GWR: how long will you hide? how long will you stay angry?

TLT: i dont know. still cant forgive myself for what happened and what ive done.

sometimes i wonder if i should have listened to friends. when he said i should start shaking my head and walk away, i thought it was the right thing to do. when he told me how things are if i was looking at things from an objective point of view, he made sense.

months later, i learned it was the right thing to do. i did her a favor because she cant end it on her own. yeah. sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

i hate being right. but what can i do, i am never wrong. im tired of it.

how long can i hold it in you ask? as long as it takes. and ill do whatever it takes. like i said before, im ready to pay for the rest of my life

if my rashes are an indication of my mood...well, during the first half of last year, i had no rashes which was weird because since 2003, i usually have rashes. now, theyre incredibly itchy and for the first time in years, appear to be resistant to the ointment i usually use.

yeah. my health is deteriorating fast. so i have that going for me which is nice

never been the type who knows how to ask for help. even my attempts to ask for it is usually mistaken for something else.

nothing good happens after 2am