said that there must have been some good deal behind the marriage. the bride was pretty but she wasnt my type. this time, i was set to get married to two different people. one in the morning and one in the afternoon. as usual, in my dream, i really dont want to get married but for some reason im bound by something to do it. and i was thinking very hard how i can escape being charged with bigamy. and how im going to pull off the two marriages. didnt get to attend the second marriage since i woke up already. didnt even finish the first one. actually, i didnt even finish the other one too. i wake up the moment i see the bride walking towards me.
dreamt of getting married. again! in my last dream i said that there must have been some good deal behind the marriage. the bride was pretty but she wasnt my type. this time, i was set to get married to two different people. one in the morning and one in the afternoon. as usual, in my dream, i really dont want to get married but for some reason im bound by something to do it. and i was thinking very hard how i can escape being charged with bigamy. and how im going to pull off the two marriages. didnt get to attend the second marriage since i woke up already. didnt even finish the first one. actually, i didnt even finish the other one too. i wake up the moment i see the bride walking towards me.
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
just threw my retractable mouse against the wall. it broke into pieces. naturally. and its all because i got pissed with the slow internet connection. losing my temper would be understandable if i had a stressful day at work but that wasnt the case.
note to self: avoid getting addicted to "illegal" drugs.
note to self: avoid getting addicted to "illegal" drugs.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
in addition to doing some legal research work, cleaning a pair of shoes, reading a book and learning the katakana, i have to include searching for a missing key to the stuff im going to do...when i wake up in a few hours. just found out one my keys in my key chain is missing. dont know when it went missing (or how it went missing) since its been weeks since i last used the missing key. crap. where the hell will i start looking for a missing key?! i just washed my bag earlier yesterday! it cant be in my bag. well, it shouldnt be there even if my place my key chain there. damn it!!!! i need to forget about it for a while so i can sleep.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
this is the second night of having a headache. i wonder if i should have my blood viscosity checked? its also been a couple of days since i woke up with a numb right arm. and my kidney area on both sides have been feeling a bit painful for three days now. damn it. just earlier this week, i damaged my throat because i coughed too hard one night. i should start strengthening my physical self soon.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
i need to look for more law offices. i submitted my resume to three offices and still no calls. well, its only three. i should start to look for more law offices. my officemate joked that i could submit my resume to the law offices handling the opposing parties' case the pleadings that im making. well, if i become desperate, i might really try it.
ever since i started my temp work, ive done a handful of legal research, appeared for a hearing that im absolutely not prepared for. i was only informed about it around 8am that we dont have a lawyer that could attend the 8:30 hearing. so i had less than 30 minutes to prepare. not prepare for the case but prepare to get out of bed and find my barong. so i rushed to the trial court to make an appearance and inform the court that we are not prepared and explain why. unfortunately, the judge didnt find the reason satisfactory and ordered that the case should proceed. crap. anyway, the judge decided that the fiscal should do the lawyer work since im not qualified yet nor prepared to do it. i dont even have the case file with me!
also attended a labor case. so far that's work. im getting old and underpaid. at least im getting good exposure to a well rounded legal work.
ever since i started my temp work, ive done a handful of legal research, appeared for a hearing that im absolutely not prepared for. i was only informed about it around 8am that we dont have a lawyer that could attend the 8:30 hearing. so i had less than 30 minutes to prepare. not prepare for the case but prepare to get out of bed and find my barong. so i rushed to the trial court to make an appearance and inform the court that we are not prepared and explain why. unfortunately, the judge didnt find the reason satisfactory and ordered that the case should proceed. crap. anyway, the judge decided that the fiscal should do the lawyer work since im not qualified yet nor prepared to do it. i dont even have the case file with me!
also attended a labor case. so far that's work. im getting old and underpaid. at least im getting good exposure to a well rounded legal work.
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Sunday, October 03, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
lost 10 pounds since june. with just a few days left before the 2010 bar exams is finally over, i guess i wont be losing more than a couple more pounds. while people usually gain weight, i lose them. its very easy for me to lose weight. i can lose it overnight if i wanted to. i remember back in college, i lost 2 pounds by merely pulling off an all nighter. thats why i try not to lose sleep. i can get really grumpy when i lack sleep (and im not exactly the cheerful type during my normal mode). i become less inhibited when i dont have much sleep. so its either im grumpy or playful. depends on the mood.
