did some PVO QRT then went to mandaluyong then went to UP for ADR

no nego. no puboff. just had puboff practice. and tomorrow ola duty.

went to school. did some ola stuff. made a couple of calls. rode a jeep to sm north to ride the mrt. had a stop-over at cubao before heading for NCMH in mandaluyong. then went back, rode a jeep to the mrt again all the way to sm north then back to up then home

i admire people who can keep the faith. ive encountered people who only has God as a reason to keep on living. life has been harsh to them yet they never lost their faith. it even strenghtened their faith. in a way, Marx was correct religion is like the opium of the people. it helps people get by. as bad as it may sound, i see it that way too but not in a negative manner. religion and faith is a source of strength when there's no one around to give it to you. its like God taps one's inner strength to help the person overcome life's obstacles.

im tired of pretending everything is ok. its like making a fool out of myself. it sucks. ive been the great pretender for more than a decade now. but what can i do. its not like things will be better if i stop pretending.

fuck you bayantel for your slow internet connection!

are you enjoying yourself? being alone, i mean?

nope! absolutely not. sometimes, if i dont control myself, i inadvertently socialize. i half regret it because i cant stick to what i intend to do. but i guess man is just a social animal. its really hard to go against whats natural. but sooner or later im going to figure out, again, how to withdraw from society. it wont be a enjoyable thing to do. probably the most depressing shit that can be done but i just feel that it would do me good. have some peace of mind.

thats crazy talk for you and a normal shit to deal with for me

in a way, i would say, things arent that bad because i could imagine how it could be worse. i have a midterm exam that was supposed to be due on tuesday but the deadline was extended til friday. then there was a suspension of classes today. so its like im being given a break. well,thats just it. its like im being given a break but in fact im just being given ample time. because despite the 2 holidays, i never really had any rest because i made use of those days to get some things done. and even with the extension of the deadline, im stll struggling in answering the midterm exam. with the suspension of classes, it just gave me more time to do things i need to do but that doesnt mean im about to relax sooner or later. i still have a lot of pending stuff to do! it just never ends. and the thing is, it appears to me that it will only last until the end of august. i mean, the midterm exam is due this friday. the pretrial is tomorrow. the OLA class component is this saturday. 2 of my classes assigned a lot of readings and they are due this friday and saturday.

what about next week? theres the puboff project. then there's the follow-ups on the lately neglected cases because of the academic demands that needs attending at the moment. the follow-ups involves talking and meeting clients and probably drafting documents.

i dont know how many times i will say this in my lifetime. i say this every single day. and i will saiy it again: God, i hate my life!

its a holiday but i spent the entire day studying and trying to answer a midterm exam. ok, maybe not an entire day but most of it. and i might have overdone it because i feel im going to be ill. nice.

went to caloocan yesterday. while in caloocan, i learned we wont be having class for nego. lucky? nope. when i reached home after coming from caloocan, i learned i left my ID with the guard at the caloocan rtc. crap. had to travel all  the way back because my locker keys are also with my ID. and its a long weekend due to the upcoming holidays. when i got my ID, went back home to eat lunch because im low on money. then went to school. attended ADR. then went home

following day, today, had proj dev. when i got home, started doing my pretrial brief. after that started downloading the ipl midterm exam questions. as expected, they're hard. now, i just want to rest for the night. its going to be a very busy week.

i really hate my life. and i just feel theres really nothing i can do about it. no one can really save me. not even me. i will forever be in this perpertual misery til death comes for me

had nego. went to marikina. got scolded by the judge. slept in the lib. had the puboff presentation

accompanied cheska to paranaque rtc for her direct exam. fetched her witness in ust. had puboff practice til 9pm

went to Comelec last friday. wasnt able to attend nego because i had to drop by the QC RTC. had ADR in the afternoon.

saturday: no projdev but had to work on the puboff script. had IPL then OLA class component. then practiced for the puboff project til 830pm. then when i got home, worked on the puboff script again

Thursday: accompanied my cousin to the airport since she's off to the US. no definite date yet when she will come back. from the airport, went back home to rest a little then off to school for OLA duty. had a busy OLA duty even if im just manning the desk. after OLA, had lunch with kat, maricel, cheska, aimee and mike at Ken Afford beside the memorable Dormitoryana. after lunch, went to Paranaque to accompany cheska and to check on the court records of the case im handling. from Paranaque, went back to UP to waste an hour before going to the case conference scheduled at 630. after the case con went home, ate dinner and blogged. its 9:21pm. my day officially started at 3:00am. and to think i thought an 8am to 8pm schedule was bad.

Wednesday: had nego. studied for puboff. made a draft of the script for the puboff project. studied for puboff again. had puboff class.

Tuesday: went to QC rtc, then to the UP post office then to the Caloocan RTC and then the sole of my left shoe got detached while walking in monumento, so i had it fixed and while waiting, i roamed around and got a majestic time wasting an hour then headed back to UP only to sleep because im just too tired to do anything else

Monday: cant remember much about monday except that i had puboff and dropped by the QC RTC that morning and spent some time in OLA

had nego. went to the caloocan mtc by walking all the way from monumento to 10th avenue until i reached the caloocan hall of justice or something like that. then walked again to monumento so i could take a bus going to sm north, then take a jeep that would pass by east avenue. when i got home, called up the fiscal in QC for a case status update. was supposed to go to the marikina MTC but i was too tired already and im very low on funds.