i wonder if God pulled a nasty trick on me. nah. its my own doing. my own initiative. my loss. im the one who wanted to make the deal. i was just too cocky and stupid to fully realize what i was giving up. at least i got what i asked for.

more than half a decade ago, i asked God for something. in return, i offered something i thought wasnt important to me. i was a loner so i thought, it wont be much of a sacrifice on my part since i can easily get by with only myself by my side. little did i know God knew me more than i did. God knew my future more than what my foresight could see. so a little more than a couple of years ago, i tried to break the deal by doing something i already promised i wont do because i already offered it or gave it up. after a few months, God made it clear that the deal is in force. that He actually accepted my offer. so i had to choose. break the deal, which meant losing what i was asking more than half a decade ago, or comply with the agreement and suffer the penalties for breaking it. i chose the latter. but in addition with the compliance, i asked for something in addition to what i initially asked. this time i offered something more. now, im bound by those promises i have made.

my upper body is in pain. but its not as painful as expected. but its still painful enough to force me to move slower than usual. surprisingly, my body doesnt ache after a serious workout or whenever i jog (i dont even do the stretching thing). but when i went surfing a few weeks ago, my left arm was sore for a week!

im feeling extremely lazy today