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Friday, September 03, 2010
soooo tired!!! spent the day doing some "last minute" review for the first bar sunday. i hope i managed to cover everything i need to cover for poli and labor and that i remember them until sunday. now its time to go to youtube and watch...
nine ladies dancing!
nine ladies singing!
nine ladies laughing!
nine ladies joking!
nine korean chicks!
four music vids!
three hot girls!
two fancam clips!
and a girl group nicknamed SoShi
nine ladies dancing!
nine ladies singing!
nine ladies laughing!
nine ladies joking!
nine korean chicks!
four music vids!
three hot girls!
two fancam clips!
and a girl group nicknamed SoShi
Thursday, September 02, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
just got back from the dentist. my gum on my right cheek is a bit swollen (i can feel it through my right cheek) and she said its probably due to my stress levels. if there's anything good with signs, its my body. it didnt deem the rashes and the cough as sufficient to tell me im stressed. it had to include swollen gums.
mcdo matalino did something nice for me today. even if i was still at the back of the line and it wasnt my turn yet, they already prepared my order. i didnt have to wait for the guy before me to finish his order and i was already done with my transaction. i hope fast food restos can be this efficient all the time.
as regards the hostage drama yesterday, i think the policemen should seek the aid of event organizers and wedding coordinators. the latter is more efficient and effective in getting the job done.
mcdo matalino did something nice for me today. even if i was still at the back of the line and it wasnt my turn yet, they already prepared my order. i didnt have to wait for the guy before me to finish his order and i was already done with my transaction. i hope fast food restos can be this efficient all the time.
as regards the hostage drama yesterday, i think the policemen should seek the aid of event organizers and wedding coordinators. the latter is more efficient and effective in getting the job done.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
im not feeling well. i hope its not dengue. got a mosquito bite on my right leg. hope it wasnt caused by an aedis aegypti mosquito. not sure if i got the scientific name right. grade school stuff have been dislodged by new material i need to remember until september ends. if it is dengue, i just wish my blood condition could serve as a mitigating factor and i dont have to be confined or something.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
finally! a quite productive day. it was a fucking struggle but productive nonetheless. just a few weeks before the bar exam month and im already showing signs of "wear and tear" (my brain is too tired to think and search for the right words). my body is really starting to reject review mode. just a few pages of reading and i start to feel very warm and nauseous. my throat starts to ache too if i insist on reviewing. so i had to resort to a lot of breaks, some lasted for half an hour, some lasted for two hours, depends on whether my body wont mind me hitting the books again. its a very intermittent way of reviewing but at least im moving forward. managed to cover 185 pages (which isnt really good because the target was 400 pages and it was scheduled to be done yesterday! but i would say not bad since i had no output whatsoever from the days prior. days prior? aaaahh! too tired to think)
Friday, August 13, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
i dont care. i dont care. i dont ca-a-a-a-a-are. i didnt study much today. i started not feeling well. also, im starting not to care too. im just too booooored. day in day out, all day long, all i do is study. well, i take breaks and rest days but breaks and rest days arent fun!!! i hate it when i get too bored about something. and i think im suffering from withdrawal symptoms. why do pretty women have to smell so nice? aaw, crap! i hate having limited time! this is a restriction of my freedom of movement or something.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
started reviewing around 1pm. woke up late. was able to review 260 pages. 100 pages short of the target for today. 100 pages is a lot to carry over for tomorrow. and i was planning to free up some time so i can watch a movie. not sure if thats going to happen. wait...i think i still can if im going to wake up early!!! i hate myself every morning because i always try to reason with my half-awake self not to wake up yet.
Monday, August 09, 2010
as usual, i studied. im behind 30 pages for today. attended mass late in the afternoon and then walked home in the rain (i attended the mass in the PoHS/UP Chapel. i really dont like IHMP). it was nice...and idiotic. i could have caught a cold when i cant afford to be sick. my shoes and shorts were drenched. had to place my cellphones and mp3 player in my backpocket because it wasnt as wet as the rest of my shorts.
Friday, August 06, 2010
Thursday, August 05, 2010
just got home. finally got my bar permit! whew. this means its time to really get serious. i wonder if i can really execute the 16hour study schedule? i think its possible. the problem is i might not be able to control my rageaholic side. if not, then a 12hour study schedule is the minimum i should make sure i accomplish. and if dont manage to pull that of, i still have plan C and plan D. time to execute plan A...starting tomorrow.
