the next time i need to go to sleep, i just have to drink some coffee. its confirmed. every time i drink coffee, i feel drowsy and extremely sleepy! well, 90% of the time. the remaining 10% of the time, it perks me up for an hour, then comes in the sleepy feeling. usually, this 10% applies if its my first time to drink a certain type of coffee. so i guess, by the 2nd time i try the coffee, my body has created an immunity from its stimulating effect.

this is probably the longest time ive been online, without any disconnections. how long? 11 hours, 35 minutes and 03 seconds...and counting.

i should start studying for labor law....right now, im just waiting for an email from grace containing the labor relations reviewer.

i was supposed to watch TMNT today but its my sister's graduation. so, i have to postpone it again!

weird. there are three muddy footprints near the doorway, as if a person came from the outside, went in the house with a muddy left foot (because there are only left foot prints). what made it weird is that we just saw it this morning, and not one of us claims it's his or hers. and it cant be us, because none of us went barefoot yesterday coming from the outside. so where did the footprints come from? and it wasnt there last night. so it was probably made while all of us were asleep. and why only left footprints?

ash is giving me a headache! i mean, its barks are like nails being driven down my skull! not to mention its been causing sleepless nights! of all the nights it could schedule its annoying night long barks, it had to start the night before my first final exam! so i didnt get to sleep that night. well, from 130am to 4am! and it hasnt stop barking ever since. ok, it does take a break from time to time but its only a few minute intervals. maybe it takes a break for 15 mins, then barks again for a couple of minutes. so i really cant fall asleep since when im about to, it barks again! so its like a cycle of falling to sleep without reaching the sleeping stage. its going to drive me crazy! and if it does, im going to a killing spree. why? because im insane! that's why! send me to the looney bin, i fucking dont care! some people treat me as if i dont have problems and i dont have a limit. i have tendencies to lose my sanity you know! anyway, the dog is still barking, and its showing no signs of stopping.

is this a deja vu? it was like my midterm exam for agency! i didnt get a good night sleep and i struggled in answering the questions! but i studied. well, i studied less on my agency exam compared to my partnership exam a while ago. i was confident on my agency exam because i thought i had a good grasp of the subject only to get pissed with my self for being too confident. just got that midterm exam back a few days ago and well, i was right, i didnt do well. and it happened again a while ago. what's more frustrating is that, i studied! ok, obviously, it wasnt enough. but maybe if i had a good night sleep, i would have done better. ok, that's a lame excuse but lately (meaning two or maybe three years), i rarely take an exam without a good night sleep. i always make sure that i have slept long enough (at least six hours, preferably around 8 hours).

anyway, right now, i just hope i get a passing grade for the final exam. that's all i ask.

wow, im actually studying again! im so proud of myself. after weeks of trying and forcing myself to study, im finally flipping pages and reading what's on them.

i started, i think around 9 am, and ive been reading for my partnership finals since then. of course, i take breaks here and there but point is, im getting somewhere! i just hope this effort is enough to keep me afloat in school.

ive lost all the things ive written on my other blog! goddamn power...i mean, electricity fluctuations! its only a little rain. there's barely a wind! only a gentle breeze. how come that electricity problem occurred. anyway, no major harm done anyway. i just hope its not a sign of more bad things to come. life has given me a break from the unfortunate events that normally happen (coincidentally, it happened a month ago, the same time ive been bothered with my sort of non-existent problem. non-existent because i cant figure out what it is. if i dont know what it is, it means i cant see what it is, and if i cant see what it is, how can i know its there, and how can i know its a problem, right? so, its logical that there's nothing there. so, nothing is bothering me).

what could ruin a cool relaxing rain on a peaceful summer night? a power outage! ok, that didnt happen, but a fluctuation on the electric current did! a fluctuation enough to restart my PC! crap. i hate that when that happens. it just ruined the good mood.

good thing firefox has this "restore session" function. not sure if explorer has that, havent used that browser for quite some time now. i didnt even upgrade it. at least i wont have to look for the website ive opened. this function of firefox is really handy.

