i was wondering earlier today what's wrong with me. i realized that my mind keeps getting in the way. my will isnt strong enough to overcome it. i cant go against it. it has always dictated my every thought, my every move. my mind needs some reformatting but it doesnt want me to.

my neck hurts. 2nd day of a month long daily court hearing

tired. and i have a week filled with court hearings. spent holy thursday driving. visita iglesia. spent friday studying. spent saturday shopping for another set of court attire. spent sunday studying. im drained.

went to montalban and then avilon zoo. very tired.

i feel incredibly tired. like i spent the day traveling. but all i did was sit in my office the entire day.

the busy life is kicking in. im just a few pages from finishing a non-law book im reading and i cant even squeeze a few minutes to finish it. and ive skipped my japanese language self-study for two weeks now. crap. and i was making some good progress lately.

got a cut on my lip (because of shaving) and a cut on my finger (because of recklessly sliding my finger on the edge of a mirror with no frame). i hate cuts

used my weekend shopping.

yesterday, i bought 2 barongs, a pair of slacks and a pair of leather shoes. shopping for clothes isnt my thing but i have no choice. i need to buy additional barongs. i need a spare long sleeve barong because i only have one long sleeve barong (in dark blue). got myself a white one because i dont want to stand out. not yet. i need to blend in for now. back then, standing out wasnt an issue. well, its was really something i purposely did then but now, things have changed. i need to keep a low profile until its ok to attract attention. bought another short sleeve barong when i found out last thursday that my gray barong was the exact same barong used by parking attendants at Alex Grill. damn it! that was my OLA barong.

anyway, i also bought a new pair of slacks because i only have one pair that fits me. i gained a lot weight (if i were to believe the online body mass index calculator, im just 10-15 pounds away from being overweight) so all my old slacks, with the exception of one, which i bought a few months ago, no longer fit.

as for the shoes, i dont even remember when i bought my current leather shoes. its that old. i was supposed to buy new pairs of socks and a leather belt but, just buying the four items really wore me out.