i checked my work email, hoping the printer emailed the quotation already. its december 24. everyone has probably dropped work by now. maybe i should too? nope. i will read some law school stuff instead while waiting for some last minute errands for tonight's preparations.

i would rather be hurt by the truth than be lied to. not that i dont like lies. im a big fat liar myself. i just dont like being lied to. i would rather have the harsh and cruel truth. but maybe its too much to ask for a liar like myself.

have a kitkat damn it!

people have been telling me to take a break but i still have a lot of stuff to do. im tired but for some reason, i really cant stop or i cant drop the stuff im doing. i just cant. its not that im too absorbed with work or im too absorbed with law school stuff or too absorbed with the other stuff im doing. i dont even focus on any of it. i try to do all. jack of all trades, master of none. variety is what keeps me going i guess.

yey! no class later. more time for work

im tired. i want to sleep. but i cant!!!! i need to study after work. just two more weeks. two more weeks. two more weeks then i can start focusing on stuff that i cant attend to like the real property concerns, backing up of files and reformatting the PC, installing softwares, etc. i wonder when i will be in the mood to really rest?

in a few minutes, i will leave the office. the work day is about to end. now comes the acads component of the day. off to the fast food place im in the mood to go to and...study while eating until my brain gives up. then sleep. then wake up and do this again for the next few months. and when my work contract expires, if things go well in school, i will go full time in studying for the next 5 months. then after that, i will find another employment and work full time. do this for the remainder of my life. hopefully, i would be too busy to notice that time has passed me by. thats what this life is all about now.