i love rainy nights! and what is better than this? rain on a summer night! and its happening right now. just what i need. it gives a relaxing feeling. i have a finals exam on partnership (1-4pm) this saturday, followed by credit transactions class (530-730, maybe until 9...depends). finally, after a month of "taking a break", im actually studying again. although not as serious as i should be, at least im flipping pages and reading it. not just pretending which ive been doing for weeks now (i go the library, open a book or flip through the photocopied SCRAs, pretending im reading them when actually my mind is just drifting, contemplating of nothingness...cant help it, something's been bothering me for quite some time now). hoping by tomorrow, im going to finish every reading i need for the exam, and review it and review it again by saturday morning. that is, if everything goes well when i wake up tomorrow.

right knee hurting...not swollen, just sore. why? i dunno. just drove a while ago to fetch my mother from shopwise, cubao. it was just a short distance but after that short drive, my right knee started to hurt. maybe im no longer used to driving. and im going to drive to montalban this sunday! crap. my knees are going to hurt if thats the case. when was the last time i drove anyway? a week ago? it hasnt been that long. but i dont drive frequently, maybe that's why. i used to drive everyday to school, except wednesdays (coding).

so, am i feeling better already? yeah, i guess. i think its been days now that im no longer feeling fucked up. that UP fair night really drove me crazy. just crazy.

in less than a month, ive seen 15 movies, 7 in theaters, and 8 on video.

in theaters:
ghost rider
music and lyrics
the number 23
pursuit of happyness
bridge to terabithia
300
the hitcher (should have waited for it on video, wasnt that good)

on video:
Just Like Heaven (nice romcom, but 50 first dates is still the best)
40 year old virgin
Mirror Mask (entrancing eccentric visual style plus pretty actress: Stephanie Leonidas, now she's the Leonidas i like)
Tenacius D: The Pick of Destiny
Pan's labyrinth
Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby
Must Love Dogs
Night at the Museum

going to watch (either on video or in cinemas, depends whether it will be released here):
Flushed Away
The Prestige (rent on video)
Walk the Line (rent on video, because of Reese Witherspoon)
TMNT (end of march)
The Reaping (april)
An Inconvenient Truth
Reign Over Me (release date is on mar23 but in the Philippines, around July!)
Spiderman3
Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer
The Punisher2
Bean2
Ocean's Thirteen
Penelope (again, because of Reese Witherspoon)
Pirates of the Carribean: At World's End (partly because of Keira Knigtley, and partly because its really a good movie)
Resident Evil: Extinction (i liked the first 2 movies)
The Simpsons Movie
Sin City2
Evan Almighty
Transformers (not a fan of TV series, but the trailer looks good, i hope the movie is really as good as it appears in its trailers)
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
Zodiac
I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry (its a sandler movie)

ooops....spoke to soon. im fucked up as before! i just hate it here.

i now have: 3292 desktop wallpapers! 2054 are wallpapers of hot and sexy celebrities! females of course. 830 are movie wallpapers. 249 are anime wallpapers. the rest are wallpapers of cars, tv shows, nature, etc.

another lazy afternoon. got home, no one's home. nice. i like being home alone. i get the peace of mind i need. was planning to watch a movie, either 300 or The Hitcher. unfortunately, not in the mood to wait. i was at the mall around 1pm, and the next screening for 300 is 2:40 pm, and the Hitcher a bit earlier. and i couldnt think of anything i could do at the moment but eat lunch. i doubt it will take me that long to eat lunch. so i ate my lunch, and i only consumed 20 mins. that leaves me with more than an hour. so i decided to go home instead. its not worth waiting that long no matter how good the reviews are for 300. i can still watch it, maybe tomorrow or on friday.

anyway, feeling better now. maybe. dont have that bothered feeling anymore. never had the chance to figure out what it was or what caused it. i just hope its not playing tricks on me, like its going to manifest itself when i least expect it or waiting for the worst time it could pop up.

so itchy all over!!! got rashes on both my knees! dont know what's causing this allergic reaction, or to what ive been exposed to. all i know im allergic to dust mites and cockroaches. and i dont think ive been exposed to both. or maybe dust mites. i dont know. all i know is im itchy!

anyway, my state of mind hasnt improved yet. still think im going crazy. and having a hard time concentrating on my studies.