went to UP earlier today to read some updated law books. when i got there, the guard told me its closed. i then asked if its closed just today or will it be closed next saturday. he said something i idiotically failed to realize. its summer! the law library is always closed on saturdays during summer! sheesh. i even thought earlier that it should be open on a saturday because there are saturday classes. there are no classes during summer. i totally forgot its May. damn it. and its been like that since i was in law school and it hasnt been that long since i was a law student.

i wish i can make things right. but i promised im going to leave things the way they are and try to forget about it. half a decade swept under the rug. move out then never come back

there's just some things in life you just have to let go. i might regret it, i might not. at this point, i wouldnt really know. its my future self's problem, not mine. right now, letting go and moving somewhere else seems to make a lot of sense. holding on just makes me feel stupid. so im going to hold on to what i believe...and at the moment, i believe in letting go. abandon all hope and forsake everything.