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Sunday, August 01, 2010
tried starting the day right. woke up a little past 6am, attended mass, studied in mcdo matalino and went home around 10 to 1030 am. continued studying until around 3pm when i was interrupted by a loud videoke-like session. this lasted until 630pm. there's still a videoke session happening while writing this but its not as loud as before. and im not feeling well at the moment. i think im going to be sick. august, youre simply incredible.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
ive been very unproductive since Friday. some of my teeth hurts. havent fully recovered from the minor surgery but i would say im 75%-80% back to normal. now my plan is to sleep less. not only to make more time but to prevent myself from sleep indulgence. i have to get used to having not much sleep.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
saw Inception. like what i just tweeted hours earlier, it was ok. when i say its ok, it probably means good to most people since my standards are high. right after seeing the movie, went straight to econ lib to study. studied a little more in Mcdo Matalino. what i established today is...i can still manage my time well. i was able to insert a 2 and half hour movie in my sched and still cover substantially the same material. thats good. and theres still room for improvement and i figured out a way how to do it. this has been a productive day
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
so what the crap was i up to lately?
took the mock bar last sunday. had my impacted tooth removed last monday. didnt study from monday to friday because i decided to really rest in order to recover quickly from the minor surgery. my right cheek is still swollen and my tongue is still mildly numb. hopefully i can study normally by tomorrow.
took the mock bar last sunday. had my impacted tooth removed last monday. didnt study from monday to friday because i decided to really rest in order to recover quickly from the minor surgery. my right cheek is still swollen and my tongue is still mildly numb. hopefully i can study normally by tomorrow.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Friday, July 09, 2010
woke up late because of the stupid toothache. fell asleep around 6am. woke around 11am so my day started around noon. watched the world cup around 4am because i knew i wont fall asleep with the pain. went to my old dentist to schedule the extraction/minor surgery. not sure if the headache im feeling is related to the tooth ache. its like a hammer hitting lightly the top of my head.
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
Monday, July 05, 2010
depression just kicked in. really? i have to deal with this now with a tooth ache and a cold while monitoring my somewhat negligible bacterial infection and reviewing for the bar? and trying to counter distractions too. i have to admit, my mental and physical weakness is making me fall apart at the seams.
what the crap happened yesterday? i wasnt able to take the mock bar. didnt feel well. just tried to rest yesterday.
went to the doctor this morning. she said there's nothing wrong with me. got a negligible bacterial infection and that my impacted tooth could be contributing to whatever im feeling. she said it might be affecting a nerve so i need to have it extracted as soon as possible.
went to the doctor this morning. she said there's nothing wrong with me. got a negligible bacterial infection and that my impacted tooth could be contributing to whatever im feeling. she said it might be affecting a nerve so i need to have it extracted as soon as possible.
Saturday, July 03, 2010
oh crap. im heating up! i wonder if im going to spontaneously combust?
haha. i just tried snapping my fingers and wondered if i can make them spark. but seriously, i really feel hotter than a while ago as if my temperature is rising. but like i said, the thermometer says my temps normal. what the crap is going on!?
haha. i just tried snapping my fingers and wondered if i can make them spark. but seriously, i really feel hotter than a while ago as if my temperature is rising. but like i said, the thermometer says my temps normal. what the crap is going on!?
im hot!
yup. im hot. well, i feel hot. checked my temperature and i dont have a fever. i feel like im burning up. i checked if the thermometer is working. its working fine. i have a normal temperature yet i feel like im really burning. my eyes...well, not really burning, but it feels very warm. i guess this is how it feels like if i dont have sweat glands. its like im covered with warm air. what the crap is wrong with me? ive been asking God for rain (strong rain) because i really, really hate the warm feeling. now i realize, maybe there's something wrong with me and not the weather. i feel like im overheating.
anyway, i started the day around 530am. went to mcdo matalino around 6am to study. started feeling warmer than usual during the afternoon until now. mock bar tomorrow.
yup. im hot. well, i feel hot. checked my temperature and i dont have a fever. i feel like im burning up. i checked if the thermometer is working. its working fine. i have a normal temperature yet i feel like im really burning. my eyes...well, not really burning, but it feels very warm. i guess this is how it feels like if i dont have sweat glands. its like im covered with warm air. what the crap is wrong with me? ive been asking God for rain (strong rain) because i really, really hate the warm feeling. now i realize, maybe there's something wrong with me and not the weather. i feel like im overheating.
anyway, i started the day around 530am. went to mcdo matalino around 6am to study. started feeling warmer than usual during the afternoon until now. mock bar tomorrow.
Friday, July 02, 2010
took the mock bar exam for poli and labor yesterday. happy with labor. need to read more for poli.
went to the clinic today for xray, urinalysis and blood test. not feeling well since wednesday. wasnt able to study anything today. i dont have a fever but i have mild muscle pains and i really dont feel well.
went to the clinic today for xray, urinalysis and blood test. not feeling well since wednesday. wasnt able to study anything today. i dont have a fever but i have mild muscle pains and i really dont feel well.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
im not feeling well. started the day around 530 am, studied at mcdo matalino from 630 am to 11am. went home to have lunch and thats when i started to feel like im sick. i dont have a fever but it feels i have one. wasnt able to prepare for the mock bar tomorrow. oh well, theres nothing i can do about it. right now, im sweating as if i have a high temperature but i dont have a fever. i have a cough though.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
what the crap happened yesterday? just stayed home and reviewed.
same thing today. and im starting to regain the focus i need. problem is, im not physically fit for it. after a couple of hours, i start to feel dizzy and feel im going to have a fever. good thing is my usual 50 pages for 2 hours pace has been reduced to 40 pages per hour (or improved from 25 pages per hour to 40 pages per hour. depends on how one looks at it). i could hit 50 to 60 pages per hour if i were in a better physical condition. i better figure out a way to squeeze in physical training
same thing today. and im starting to regain the focus i need. problem is, im not physically fit for it. after a couple of hours, i start to feel dizzy and feel im going to have a fever. good thing is my usual 50 pages for 2 hours pace has been reduced to 40 pages per hour (or improved from 25 pages per hour to 40 pages per hour. depends on how one looks at it). i could hit 50 to 60 pages per hour if i were in a better physical condition. i better figure out a way to squeeze in physical training
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
almost forgot to do a recap of the day. i really should do this daily in order to establish some order and routine in my currently chaotic life.
well, woke up. then what? hmm. oh yeah, today was my appointment with the dentist. i was scheduled to be at the clinic by 10am. arrived a little late due to the heavy traffic caused by a minor collision between a bus and a private vehicle. another dentist looked at my xray because the other one was not available. i then went to UP to claim my CNDR. bumped into sao when i was in panic mode since i was worrying about a lot of things and my mind was going overdrive. she probably thought i was having some nervous breakdown. then went home after getting the document. had lunch. fell asleep. woke up. went to Mcdo Matalino to get some coffee and try to study. then went home. got pissed with the warm weather. blogged about it. it rained. fixed my twitter account. thats it.
well, woke up. then what? hmm. oh yeah, today was my appointment with the dentist. i was scheduled to be at the clinic by 10am. arrived a little late due to the heavy traffic caused by a minor collision between a bus and a private vehicle. another dentist looked at my xray because the other one was not available. i then went to UP to claim my CNDR. bumped into sao when i was in panic mode since i was worrying about a lot of things and my mind was going overdrive. she probably thought i was having some nervous breakdown. then went home after getting the document. had lunch. fell asleep. woke up. went to Mcdo Matalino to get some coffee and try to study. then went home. got pissed with the warm weather. blogged about it. it rained. fixed my twitter account. thats it.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Monday, June 07, 2010
Saturday, June 05, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Sunday, March 07, 2010
im not the type who easily lets go of things or people i hold on to. but once i do let go, i really let go. no turning back. in every instance, its my loss. and pride always prevents me from undoing what ive done. its what prevents me from turning back.
well, there was this one instance when i tried to undo what ive done. it didnt work. it just showed me that sometimes some things cant be saved for the simple reason that there's the refusal to be saved. after making the decision that i have to make an exception, after swallowing my pride, the insulting experience pissed it off and made pride come back even stronger. now im certain that pride would be one of the things i would take along with me when i die.
so no matter how much i regret how things turned out to be, i will utter no apologies until my last breath.
well, there was this one instance when i tried to undo what ive done. it didnt work. it just showed me that sometimes some things cant be saved for the simple reason that there's the refusal to be saved. after making the decision that i have to make an exception, after swallowing my pride, the insulting experience pissed it off and made pride come back even stronger. now im certain that pride would be one of the things i would take along with me when i die.
so no matter how much i regret how things turned out to be, i will utter no apologies until my last breath.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
maybe this lawyering thing isnt for me. i mean, im willing to jeopardize my legal career just because of a minor inconvenience. although i enjoy lawyering...the thing is, i already ruined things for myself. and so far, i can live with it. so why bother? i dont want to continue to endure minor inconveniences for nothing. thats just stupid.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
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